Thursday, July 02, 2009

A Letter To 16 Years Old Me

Ideas from Sue and Dils.

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Dear Dueng,

This is the year that you should cherish the most, for this is the best year in your high school years. Remember that PMR which you excel in it? Don't get blown away by it, trust me, it's nothing comparable to what you going to endure in future.

You probably nervous to choose between Pure Science or Technical stream, don't be worried. The sign that you're a Pure Science stream student had been given last year. Remember that Kemahiran Hidup class and your plan drawing was messy due to your sweaty hand? This year going to be a year of clarity, you'll get the clear picture of what you want in your life so don't waste the moment. If you feel the urge to do something good academically, it's worth every single impulse decision that you'll made.

Chemistery will be your forte though it's finally crush you in university. Add Math was always the bore of the year, just hanging there. An F is not uncommon, eh? Physics however have some love-hate attraction, the subject was a bore however the teacher is a must dealt with. Don't worry, she will toned down alot next year. Opsss..yes, 2 years under her but trust me, it worth every moment with her. It speaks alot about how people change due to something important to them and take a good lesson on it. Modern Math is a bonus for you since she's really your favorite kind. You dig her attitude but keep your hand to yourself, eh.

You must be feeling rebellious and feel that nobody could understand you. Just keep your mouth shut in front of the family, it helps alot with lessen the friction in your relationship. Well, the relationship definitely improve from past year but yeah, you know the drill during Ramadhan. It's so funny though at the moment, it will annoy you the hell out of you. Just endure it.

Lots of new faces come in and you feel the rush to get know them. Go for it though it would be damn awkward and will create lots of wild gossip. Otherwise, it will affect you for a very long time...even now. Love is your renewed and strengthen forte, though it will not work out that well. You'll have your moment though your shyness keep you from keep it up there. Don't worry, you'll learn the hard way to overcome that though she was brilliant, isn't she? She just too cute for you to resist and you spend your day and night dreaming bout her. Hopeless romantic but yeah, you're just 16 so i guess, it's allowed.

People around you will be mean to you by calling you names. Though you ignore it but deep down inside, you hate them for that. I know how you feel but remember that those people didn't worth it. Someday, you'll meet people who appreciate you and cherish you and respect you as you deserved it. Those people will make you feel comfortable in your own skin and you appreciate them for doing that for you. These people around you, right now, is not worth your value. Let it pass by but remind yourself not to mingle around with these kind of crowd if you have options not to. People who calling you names and treat yourself like some dumb shit wasn't a good crowd to begin with. You mature earlier than them hence why their childishness irritate you the most. Though sometimes you enjoy it (after all, you just a kid; i know you mad at me for saying these words but the fact is, you're still a kid), you hate them the most. You hate the wild gossip, you hate the name calling, you hate how childish they could be and it's suffocate you out of your social life which unrepairable till today.

Anyway, enjoy life as it goes as I trust you to make the right call. You'll have no regret academically but yeah, it's rather weird and challenging year in your social life. Next year, it's going to be a nice ride though the final outcome wasn't the best but you'll thanks yourself for screwing up few things especially that Biology SPM paper. Your impulse decision on academic help you alot next year hence put less stress in you for getting good results. Though, I hope you could put more effort in Add Math, it's not like you're going to listen to me anyway. I also have no regret over how it turns out but yeah, a little more A's would be nice, eh?

Owh....I almost forgot. Enjoy yourself in 3 on 3 basketball tournament, you'll have the hell of your youth there and don't hold back for what you think is right at the moment. It's so candid and hillarous, you need to wait for it. Practice your 2 point shoot, it's worth it.

Lastly, for whatever you think to improve yourself; to benchmark yourself against yourself, you do the right thing. You could only get better than your old self and it's the talking point of most people who succeed in their life. Though, your life wasn't that glittering with success, you'll satisfied with what you have done. You're matured alot for a 16 years old though nobody could see it but it's ok. These crowd didn't worth it except for some people.

Enjoy life, I know you will!

7 comments:

Hafidz Gafa said...

I am touched. Seriously!!

dueng said...

bila aku baca balik, aku pun rasa terharu. entah...mungkin too honest! :P

Dils said...

hehe. agak honest jugak la. Tapi aku rase time teenagers memang family relations tu strained sket.

dueng said...

hehehehe. betul betul betul, masa teenage, rebel gile. feel like nobody understand you. hehehe. but alas, the time will over and you'll get it finally. :P

Kucing Kertas said...

tuuuu**t org2 yg pgl kamu by names.
haha..

yep2. dun u enjoy u life now?
=)

dueng said...

eme: hahahhaa. it's ok. it's a past thing. am enjoying life, you too, right?

Lemey said...

kikiki...main 3 on 3 mmg ko yg paling tere. Aku tumpang sekaki dapat hadiah atas keteraan ko..
Ada lagi medel tu kat umah selain kisah kaliza kene kuah rojak sebab bola masuk dalam bekas kuah rojak tue..ihihihihi