Showing posts with label Life Journal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life Journal. Show all posts
Friday, December 30, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Howdy!
Howdy!
Am back. After a while, feel like writing it here again. In case you never heard of it, I'm married and will be expecting little us in August, InsyaAllah. Life so far has few ups and lots of down; always a pessimistic statement from me. Couldn't help it really.
Lots of thing happened in 2010.
Happy things:
1) Get engaged
2) Get married
3) Live as newly wed
Not so happy things:
1) Admitted for diabetis (stable now)
2) Missing major part of work thus affecting my motivation
3) Hectic, busy and full house schedule.
I have to admit that life as married man change my world. Having someone (soon to be two) to take care of really put me into thinking mode each time. Some silly mistakes here and there, I should be fine. Nothing is perfect but we have lifetime to discover it, InsyaAllah.
Work was hectic, busy, sad, bitter, full of jokes and mega fun! I just enjoyed it so much though repeating the same experience for another year maybe not so encouraging. However, boss already put me in charge with some big label to me; You Can Improve It To Be Better This Year! Noted boss. Thanks for the trust.
Financially, barely enough as usual. Perhaps should cut here and there but in the midst of getting on my feet again and running the game. It's the usual cycle of starting somewhere new, you'll be struggling at start but what makes you a perfectly unique human is how you get back on your feet and keep on running. I got a hunch that 2011 will be a better year and I pray for that.
All in all, life is fun and will always be fun. I having so much colours in life, I just couldn't ask for more. One rainbow at a time, please.
I will keep posting here since I'm back. Keep on reading, keep on smiling and have fun with life.
Am back. After a while, feel like writing it here again. In case you never heard of it, I'm married and will be expecting little us in August, InsyaAllah. Life so far has few ups and lots of down; always a pessimistic statement from me. Couldn't help it really.
Lots of thing happened in 2010.
Happy things:
1) Get engaged
2) Get married
3) Live as newly wed
Not so happy things:
1) Admitted for diabetis (stable now)
2) Missing major part of work thus affecting my motivation
3) Hectic, busy and full house schedule.
I have to admit that life as married man change my world. Having someone (soon to be two) to take care of really put me into thinking mode each time. Some silly mistakes here and there, I should be fine. Nothing is perfect but we have lifetime to discover it, InsyaAllah.
Work was hectic, busy, sad, bitter, full of jokes and mega fun! I just enjoyed it so much though repeating the same experience for another year maybe not so encouraging. However, boss already put me in charge with some big label to me; You Can Improve It To Be Better This Year! Noted boss. Thanks for the trust.
Financially, barely enough as usual. Perhaps should cut here and there but in the midst of getting on my feet again and running the game. It's the usual cycle of starting somewhere new, you'll be struggling at start but what makes you a perfectly unique human is how you get back on your feet and keep on running. I got a hunch that 2011 will be a better year and I pray for that.
All in all, life is fun and will always be fun. I having so much colours in life, I just couldn't ask for more. One rainbow at a time, please.
I will keep posting here since I'm back. Keep on reading, keep on smiling and have fun with life.
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Wind of Change. A Bit.
Well...
Hello there. I won't be writing much here as I will be writing somewhere else on more constant basis than this old, bersawang blog.
I feel that, life take a turn and I yet to have any feel whether it's for better or for worse. What I could do is just pray.
Owh...I write at MultipleEyes every Friday. Or any other day to make up my missing Friday posts.
This blog?
Well, I will let it rot for a while. Though, I might feel like I want it again...some other time. Or not.
I dunno.
Hello there. I won't be writing much here as I will be writing somewhere else on more constant basis than this old, bersawang blog.
I feel that, life take a turn and I yet to have any feel whether it's for better or for worse. What I could do is just pray.
Owh...I write at MultipleEyes every Friday. Or any other day to make up my missing Friday posts.
This blog?
Well, I will let it rot for a while. Though, I might feel like I want it again...some other time. Or not.
I dunno.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Cuba Untuk Tidak Skeptik!
Pagi tadi, opis agak muram. Ditambah pulak gerimis dalam samar-samar pagi di Kertih. Memang perfect setting untuk bermalas-malasan. My colleague yang duduk sebelah saya tak sihat. Dari kelmarin lagi dia tak sihat, mula-mula tu selsema then hari ni bertambah teruk; demam terus. Cuaca akhir-akhir ni asyik hujan, panas, hujan, panas, kadang-kadang hujan panas. Bukan sahaja orang, batu pun boleh retak kalau macam tu.
Seharian amoi tu tidur je, memang sangat lah tak sihat. Dia tanya saya, ok ke kalau dia nak balik? Bagi saya, ok je. Dah kalau tak sihat, buat apa paksa-paksa diri datang opis, kan? Things that could wait, should wait. Hari-hari menunggu maklumat dari orang KL dan Finance camni memang tak banyak benda nak dibuat. Saya cuma tolong section head feed info untuk presentation, analysis yang dah buat waktu budget cycle in December agak berguna untuk beef up lagi presentation tu. Tapi amoi tu still jugak duduk kat opis, muka dah macam orang lalok (memang lalok pun sebab tak larat sebab demam dan sebab makan ubat).
Last-last amoi tu pergi la klinik, ambik ubat. Ingatkan dah hilang terus dah balik rehat kat rumah, sekali dia datang jugak opis. Tak faham sungguh. Takper lah, dia tidur je kat bilik mommy (bilik untuk mommy yang bekerja untuk mengepam susu untuk anak2 kecik di rumah). Tapi dia taknak, maka tidurlah dekat sofa bahagian belakang opis. Dah berbalut dengan pashmina dan kot dah tapi still nampak dia sangat tidak larat.
Waktu nak balik tadi, dia mintak temankan dia jalan turun pergi kereta. Sebab dia dah betul-betul macam lalok sangat, rasanya kalau kena tiup tu boleh melayang. So, saya pun temanlah dia berjalan turun sampai ke kereta dia. Actually, tak sampai pun kereta dia sebab saya parking kawasan lain.
Selepas tu, saya terfikir sendiri. Saya rasa tenang dengan diri saya. Saya rasa dah lama saya tak buat good gesture to others cam yang jadi harini. Mungkin saya patut buat lebih lagi. Dah lama rasanya saya tidak skeptikal dengan orang dan berfikir bahawa seseorang itu adalah ikhlas dalam tutur katanya. Mungkin sebab cuaca kot, kepala otak saya retak sikit sebab panas dan hujan atau.....mungkin jugak boring dah kot jadi skeptikal, otak fikir terlalu kompleks. Takper lah, kita tengok sampai mana saya boleh tidak skeptikal.
Diharapkan tiadalah umat-umat yang dangkal fikirannya merosakkan mood baik saya dengan buat perangai yang khinzir pun segan nak mengaku saudara. All people are good people, life turning them into monster.
Believe in that!
p/s: seronok jadi skeptik sebab tiada apa yang manusia lakukan yang boleh mengejutkan saya sebab saya percaya manusia boleh lakukan perkara yang tidak terbayang di kepala kita sekarang. Cumanya, saya melihat dari sudut negatif, bukan positif. Itulah skeptik!
Seharian amoi tu tidur je, memang sangat lah tak sihat. Dia tanya saya, ok ke kalau dia nak balik? Bagi saya, ok je. Dah kalau tak sihat, buat apa paksa-paksa diri datang opis, kan? Things that could wait, should wait. Hari-hari menunggu maklumat dari orang KL dan Finance camni memang tak banyak benda nak dibuat. Saya cuma tolong section head feed info untuk presentation, analysis yang dah buat waktu budget cycle in December agak berguna untuk beef up lagi presentation tu. Tapi amoi tu still jugak duduk kat opis, muka dah macam orang lalok (memang lalok pun sebab tak larat sebab demam dan sebab makan ubat).
Last-last amoi tu pergi la klinik, ambik ubat. Ingatkan dah hilang terus dah balik rehat kat rumah, sekali dia datang jugak opis. Tak faham sungguh. Takper lah, dia tidur je kat bilik mommy (bilik untuk mommy yang bekerja untuk mengepam susu untuk anak2 kecik di rumah). Tapi dia taknak, maka tidurlah dekat sofa bahagian belakang opis. Dah berbalut dengan pashmina dan kot dah tapi still nampak dia sangat tidak larat.
Waktu nak balik tadi, dia mintak temankan dia jalan turun pergi kereta. Sebab dia dah betul-betul macam lalok sangat, rasanya kalau kena tiup tu boleh melayang. So, saya pun temanlah dia berjalan turun sampai ke kereta dia. Actually, tak sampai pun kereta dia sebab saya parking kawasan lain.
Selepas tu, saya terfikir sendiri. Saya rasa tenang dengan diri saya. Saya rasa dah lama saya tak buat good gesture to others cam yang jadi harini. Mungkin saya patut buat lebih lagi. Dah lama rasanya saya tidak skeptikal dengan orang dan berfikir bahawa seseorang itu adalah ikhlas dalam tutur katanya. Mungkin sebab cuaca kot, kepala otak saya retak sikit sebab panas dan hujan atau.....mungkin jugak boring dah kot jadi skeptikal, otak fikir terlalu kompleks. Takper lah, kita tengok sampai mana saya boleh tidak skeptikal.
Diharapkan tiadalah umat-umat yang dangkal fikirannya merosakkan mood baik saya dengan buat perangai yang khinzir pun segan nak mengaku saudara. All people are good people, life turning them into monster.
Believe in that!
p/s: seronok jadi skeptik sebab tiada apa yang manusia lakukan yang boleh mengejutkan saya sebab saya percaya manusia boleh lakukan perkara yang tidak terbayang di kepala kita sekarang. Cumanya, saya melihat dari sudut negatif, bukan positif. Itulah skeptik!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
I Wish I Had Met You Earlier
"I wish I had met you earlier before all these experience ruined you. I want to see the old you."
These had been said by her. She read my blog old entry and she felt that I had changed alot thru my life experience. It just fair to be said that I changed for past years whether I like to admit it or not. In most significant way, I couldn't be the one that I was before - for better or for worse; cause I learned my lesson. I value each experience and indulge into it. I want to be different at that moment. I want to heal the pain. I do as what I deemed fit best; being tough emotionally.
She said, she want to see the soft of me, not the I-don't-care-much, tough of me. I have to admit that I lost the soft side of me long time ago, life experience toughen me up and she has to deal with it. Not that she's couldn't patient with my character now but to see a me whom she never see before would be the most wonderful gift she could get. Painfully, I also want the same thing. I want to get hold the old me. The one whom naive, the one whom love so hard make me cry so hard when love gone, the one whom so caring, the one whom worried so much, the one whom get jealous even by smallest thing.
I want to be vulnerable again. I want to be emotional again. I want to be jealous again. I want to be worried so much again.
I want that.
And I want to try to get it. I want to believe. Help me believe in this.
Though, she love me not even a bit less.
These had been said by her. She read my blog old entry and she felt that I had changed alot thru my life experience. It just fair to be said that I changed for past years whether I like to admit it or not. In most significant way, I couldn't be the one that I was before - for better or for worse; cause I learned my lesson. I value each experience and indulge into it. I want to be different at that moment. I want to heal the pain. I do as what I deemed fit best; being tough emotionally.
She said, she want to see the soft of me, not the I-don't-care-much, tough of me. I have to admit that I lost the soft side of me long time ago, life experience toughen me up and she has to deal with it. Not that she's couldn't patient with my character now but to see a me whom she never see before would be the most wonderful gift she could get. Painfully, I also want the same thing. I want to get hold the old me. The one whom naive, the one whom love so hard make me cry so hard when love gone, the one whom so caring, the one whom worried so much, the one whom get jealous even by smallest thing.
I want to be vulnerable again. I want to be emotional again. I want to be jealous again. I want to be worried so much again.
I want that.
And I want to try to get it. I want to believe. Help me believe in this.
Though, she love me not even a bit less.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Freaky or Cute Hotel?
I'm off to Singapore on business trip. My 2 previous trips had been in disaster as I have so many things to do with very little time in hand; presentation package, not enough money, sickness etc. For this trip, things pretty much going well than 2 previous trips hence I have more relaxing time to snap pictures and getting around Singapore. My favorite place so far is Lucky Plaza. I planned to go to Mustaffa but too tired for another long trip to Mustaffa after having fun in Scotts Road. Went to ION Orchard, cool place with lots of branded stuff but for viewing only since too expensive for my pocket.
My hotel quite freaky but for some people, it's cute as hell.
My hotel quite freaky but for some people, it's cute as hell.
The green door. The white wardrobe.
The pink shelves with minibar.
The workstation.The HD TV.The green wall.
The bathroom.
The wall behind the bed.
The 2 beds.The phone (freaking Nortel!).Freaky ain't it? I found it's cozy to be in the room, the lighting definitely helps with tiredness all day long.
That's all, nothing much to tell as 40% occupied by works, 40% by sleep and another 10% by makan-makan. Just 10% for sight seeing.
That's all, nothing much to tell as 40% occupied by works, 40% by sleep and another 10% by makan-makan. Just 10% for sight seeing.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Aku ingatkan kau dah lama kerja!
Alkisah aku menghadiri mesyuarat di KL berkenaan satu sistem yang kompeni bakal digunapakai oleh seantero umat di bahagian Production Analyst. Disebabkan aku hadir waktu Ujian Penerimaan Pengguna di Kilang (UPPK) atau Factory Acceptance Testing dan orang lain tidak dapat hadir, terpaksa lah aku sorang-sorang menghadap Pengurus bahagian Operasi untuk diskusi pasal kerosakan sistem dan jugak strategi nak memaksa pembina sistem ni baiki tanpa sebarang kos.
Sampai je KLCC dah pukul 10 pagi tapi mengantuk tak hingat la, mana tak nya pukul 6 pagi aku dah bangun mandi, seterika baju dan bersiap2-siap nak pergi lapangan terbang Kerteh. Pukul 7 pagi bertolak, lebih kurang pukul 7.15 pagi sampai lapangan terbang dan terus check in. Kapal terbang berlepas pukul 8.00 pagi. Memang sangat letih sebab kena bangun awal, dah la aku ni dasar suka bangun lewat.
Sesampai je di KLCC, melantak untuk penuhkan perut. Lapar tu bukanlah satu halangan sangat cumanya aku tahu hari tu akan melalut dan sangat meletihkan maka amat afdal mengisi tembolok sebelum lalutan dan karutan bermula. Pukul 10.15 pagi masuk ke Menara 2, ambil lif angka genap dan fiiiyuuuuu....naik tingkat atas. Muka aku dah tak boleh nak senyum sebab mengantuk teramat. Orang tegur pun aku buat layan tak layan. Sampai tempat pengurus bahagian operasi tu, dia pulak tengah diskusi pasal perjalanan untuk satu lagi modul. Kali ni berkenaan UPPK untuk modul tu pulak. Sekali lagi meranduk pergi Singapura sebab pembina aplikasi ni dari Singapura. Duduk borak-borak dengan member lama, M. Duduk layan borak pasal macam-macam benda, almaklumlah hobi dah selari dengan si M ni. Pengurus tu panggil aku, maka kena la pergi tempat pengurus tu dan memulakan diskusi.
Diskusi pasal keadaan sistem dan modul tu, apa yang terjadi dan bagaimana kerosakkan semua ni boleh jadi. Cerita lah aku maka banyaklah istilah-istilah teknikal yang kebetulan dipelajari sewaktu proses menguji sistem tu aku belajar. Kalau setakat nak bercerita pasal teori secara ringkas, memang dah lepas sangat cuma kalau ditanya terlalu mendalam...mungkin kena tanya pada yang lebih pakar. Di celah-celah diskusi tu, ada la beberapa kali pengurus tu terganggu sikit pasal urusan perjalanan tu disebabkan oleh Pengurus Kanan bahagian operasi ni buat kecoh kenapa tak dapatkan tandatangan Pengarah untuk urusan ke luar negara ni.
Aku pun mencelah la bagitahu yang Singapura masih dikira sebagai penerbangan domestik maka tandatangan Pengurus Besar bahagian operasi sudah cukup.
"Ala Kak A, tanda tangan GM (General Manager) pun dah cukup. Singapore still consider as domestic flight. I used to work in Admin last time. But just for confirmation, perhaps you could check with BJ (staff aku dulu-dulu) on this."
Maka Kak A pun periksa la dengan BJ. Memang betul pun domestik maka tak perlu la buat memo semua tu. Selesai satu masalah.
Mr Z yang duduk sebelah aku ni pun tanya lah.
Mr Z:Kau ni semua benda kau tahu...sampai ticketing issue pun kau tahu. Kau dah berapa lama kerja?
Aku: Owh...aku dulu 2 tahun di KL, setahun di Kerteh. Jadi baru 3 tahun.
Mr Z: Seriosuly? Umur ko berapa? *Mr Z dah buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: 25 tahun ni. Join kompeni umur 22 tahun. *aku senyum*
Mr Z: Ish...ko biar benar. Aku ingatkan kau dah lama kerja! Mati-mati aku ingatkan kau dah 7 hingga 8 tahun dah kerja. *masih buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: Hehehe. takde la, bang (aku guna bang ni as sense of "bro")....aku tak kerja selama tu.
Mr Z: Then, camne ko tau macam-macam benda?
Aku: Part of the job, bang. Dah kena campak ke sana ke sini, aku turutkan je. Dah 2 kali tukar department, dari KL kena campak kat Kerteh. Macam-macam orang aku dah jumpa sebab dulu kerja kat Admin department. *aku sengih je*
Mr Z: So, kira hebatlah ko ni. Macam-macam tahu.
Aku: Tapi kepala pun dah naik beruban, asyik kerja je, hujung minggu pun di office....padahnya selalu la sakit-sakit, bang. Some price to pay. *aku cuma boleh sengih*
Hebat tu mungkin la hebat sebab tahu macam-macam tapi kalau dah hidup = kerja, maka hidup pun kurang bermakna.
Kesimpulan: Kerja rajin boleh tapi jangan sampai mudarat kesihatan. :)
Sampai je KLCC dah pukul 10 pagi tapi mengantuk tak hingat la, mana tak nya pukul 6 pagi aku dah bangun mandi, seterika baju dan bersiap2-siap nak pergi lapangan terbang Kerteh. Pukul 7 pagi bertolak, lebih kurang pukul 7.15 pagi sampai lapangan terbang dan terus check in. Kapal terbang berlepas pukul 8.00 pagi. Memang sangat letih sebab kena bangun awal, dah la aku ni dasar suka bangun lewat.
Sesampai je di KLCC, melantak untuk penuhkan perut. Lapar tu bukanlah satu halangan sangat cumanya aku tahu hari tu akan melalut dan sangat meletihkan maka amat afdal mengisi tembolok sebelum lalutan dan karutan bermula. Pukul 10.15 pagi masuk ke Menara 2, ambil lif angka genap dan fiiiyuuuuu....naik tingkat atas. Muka aku dah tak boleh nak senyum sebab mengantuk teramat. Orang tegur pun aku buat layan tak layan. Sampai tempat pengurus bahagian operasi tu, dia pulak tengah diskusi pasal perjalanan untuk satu lagi modul. Kali ni berkenaan UPPK untuk modul tu pulak. Sekali lagi meranduk pergi Singapura sebab pembina aplikasi ni dari Singapura. Duduk borak-borak dengan member lama, M. Duduk layan borak pasal macam-macam benda, almaklumlah hobi dah selari dengan si M ni. Pengurus tu panggil aku, maka kena la pergi tempat pengurus tu dan memulakan diskusi.
Diskusi pasal keadaan sistem dan modul tu, apa yang terjadi dan bagaimana kerosakkan semua ni boleh jadi. Cerita lah aku maka banyaklah istilah-istilah teknikal yang kebetulan dipelajari sewaktu proses menguji sistem tu aku belajar. Kalau setakat nak bercerita pasal teori secara ringkas, memang dah lepas sangat cuma kalau ditanya terlalu mendalam...mungkin kena tanya pada yang lebih pakar. Di celah-celah diskusi tu, ada la beberapa kali pengurus tu terganggu sikit pasal urusan perjalanan tu disebabkan oleh Pengurus Kanan bahagian operasi ni buat kecoh kenapa tak dapatkan tandatangan Pengarah untuk urusan ke luar negara ni.
Aku pun mencelah la bagitahu yang Singapura masih dikira sebagai penerbangan domestik maka tandatangan Pengurus Besar bahagian operasi sudah cukup.
"Ala Kak A, tanda tangan GM (General Manager) pun dah cukup. Singapore still consider as domestic flight. I used to work in Admin last time. But just for confirmation, perhaps you could check with BJ (staff aku dulu-dulu) on this."
Maka Kak A pun periksa la dengan BJ. Memang betul pun domestik maka tak perlu la buat memo semua tu. Selesai satu masalah.
Mr Z yang duduk sebelah aku ni pun tanya lah.
Mr Z:Kau ni semua benda kau tahu...sampai ticketing issue pun kau tahu. Kau dah berapa lama kerja?
Aku: Owh...aku dulu 2 tahun di KL, setahun di Kerteh. Jadi baru 3 tahun.
Mr Z: Seriosuly? Umur ko berapa? *Mr Z dah buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: 25 tahun ni. Join kompeni umur 22 tahun. *aku senyum*
Mr Z: Ish...ko biar benar. Aku ingatkan kau dah lama kerja! Mati-mati aku ingatkan kau dah 7 hingga 8 tahun dah kerja. *masih buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: Hehehe. takde la, bang (aku guna bang ni as sense of "bro")....aku tak kerja selama tu.
Mr Z: Then, camne ko tau macam-macam benda?
Aku: Part of the job, bang. Dah kena campak ke sana ke sini, aku turutkan je. Dah 2 kali tukar department, dari KL kena campak kat Kerteh. Macam-macam orang aku dah jumpa sebab dulu kerja kat Admin department. *aku sengih je*
Mr Z: So, kira hebatlah ko ni. Macam-macam tahu.
Aku: Tapi kepala pun dah naik beruban, asyik kerja je, hujung minggu pun di office....padahnya selalu la sakit-sakit, bang. Some price to pay. *aku cuma boleh sengih*
Hebat tu mungkin la hebat sebab tahu macam-macam tapi kalau dah hidup = kerja, maka hidup pun kurang bermakna.
Kesimpulan: Kerja rajin boleh tapi jangan sampai mudarat kesihatan. :)
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I Just Don't Understand Rafa
It had been a while. It had been a busy month, budget submission stuff piling up. Though, I will not miss any EPL game (hopefully).
Talking about yesterday game (versus Aston Villa), Rafa have to choose Lucas Leiva instead of Riera. I just don't get it. Lucas is far inconsistent compare to Riera and if Riera gone to the left flank, Rafa could just push Benayoun to support behind Gerrard. To actually subtitute Lucas with Voronin was utterly bullshit. Voronin is an average player and since he had been missing for loan spell outside Anfield, you need someone who have better chemistery with the team; Riera. Gerrard would be done with less midfield role if Benayoun and Kuyt and Mashcerano could cover the midfield area. Mascherano does play good game and heck, he much better than Lucas. I still don't get what's in Rafa's mind to put Lucas there.
I'm pretty dissapointed with Rafa's choice but I have faith in him as a manager. And to think of that it's still early of this season, maybe I should relax abit and let the Reds cruise through this season. It's still early to decide on things cause it's just third game of the season, the season still have 35 games to go. Yes, still long way to go.
Owh...i got something to add into my LFC collections.
Talking about yesterday game (versus Aston Villa), Rafa have to choose Lucas Leiva instead of Riera. I just don't get it. Lucas is far inconsistent compare to Riera and if Riera gone to the left flank, Rafa could just push Benayoun to support behind Gerrard. To actually subtitute Lucas with Voronin was utterly bullshit. Voronin is an average player and since he had been missing for loan spell outside Anfield, you need someone who have better chemistery with the team; Riera. Gerrard would be done with less midfield role if Benayoun and Kuyt and Mashcerano could cover the midfield area. Mascherano does play good game and heck, he much better than Lucas. I still don't get what's in Rafa's mind to put Lucas there.
I'm pretty dissapointed with Rafa's choice but I have faith in him as a manager. And to think of that it's still early of this season, maybe I should relax abit and let the Reds cruise through this season. It's still early to decide on things cause it's just third game of the season, the season still have 35 games to go. Yes, still long way to go.
Owh...i got something to add into my LFC collections.
The New LFC European Kit & 08/09 ReviewAnother updates, gone to Pontian to see her. Yes, she's mine. We went to some great adventure and I miss her sorely now. Love her, yes, love her. Pray for the happiness stay for longest ever.
Ciao~
Thursday, July 02, 2009
A Letter To 16 Years Old Me
Ideas from Sue and Dils.
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Dear Dueng,
This is the year that you should cherish the most, for this is the best year in your high school years. Remember that PMR which you excel in it? Don't get blown away by it, trust me, it's nothing comparable to what you going to endure in future.
You probably nervous to choose between Pure Science or Technical stream, don't be worried. The sign that you're a Pure Science stream student had been given last year. Remember that Kemahiran Hidup class and your plan drawing was messy due to your sweaty hand? This year going to be a year of clarity, you'll get the clear picture of what you want in your life so don't waste the moment. If you feel the urge to do something good academically, it's worth every single impulse decision that you'll made.
Chemistery will be your forte though it's finally crush you in university. Add Math was always the bore of the year, just hanging there. An F is not uncommon, eh? Physics however have some love-hate attraction, the subject was a bore however the teacher is a must dealt with. Don't worry, she will toned down alot next year. Opsss..yes, 2 years under her but trust me, it worth every moment with her. It speaks alot about how people change due to something important to them and take a good lesson on it. Modern Math is a bonus for you since she's really your favorite kind. You dig her attitude but keep your hand to yourself, eh.
You must be feeling rebellious and feel that nobody could understand you. Just keep your mouth shut in front of the family, it helps alot with lessen the friction in your relationship. Well, the relationship definitely improve from past year but yeah, you know the drill during Ramadhan. It's so funny though at the moment, it will annoy you the hell out of you. Just endure it.
Lots of new faces come in and you feel the rush to get know them. Go for it though it would be damn awkward and will create lots of wild gossip. Otherwise, it will affect you for a very long time...even now. Love is your renewed and strengthen forte, though it will not work out that well. You'll have your moment though your shyness keep you from keep it up there. Don't worry, you'll learn the hard way to overcome that though she was brilliant, isn't she? She just too cute for you to resist and you spend your day and night dreaming bout her. Hopeless romantic but yeah, you're just 16 so i guess, it's allowed.
People around you will be mean to you by calling you names. Though you ignore it but deep down inside, you hate them for that. I know how you feel but remember that those people didn't worth it. Someday, you'll meet people who appreciate you and cherish you and respect you as you deserved it. Those people will make you feel comfortable in your own skin and you appreciate them for doing that for you. These people around you, right now, is not worth your value. Let it pass by but remind yourself not to mingle around with these kind of crowd if you have options not to. People who calling you names and treat yourself like some dumb shit wasn't a good crowd to begin with. You mature earlier than them hence why their childishness irritate you the most. Though sometimes you enjoy it (after all, you just a kid; i know you mad at me for saying these words but the fact is, you're still a kid), you hate them the most. You hate the wild gossip, you hate the name calling, you hate how childish they could be and it's suffocate you out of your social life which unrepairable till today.
Anyway, enjoy life as it goes as I trust you to make the right call. You'll have no regret academically but yeah, it's rather weird and challenging year in your social life. Next year, it's going to be a nice ride though the final outcome wasn't the best but you'll thanks yourself for screwing up few things especially that Biology SPM paper. Your impulse decision on academic help you alot next year hence put less stress in you for getting good results. Though, I hope you could put more effort in Add Math, it's not like you're going to listen to me anyway. I also have no regret over how it turns out but yeah, a little more A's would be nice, eh?
Owh....I almost forgot. Enjoy yourself in 3 on 3 basketball tournament, you'll have the hell of your youth there and don't hold back for what you think is right at the moment. It's so candid and hillarous, you need to wait for it. Practice your 2 point shoot, it's worth it.
Lastly, for whatever you think to improve yourself; to benchmark yourself against yourself, you do the right thing. You could only get better than your old self and it's the talking point of most people who succeed in their life. Though, your life wasn't that glittering with success, you'll satisfied with what you have done. You're matured alot for a 16 years old though nobody could see it but it's ok. These crowd didn't worth it except for some people.
Enjoy life, I know you will!
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Dear Dueng,
This is the year that you should cherish the most, for this is the best year in your high school years. Remember that PMR which you excel in it? Don't get blown away by it, trust me, it's nothing comparable to what you going to endure in future.
You probably nervous to choose between Pure Science or Technical stream, don't be worried. The sign that you're a Pure Science stream student had been given last year. Remember that Kemahiran Hidup class and your plan drawing was messy due to your sweaty hand? This year going to be a year of clarity, you'll get the clear picture of what you want in your life so don't waste the moment. If you feel the urge to do something good academically, it's worth every single impulse decision that you'll made.
Chemistery will be your forte though it's finally crush you in university. Add Math was always the bore of the year, just hanging there. An F is not uncommon, eh? Physics however have some love-hate attraction, the subject was a bore however the teacher is a must dealt with. Don't worry, she will toned down alot next year. Opsss..yes, 2 years under her but trust me, it worth every moment with her. It speaks alot about how people change due to something important to them and take a good lesson on it. Modern Math is a bonus for you since she's really your favorite kind. You dig her attitude but keep your hand to yourself, eh.
You must be feeling rebellious and feel that nobody could understand you. Just keep your mouth shut in front of the family, it helps alot with lessen the friction in your relationship. Well, the relationship definitely improve from past year but yeah, you know the drill during Ramadhan. It's so funny though at the moment, it will annoy you the hell out of you. Just endure it.
Lots of new faces come in and you feel the rush to get know them. Go for it though it would be damn awkward and will create lots of wild gossip. Otherwise, it will affect you for a very long time...even now. Love is your renewed and strengthen forte, though it will not work out that well. You'll have your moment though your shyness keep you from keep it up there. Don't worry, you'll learn the hard way to overcome that though she was brilliant, isn't she? She just too cute for you to resist and you spend your day and night dreaming bout her. Hopeless romantic but yeah, you're just 16 so i guess, it's allowed.
People around you will be mean to you by calling you names. Though you ignore it but deep down inside, you hate them for that. I know how you feel but remember that those people didn't worth it. Someday, you'll meet people who appreciate you and cherish you and respect you as you deserved it. Those people will make you feel comfortable in your own skin and you appreciate them for doing that for you. These people around you, right now, is not worth your value. Let it pass by but remind yourself not to mingle around with these kind of crowd if you have options not to. People who calling you names and treat yourself like some dumb shit wasn't a good crowd to begin with. You mature earlier than them hence why their childishness irritate you the most. Though sometimes you enjoy it (after all, you just a kid; i know you mad at me for saying these words but the fact is, you're still a kid), you hate them the most. You hate the wild gossip, you hate the name calling, you hate how childish they could be and it's suffocate you out of your social life which unrepairable till today.
Anyway, enjoy life as it goes as I trust you to make the right call. You'll have no regret academically but yeah, it's rather weird and challenging year in your social life. Next year, it's going to be a nice ride though the final outcome wasn't the best but you'll thanks yourself for screwing up few things especially that Biology SPM paper. Your impulse decision on academic help you alot next year hence put less stress in you for getting good results. Though, I hope you could put more effort in Add Math, it's not like you're going to listen to me anyway. I also have no regret over how it turns out but yeah, a little more A's would be nice, eh?
Owh....I almost forgot. Enjoy yourself in 3 on 3 basketball tournament, you'll have the hell of your youth there and don't hold back for what you think is right at the moment. It's so candid and hillarous, you need to wait for it. Practice your 2 point shoot, it's worth it.
Lastly, for whatever you think to improve yourself; to benchmark yourself against yourself, you do the right thing. You could only get better than your old self and it's the talking point of most people who succeed in their life. Though, your life wasn't that glittering with success, you'll satisfied with what you have done. You're matured alot for a 16 years old though nobody could see it but it's ok. These crowd didn't worth it except for some people.
Enjoy life, I know you will!
Perhentian Trip
Off I gone to Perhentian Island last weekend (weekend + Sunday). The conclusion is the trip was damn nice. The place was good, the activities was great (and lots of juicy gossip and questions - gosh, these lots could be a good tabloid reporters), and the companies keep you entertaining, laughing mad like hyenas. I mean it!
All in all, the best trip to date and yeah, it's worth the sun burn, the money, the sweat, the tiredness, the hot blazing sun, the headache after that, the insufficient rest and the everything negative about one could imagine while going back from a vacation.
Thursday night & Friday morning
4 cars moved from KL to Kertih to meet me and Said. Moved from Gombak at 11.25 p.m. and reach Kertih by 2.30 a.m. Make a move to McD Kertih where we have dinfast (dinner + breakfast). Boy, it's so havoc though most of us sleepy.
McD Kertih - Dinfast
Make our move to KT by 3.30 a.m. Friday and reach Stesen Bas KT by 6.00 a.m. Waiting for Unid who boarding bus from Kedah. By 7.00 a.m., we moved to Jeti Kuala Besut. Reaching Jeti Kuala Besut by 8.35 a.m. and our boat rescheduled to 9.30 a.m. The boat finally arrive at 11.30 a.m. due to some circumstances. Everybody was so freaking pissed though the vacation mode revive once the boat moved. It's a super fast boat and we reach Pulau Perhentian Besar in 30 minutes time.
Our chalet during high tide - Mama's Chalet & Restaurant
The water was crystal blue and it was high tide during our arrival. The sight was magnificient and suddenly all hassle, blazing sun and insufficient sleep blown away by sea breeze. Everybody was on their toes, couldn't wait to jump into the sea.
Arrival commemorative picture!
As usual, these lots take lots of pictures. Flashes all around, feel like celebrity. Hahaha. Commemorative arrival picture in front of the chalet and few others self pictures. After check in, some of these lots getting some sleep while others impatiently make a move to the beach. Who could resist those crystal blue water? Count me in!
After some ice breaking session (I would say ice drowning session) and some intimate face-to-face sharing session, we bid goodnight at almost 1 a.m.
Saturday
Started the day with eye bag and some boat leg. Though, the lots couldn't hide their excitement. Snorkelling trip around island was the most awaited activity of all. Couldn't say more except we manage to catch a glimpse of alive, in-the-water sea turtle, sharks and tons of underwater pictures.
The swimming turtle
The best underwater shot!
All in all, the best trip to date and yeah, it's worth the sun burn, the money, the sweat, the tiredness, the hot blazing sun, the headache after that, the insufficient rest and the everything negative about one could imagine while going back from a vacation.
Thursday night & Friday morning
4 cars moved from KL to Kertih to meet me and Said. Moved from Gombak at 11.25 p.m. and reach Kertih by 2.30 a.m. Make a move to McD Kertih where we have dinfast (dinner + breakfast). Boy, it's so havoc though most of us sleepy.
McD Kertih - DinfastMake our move to KT by 3.30 a.m. Friday and reach Stesen Bas KT by 6.00 a.m. Waiting for Unid who boarding bus from Kedah. By 7.00 a.m., we moved to Jeti Kuala Besut. Reaching Jeti Kuala Besut by 8.35 a.m. and our boat rescheduled to 9.30 a.m. The boat finally arrive at 11.30 a.m. due to some circumstances. Everybody was so freaking pissed though the vacation mode revive once the boat moved. It's a super fast boat and we reach Pulau Perhentian Besar in 30 minutes time.
Our chalet during high tide - Mama's Chalet & RestaurantThe water was crystal blue and it was high tide during our arrival. The sight was magnificient and suddenly all hassle, blazing sun and insufficient sleep blown away by sea breeze. Everybody was on their toes, couldn't wait to jump into the sea.
Arrival commemorative picture!As usual, these lots take lots of pictures. Flashes all around, feel like celebrity. Hahaha. Commemorative arrival picture in front of the chalet and few others self pictures. After check in, some of these lots getting some sleep while others impatiently make a move to the beach. Who could resist those crystal blue water? Count me in!
After some ice breaking session (I would say ice drowning session) and some intimate face-to-face sharing session, we bid goodnight at almost 1 a.m.
Saturday
Started the day with eye bag and some boat leg. Though, the lots couldn't hide their excitement. Snorkelling trip around island was the most awaited activity of all. Couldn't say more except we manage to catch a glimpse of alive, in-the-water sea turtle, sharks and tons of underwater pictures.
The swimming turtle
The best underwater shot!After the snorkeling session ended, we catch a bath at fresh water basin which so cold and refreshing given the hot sun. As usual, more pictures. The water was damn cold, you couldn't believe how much different from the hot sea water that we had been for the past few hours.
Fresh water basin!
After that, we went back to chalet. Some of us catching up with the sleep while another bunch going out to nearby beach to experience more snorkeling experience. I take one hour kayaking session halfway trip around the island. When the sunset approaches, we snap few pictures which so typical of a trip like this. Yeah, the silhouette photo. I personally like the shot cause the challenge to put 7 different shapes into 1 frame!
THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 1.0
Nice purplish sky. I couldn't resist from liking it. Another chit chat session at the night and the boys was having fun teasing around the girls, laughing like hyenas and nearly get stomach cramp from excessive laughter.
Sunday
The morning starts with breakfast then THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 2.0. Yes, the jumping photo. I like it too though not everybody in the frame.
Before THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 2.0
THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 2.0
2 cars need to go back as we don't plan to extend the trip to Monday. My car included in those 2 who went back on Sunday.
Arrived at Jeti Kuala Besut at 12.30 noon. Bought lots of goodies before having our lunch in a restaurant nearby beach area, accompanied by sea breeze. I didn't realize that we have another company who are Yusry KRU. The girls giggling around, exciting to realize it.
Lunch + Sea Breeze + Yusry KRU = TOTAL BLISS
Finished up with lunch, we moved to KT to drop Unid at Stesen Bas KT while Ben's car moved straight to KL. Arrived at Kertih by 7.30 p.m.
Participants: Yong (Project Manager), Yoda (Vice Project Manager), Anon, Wear, Zye, Faten, A'a, Syifaak, Unid, Said, Rozie, Adek, Munir, Ben, Gomok & Dueng.
Major thanks to Yong & Yoda for making this trip a successful one and a meaningful one. Thanks to all photographers for the beautiful high quality pictures, underwater pictures, candid pictures, laugh catalyst pictures, beautiful scenery pictures, beautiful ladies pictures. Thanks to all participants who are so friendly and make nobody isolated during the whole trip though sometimes the situation could get out of hand due to extra-frendliness of some boys (:P), to the girls who are sporting enough to layan the boys jokes and the boys to crack lots of joke which make all of us laughing like madmen.
All in all, I love the trip and hope we could have some other trip better or match this! Thanks lots!
Credit images in this entry: Ben & Syifaak.
p/s: More pictures in FB, don't hesitate to browse through. :)
Fresh water basin!After that, we went back to chalet. Some of us catching up with the sleep while another bunch going out to nearby beach to experience more snorkeling experience. I take one hour kayaking session halfway trip around the island. When the sunset approaches, we snap few pictures which so typical of a trip like this. Yeah, the silhouette photo. I personally like the shot cause the challenge to put 7 different shapes into 1 frame!
THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 1.0Nice purplish sky. I couldn't resist from liking it. Another chit chat session at the night and the boys was having fun teasing around the girls, laughing like hyenas and nearly get stomach cramp from excessive laughter.
Sunday
The morning starts with breakfast then THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 2.0. Yes, the jumping photo. I like it too though not everybody in the frame.
Before THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 2.0
THE TYPICAL TRIP Photo Version 2.02 cars need to go back as we don't plan to extend the trip to Monday. My car included in those 2 who went back on Sunday.
Arrived at Jeti Kuala Besut at 12.30 noon. Bought lots of goodies before having our lunch in a restaurant nearby beach area, accompanied by sea breeze. I didn't realize that we have another company who are Yusry KRU. The girls giggling around, exciting to realize it.
Lunch + Sea Breeze + Yusry KRU = TOTAL BLISSFinished up with lunch, we moved to KT to drop Unid at Stesen Bas KT while Ben's car moved straight to KL. Arrived at Kertih by 7.30 p.m.
Participants: Yong (Project Manager), Yoda (Vice Project Manager), Anon, Wear, Zye, Faten, A'a, Syifaak, Unid, Said, Rozie, Adek, Munir, Ben, Gomok & Dueng.
Major thanks to Yong & Yoda for making this trip a successful one and a meaningful one. Thanks to all photographers for the beautiful high quality pictures, underwater pictures, candid pictures, laugh catalyst pictures, beautiful scenery pictures, beautiful ladies pictures. Thanks to all participants who are so friendly and make nobody isolated during the whole trip though sometimes the situation could get out of hand due to extra-frendliness of some boys (:P), to the girls who are sporting enough to layan the boys jokes and the boys to crack lots of joke which make all of us laughing like madmen.
All in all, I love the trip and hope we could have some other trip better or match this! Thanks lots!
Credit images in this entry: Ben & Syifaak.
p/s: More pictures in FB, don't hesitate to browse through. :)
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Reminisce of The First Love
Attending my friend wedding in Seremban, just back from rushing thru rainy Gombak and an accident near R&R Temerloh. stuck for both occasions for more than 2 hours.
Attending my friend wedding reminds me of my first love and failed relationship that followed through after that.
I truly fell in love with this quite pious girl after few crushes to other girl during secondary school. she was cheeky yet humble and carry herself with grace. she was not the most beautiful thing i ever saw but she was a friendly persona.
I on the other hand was anti-social, no confidence, overweight and overly caring. well, i'm kinda a late bloomer so to speak.
The relationship wasn't as what i experienced after that. we never date, we never holding hand (still never holding hand) and never really talk to each other due to my nervousness to talk to her (still have darah gemuruh to talk to any woman even now). But weirdly, the relationship remains intact for quite a while. after one incident, i just gone quietly from her life. rather cruel but confrontation wasn't my strong point then.
From what i could conclude, i should change myself to be more likeable. I begin to mix around a little, having more courage to talk to other people, and still overweight. however, as i went further in few relationship afterward, i realize that i become more social, more courageous, still overweight but i'm losing my faith in women.
I used to be the kind who deeply cared about others to a point whereby i couldn't sleep thinking about other people problem. friends and loved one. right now, I could tell loved one that i trust her but i dunno whether i really trust her or i don't bother to worry bout her. i said to her the first but in my mind thinking about the later.
After the first love, i realize that honesty just don't paid off. Telling what you honestly feel don't work too well with people. Hence now, i lie a lot. when i said alot, i mean alot. not big stuff or life changing stuff but yeah, things could be worse with my honesty on the line.
Also, i realize that i no longer could fall in love as I want to be. I think when i couldn't worry about others (hence care bout them) and couldn't be honest as i wish, it's hard to really love someone after half-dozen failure in my list. Through every failure, i learn that it's not worth it to spend all your heart to one source. Though with each failure, pieces of my heart never gone back. Taken away from me by those failed love.
I been on love hiatus for a while, thinking bout what happen to me and love?
I think i already figure it out. And it wasn't a pleasant answer for somebody.
I just couldn't bother to love anyone. Did i try to change? Yes i did but i'm high sedated by love failure. I'm a highly sensitive person though i might not look like one. Right now, those sensitivity just didn't work anymore. I just couldn't be bother.
Sorry.
Attending my friend wedding reminds me of my first love and failed relationship that followed through after that.
I truly fell in love with this quite pious girl after few crushes to other girl during secondary school. she was cheeky yet humble and carry herself with grace. she was not the most beautiful thing i ever saw but she was a friendly persona.
I on the other hand was anti-social, no confidence, overweight and overly caring. well, i'm kinda a late bloomer so to speak.
The relationship wasn't as what i experienced after that. we never date, we never holding hand (still never holding hand) and never really talk to each other due to my nervousness to talk to her (still have darah gemuruh to talk to any woman even now). But weirdly, the relationship remains intact for quite a while. after one incident, i just gone quietly from her life. rather cruel but confrontation wasn't my strong point then.
From what i could conclude, i should change myself to be more likeable. I begin to mix around a little, having more courage to talk to other people, and still overweight. however, as i went further in few relationship afterward, i realize that i become more social, more courageous, still overweight but i'm losing my faith in women.
I used to be the kind who deeply cared about others to a point whereby i couldn't sleep thinking about other people problem. friends and loved one. right now, I could tell loved one that i trust her but i dunno whether i really trust her or i don't bother to worry bout her. i said to her the first but in my mind thinking about the later.
After the first love, i realize that honesty just don't paid off. Telling what you honestly feel don't work too well with people. Hence now, i lie a lot. when i said alot, i mean alot. not big stuff or life changing stuff but yeah, things could be worse with my honesty on the line.
Also, i realize that i no longer could fall in love as I want to be. I think when i couldn't worry about others (hence care bout them) and couldn't be honest as i wish, it's hard to really love someone after half-dozen failure in my list. Through every failure, i learn that it's not worth it to spend all your heart to one source. Though with each failure, pieces of my heart never gone back. Taken away from me by those failed love.
I been on love hiatus for a while, thinking bout what happen to me and love?
I think i already figure it out. And it wasn't a pleasant answer for somebody.
I just couldn't bother to love anyone. Did i try to change? Yes i did but i'm high sedated by love failure. I'm a highly sensitive person though i might not look like one. Right now, those sensitivity just didn't work anymore. I just couldn't be bother.
Sorry.
Sunday, May 03, 2009
The running gag
Off we gone to watching firefly (kelip-kelip@kunang-kunang) at Yak Yah River, near Ibok. The tourist guide had been talking lots with regards of firefly that we watched which went to become a running gag that nite:
Tourist Guide (TG): Firefly only could live for 10 days. They have enzime bla bla bla.......
A: Hrmm....i know what kind of profession most profitable for firefly?
B: What?
A: Funeral services.
B, C & D: Hahahahahahaha.
After that, C then intervene.
C: But again, it must tiring to cry over death since lots of them going to die quickly.
A: Hahaha. yeah, must be damn tiring if you have every seconds got another firefly dead.
Who said death ain't funny?
Details of the activity could be read here: Of Kelip-kelip & Penyu Bertelur.
Tourist Guide (TG): Firefly only could live for 10 days. They have enzime bla bla bla.......
A: Hrmm....i know what kind of profession most profitable for firefly?
B: What?
A: Funeral services.
B, C & D: Hahahahahahaha.
After that, C then intervene.
C: But again, it must tiring to cry over death since lots of them going to die quickly.
A: Hahaha. yeah, must be damn tiring if you have every seconds got another firefly dead.
Who said death ain't funny?
Details of the activity could be read here: Of Kelip-kelip & Penyu Bertelur.
Monday, April 27, 2009
THIS IS A BIMBO POST
Don't say i didn't warn you!
Owe Adek on this. Yeah, kinda occupied lately. Nope, it's not personal thing. Ah..yes, it's about work.
SO, here goes my NEW workstation look like. Just move to new place few weeks after transfer to Kerteh.
"My life"
My laptop and my messy stationary there. My life = my work = my laptop. Easy? Few key chains from some friends going here and there. The phone really easy to use but i'm still a stupid when it comes to call transfer.
"Miserable for Life"
There are list of names for people whom constantly being put under tremendous stress by me written on the white board. More magnets from friends going here and there. Tons of papers and documents neatly (neat ke?) stack. You probably could see my old, rusty bagpack and bunch of files.
"History is so overrated"
Those neatly (again, neat ke?) files stack are historical works done by previous owner and still valid for my reference considering still learning hard on this job. Back side on my workstation, against the wall so pretty much i need to turn my back to pick up all those historical files. Rules of keeping your place neat is to put less important but frequent documents within reach but at the back room. some tips from me. =)
"Current business landscape"
This is pile of documents, notebook, files, calculator and quick reference material beside my lappy. The pin up list is my department contact list, quick reference since I easily forget my department staff contact number. Also, take note of the Liverpool FC plat. True KOPite!
I love my workstation cause it's at the end of the office, against the wall so pretty much a good hideout.
Owe Adek on this. Yeah, kinda occupied lately. Nope, it's not personal thing. Ah..yes, it's about work.
SO, here goes my NEW workstation look like. Just move to new place few weeks after transfer to Kerteh.
"My life"
My laptop and my messy stationary there. My life = my work = my laptop. Easy? Few key chains from some friends going here and there. The phone really easy to use but i'm still a stupid when it comes to call transfer."Miserable for Life"
There are list of names for people whom constantly being put under tremendous stress by me written on the white board. More magnets from friends going here and there. Tons of papers and documents neatly (neat ke?) stack. You probably could see my old, rusty bagpack and bunch of files."History is so overrated"
Those neatly (again, neat ke?) files stack are historical works done by previous owner and still valid for my reference considering still learning hard on this job. Back side on my workstation, against the wall so pretty much i need to turn my back to pick up all those historical files. Rules of keeping your place neat is to put less important but frequent documents within reach but at the back room. some tips from me. =)
"Current business landscape"
This is pile of documents, notebook, files, calculator and quick reference material beside my lappy. The pin up list is my department contact list, quick reference since I easily forget my department staff contact number. Also, take note of the Liverpool FC plat. True KOPite!
I love my workstation cause it's at the end of the office, against the wall so pretty much a good hideout.
Stupid Things
I do stupid things like getting bored over something that I once really into. If you asked me why, I don't have the answer why but that's just me. I'm easily bored over things. Yes, even those things.
It's hard to understand but even I also don't have explanation for that.
It's hard to understand but even I also don't have explanation for that.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
when men say the darndest thing
Conversation #1
A: Eh..member aku nak kahwin kat Putrajaya next month.
B: Owh, ko nak gi halang ke?
A: Ceh, takde la.
B: Aku tau, nanti ko mesti pergi cakap, "JANGAN~~!!!". Orang mesti fikir ko nak halang perempuan tu tapi ko mesti cakap "Lelaki tu aku punya~!"
C&D: Hahahahhaha.
A: Siot je!
Conversation #2
B: Ko buat la teambuilding kat Mandarin Oriental. Boleh buat "shopping" as teambuilding activities. Budget la RM 10K sorang ke.
C: Ok jugak tu. Aku buat main teka perfume. Nak menang kena ajak korang lah.
D: Macam kompeni bagi je. Ceh!
I have entertaining friends.
A: Eh..member aku nak kahwin kat Putrajaya next month.
B: Owh, ko nak gi halang ke?
A: Ceh, takde la.
B: Aku tau, nanti ko mesti pergi cakap, "JANGAN~~!!!". Orang mesti fikir ko nak halang perempuan tu tapi ko mesti cakap "Lelaki tu aku punya~!"
C&D: Hahahahhaha.
A: Siot je!
Conversation #2
B: Ko buat la teambuilding kat Mandarin Oriental. Boleh buat "shopping" as teambuilding activities. Budget la RM 10K sorang ke.
C: Ok jugak tu. Aku buat main teka perfume. Nak menang kena ajak korang lah.
D: Macam kompeni bagi je. Ceh!
I have entertaining friends.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Curry Statement
Ever eat good food recommended by others and still have little bad taste out of it?
For me, that's always the case. I always have thing to say about food that i ate, given it's good or bad. Most of the time is suggestion or "complaint". Sometimes and a very rare sometimes it was, a compliment. I'm that picky over food that i ate but i ate it anyway.
My food hunting in Kerteh had been a journey, the seafood is luxurious, cheap and tasty. But yesterday i found a new place where rather unfit the image of Kerteh. I (well, my friend and i) found a place to eat exceptionally good curry.
Always, a good curry taste good because of the fish, meat or chicken in it rather than the curry itself standing up to make its statement. This place serve curry dish that the curry powerful enough to make a bold statement on its own. A curry that deliciously make you crave for more eventhough your stomach screaming out loud for no more food. Like i said, it's a rather unusual place like Kerteh to find a good curry place.
The curry is rather simple presentation in white porcelain bowl. The curry contains of kacang panjang, tomato, 2 block of fish slice, eggplant and sour mango. For the spice, they use jintan manis, jintan putih, biji sawi, daun kari, curry powder, and coconut milk.
What makes the curry is perfect because it's not overly spicy with a touch of sweetness. We order kailan ikan masin and telur dadar together with 2 plate of rice.
This picture couldn't do justice to the curry!
For me, that's always the case. I always have thing to say about food that i ate, given it's good or bad. Most of the time is suggestion or "complaint". Sometimes and a very rare sometimes it was, a compliment. I'm that picky over food that i ate but i ate it anyway.
My food hunting in Kerteh had been a journey, the seafood is luxurious, cheap and tasty. But yesterday i found a new place where rather unfit the image of Kerteh. I (well, my friend and i) found a place to eat exceptionally good curry.
Always, a good curry taste good because of the fish, meat or chicken in it rather than the curry itself standing up to make its statement. This place serve curry dish that the curry powerful enough to make a bold statement on its own. A curry that deliciously make you crave for more eventhough your stomach screaming out loud for no more food. Like i said, it's a rather unusual place like Kerteh to find a good curry place.
The curry is rather simple presentation in white porcelain bowl. The curry contains of kacang panjang, tomato, 2 block of fish slice, eggplant and sour mango. For the spice, they use jintan manis, jintan putih, biji sawi, daun kari, curry powder, and coconut milk.
What makes the curry is perfect because it's not overly spicy with a touch of sweetness. We order kailan ikan masin and telur dadar together with 2 plate of rice.
This picture couldn't do justice to the curry!My stomach growling again! Off to get some good food. =)
Weapon of Mass Destruction Recipe: 2 plate of rice, 1 plate of kailan ikan masin, 1 plate of telur dadar, 1 bowl of massively delicious curry, 1 glass of fresh orange, 1 glass of limau ais.
Total Damage: RM 23.70 + my stomach screaming for no more food
Weapon of Mass Destruction Recipe: 2 plate of rice, 1 plate of kailan ikan masin, 1 plate of telur dadar, 1 bowl of massively delicious curry, 1 glass of fresh orange, 1 glass of limau ais.
Total Damage: RM 23.70 + my stomach screaming for no more food
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Jap Jap Jap
a conversation starts with this:
M: Bro, apa lagi bandar lain selain Tokyo kat Jepun?
Dueng: Uish. Byk kot. Metropolitan Tokyo tu consist of 3 major city. Tokyo, Saitama dgn bandar apa ntah satu lagi. Tokyo famous dgn Roponggi Hill, Shinjuku, Shibuya.
M: Owh, bandar apa yang famous?
Dueng: Uish...banyak je. ada Saitama, Kyoto, Kobe, Hiroshima, Nagasaki, Okinawa, Osaka, Yokohama. Banyak kot bandar kat jepun tu.
Dueng: bandar cam Okinawa tu jauh sikit dari kepulauan utama jepun, kat situ banyak rock band datang. Derang banyak pengaruh amerika sebab kat situ ada military base America.
M: bro, aku tanya nama bandar je. Nak letak nama bandar Travian ni. Adeh la.
Dueng: Loh...carried away doo.
Duh. Did I get carried away? Sabor je la kalau nak dengar explanation aku. I think it's part of my trait that I tend to explain things as much as i could which most people find bothersome. Yeah, letih ye mendengar especially bagi manusia tak sabar. I willing to explain things but if someone rush me, i could just give the answer straight away but most of the time they will come back to me for explanation and i will do some "lasering". hahahaha. sape suruh takmo dengar?
another conversation take place:
L: Ko rasa perempuan Jepun cute ke?
Dueng: The cutest you could find loh.
L: Apa yang cutenye dengan sore cam parrot, sengau plak tu. Dah la muka sama je semua. Gaya pelik2. Dah la gaya budak-budak.
Dueng: your point being?
L: cam takde bangsa lain je yang ko nak suka.
Dueng: I like japanese women sebab japanese know how to potray cuteness. and those kind of cuteness embedded in me.
L: hahahaha, gile lah.
Dueng: So what?
L: Nothing. Just weird. cam dah tak cukup perempuan melayu yang nak diminati.
Dueng: Aku nak kahwin dengan perempuan melayu jugak. Fantasi je dengan gadis jepun. Faham apa maksud fantasi? at least aku menyahut seruan kerajaan "dasar pandang ke timur". hahahaha.
L: ces!
Seriously folks, what so gross about me liking cute women like Japanese women? or me liking married cute women? Does it any rules saying that it's wrong to admire such cute creature? Not i'm doing any harm to anyone. Adeh la manusia manusia ni. just because someone is married and happen to be cute, i can't admire her? gah..stupid.
Owh, last conversation that i had previously:
P: Bro, ko faham ke maksud lagu jepun ni?
Dueng: sikit-sikit boleh la faham. Takde la semua sekali. sikit pun sikit sangat je.
P: Then puas ke ko dengar lagu derang?
Dueng: Why not?
P: yer la, tak faham maksud lirik, kureng sikit feel.
Dueng: hrmm...i don't think so.
P: Hrm...apsal plak gitu?
Dueng: Pernah dengar instrumental tak?
P: Pernah.
Dueng: Camtu jugak kalau ko dengar lagu yang ko tak faham, ko kena dengar apa yang music tu cuba cakap kat ko. Most of the time, it's the right things as you think it is.
P: Hrmmm....tapi leceh la.
Dueng: hehehe. that's why you need to listen with heart. eceh...berfalsampah la plak. hahahhaa.
Dueng: Cuba ko tengok visualization kat window media player, ada nama theme for each visualization kan? kalau ko tengok betul2 visualization tu, memang fit dengan theme and description derang.
P: hehehe. nanti aku try.
Music is universal language. You could understand what come your way just by giving a decent music a try. Yeah, except for some genre which you just couldn't get anything out of it. Also, it give you depth of culture and pattern of pronunciation in certain language. Well, pretty much you could understand some layer of some people culture by understanding their music. =)
Owh yes, it's all about Japan & Japanese. =)
p/s: What i define cute is as per list given: Otsuka Ai, Utada Hikaru, Matsuura Aya, Fujimoto Miki, Nagasawa Masami. Google their image and you'll get some idea what is cuteness. hehehe.
M: Bro, apa lagi bandar lain selain Tokyo kat Jepun?
Dueng: Uish. Byk kot. Metropolitan Tokyo tu consist of 3 major city. Tokyo, Saitama dgn bandar apa ntah satu lagi. Tokyo famous dgn Roponggi Hill, Shinjuku, Shibuya.
M: Owh, bandar apa yang famous?
Dueng: Uish...banyak je. ada Saitama, Kyoto, Kobe, Hiroshima, Nagasaki, Okinawa, Osaka, Yokohama. Banyak kot bandar kat jepun tu.
Dueng: bandar cam Okinawa tu jauh sikit dari kepulauan utama jepun, kat situ banyak rock band datang. Derang banyak pengaruh amerika sebab kat situ ada military base America.
M: bro, aku tanya nama bandar je. Nak letak nama bandar Travian ni. Adeh la.
Dueng: Loh...carried away doo.
Duh. Did I get carried away? Sabor je la kalau nak dengar explanation aku. I think it's part of my trait that I tend to explain things as much as i could which most people find bothersome. Yeah, letih ye mendengar especially bagi manusia tak sabar. I willing to explain things but if someone rush me, i could just give the answer straight away but most of the time they will come back to me for explanation and i will do some "lasering". hahahaha. sape suruh takmo dengar?
another conversation take place:
L: Ko rasa perempuan Jepun cute ke?
Dueng: The cutest you could find loh.
L: Apa yang cutenye dengan sore cam parrot, sengau plak tu. Dah la muka sama je semua. Gaya pelik2. Dah la gaya budak-budak.
Dueng: your point being?
L: cam takde bangsa lain je yang ko nak suka.
Dueng: I like japanese women sebab japanese know how to potray cuteness. and those kind of cuteness embedded in me.
L: hahahaha, gile lah.
Dueng: So what?
L: Nothing. Just weird. cam dah tak cukup perempuan melayu yang nak diminati.
Dueng: Aku nak kahwin dengan perempuan melayu jugak. Fantasi je dengan gadis jepun. Faham apa maksud fantasi? at least aku menyahut seruan kerajaan "dasar pandang ke timur". hahahaha.
L: ces!
Seriously folks, what so gross about me liking cute women like Japanese women? or me liking married cute women? Does it any rules saying that it's wrong to admire such cute creature? Not i'm doing any harm to anyone. Adeh la manusia manusia ni. just because someone is married and happen to be cute, i can't admire her? gah..stupid.
Owh, last conversation that i had previously:
P: Bro, ko faham ke maksud lagu jepun ni?
Dueng: sikit-sikit boleh la faham. Takde la semua sekali. sikit pun sikit sangat je.
P: Then puas ke ko dengar lagu derang?
Dueng: Why not?
P: yer la, tak faham maksud lirik, kureng sikit feel.
Dueng: hrmm...i don't think so.
P: Hrm...apsal plak gitu?
Dueng: Pernah dengar instrumental tak?
P: Pernah.
Dueng: Camtu jugak kalau ko dengar lagu yang ko tak faham, ko kena dengar apa yang music tu cuba cakap kat ko. Most of the time, it's the right things as you think it is.
P: Hrmmm....tapi leceh la.
Dueng: hehehe. that's why you need to listen with heart. eceh...berfalsampah la plak. hahahhaa.
Dueng: Cuba ko tengok visualization kat window media player, ada nama theme for each visualization kan? kalau ko tengok betul2 visualization tu, memang fit dengan theme and description derang.
P: hehehe. nanti aku try.
Music is universal language. You could understand what come your way just by giving a decent music a try. Yeah, except for some genre which you just couldn't get anything out of it. Also, it give you depth of culture and pattern of pronunciation in certain language. Well, pretty much you could understand some layer of some people culture by understanding their music. =)
Owh yes, it's all about Japan & Japanese. =)
p/s: What i define cute is as per list given: Otsuka Ai, Utada Hikaru, Matsuura Aya, Fujimoto Miki, Nagasawa Masami. Google their image and you'll get some idea what is cuteness. hehehe.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
of high temperature
Global warming, fever and anger.
All relates to high temperature. boiling point and breaking point.
so, it had been buzzing all around bout earth hour. seriously, i couldn't bother much bout it. i'm so not a big supporter of environmental thingy. i don't see a point where you think you could make a different by switching off the light while keep your aircond full blown? gah...doesn't make a different. don't get me wrong, i'm huge fans of small things which contribute to better things but my keyword here would be: CONTINUOSLY. if switching off your light for an hour make a powerful statement, does that powerful have follow through. i know most men have classic disease of not follow through but get it over really. macam melepaskan batuk di tangga. seriously, if you want make a different, be consistent. a raindrop could drown an empire if it keep it coming.
owh, btw i switch off my light last night but because it's so god damn hot. nak hujan tapi tak hujan, panas cam sial.
fever; been almost 4 years since my last great fever. when i say great fever, i mean a high temperature almost at 39 degree celcius and days of lying on bed with very little energy. not to mention i couldn't swallow, smell and look at anything with rice and/or chicken, fish, meat, spices. it puke induced. it's really bad condition and my room smell like sweat yet the fever hardly gone. 3 days lying on the bed and trying my hard to get out and buy something decent to eat. end up eating cream butter bread for last 3 days. the most tragic is i'm all alone. but don't worry, already back on my feet and running like the wind (and sweating like pigs after good running). i'm back!
the last about high temperature is anger. recently, few things had been trigger me hard (sound obscene eh?) and almost make me lose my cool. my siblings being utterly stupid and super annoying make me feel like smacking her. i rather not to enclose too much details but what happened really devastated me. i'm generally a cool persona with sometimes a bit easy to rub at wrong place depending my stomach condition or if i get not enough sleep so to get me really mad is a record really. with siblings, i'm cooler than anything, joking around and stuff. no bar hold for siblings in my book, but to some extent, things could get messy with my younger sister attitude. budak baru kenal dunia, rasa cam nak sepuk je. hish.
owh...if you wonder why i rant instead of posting something useful because there are no EPL last week. i'm utterly bored. owh..been on my feet for some good running, my heart almost explode. pancit sial dah lama tak berlari.
yeah, it's a boring post. hahahaha.
All relates to high temperature. boiling point and breaking point.
so, it had been buzzing all around bout earth hour. seriously, i couldn't bother much bout it. i'm so not a big supporter of environmental thingy. i don't see a point where you think you could make a different by switching off the light while keep your aircond full blown? gah...doesn't make a different. don't get me wrong, i'm huge fans of small things which contribute to better things but my keyword here would be: CONTINUOSLY. if switching off your light for an hour make a powerful statement, does that powerful have follow through. i know most men have classic disease of not follow through but get it over really. macam melepaskan batuk di tangga. seriously, if you want make a different, be consistent. a raindrop could drown an empire if it keep it coming.
owh, btw i switch off my light last night but because it's so god damn hot. nak hujan tapi tak hujan, panas cam sial.
fever; been almost 4 years since my last great fever. when i say great fever, i mean a high temperature almost at 39 degree celcius and days of lying on bed with very little energy. not to mention i couldn't swallow, smell and look at anything with rice and/or chicken, fish, meat, spices. it puke induced. it's really bad condition and my room smell like sweat yet the fever hardly gone. 3 days lying on the bed and trying my hard to get out and buy something decent to eat. end up eating cream butter bread for last 3 days. the most tragic is i'm all alone. but don't worry, already back on my feet and running like the wind (and sweating like pigs after good running). i'm back!
the last about high temperature is anger. recently, few things had been trigger me hard (sound obscene eh?) and almost make me lose my cool. my siblings being utterly stupid and super annoying make me feel like smacking her. i rather not to enclose too much details but what happened really devastated me. i'm generally a cool persona with sometimes a bit easy to rub at wrong place depending my stomach condition or if i get not enough sleep so to get me really mad is a record really. with siblings, i'm cooler than anything, joking around and stuff. no bar hold for siblings in my book, but to some extent, things could get messy with my younger sister attitude. budak baru kenal dunia, rasa cam nak sepuk je. hish.
owh...if you wonder why i rant instead of posting something useful because there are no EPL last week. i'm utterly bored. owh..been on my feet for some good running, my heart almost explode. pancit sial dah lama tak berlari.
yeah, it's a boring post. hahahaha.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
In Rafa We Trust!
Remember this?
This make me almost screaming out of my lung!The Reds might not win Premier League champion trophy but this is officially among the sweetest thing happen to me this year.
In Rafa We Trust!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Dear diary I
dear diary,
today is not my most beautiful day. i'm pretty much exhaustive at work, my mind couldn't work faster than it should and tons and tons of work on my plate. i keep telling myself, "this will end, someday". i wasn't please to see myself this bimbo; feel like chasing after a bullet train on a bicycle. i dunno what's wrong with my mind but it seems lately my mind being too stupid to absorb things that i need to learn quickly. am i getting older, diary?
after work, i have my own personal hell waiting. i hate to think things after work. mom give me hell throughout this month. i dunno why but it seems nothing i could do to satisfy her. i'm indifferent right now. am i a bad son, diary?
and when everything couldn't get right, i so not in the mood. so, i lost my appetite. lost lots of my sleep and everyday seems become more difficult to walk on. i spoil her mood again. it's my fault. i couldn't cheer up to her given my current condition. am i selfish, diary?
right now, i feel nothing. numb. heavily sedated. barely move. diary, i feel like crying. i hate myself when i cry but what could i do, diary? i'm really tired, diary. will you hug me and comfort me for a while? thank you, diary.
now,allow me to leap off the building. goodbye. thank you for listening. i love you so much.
today is not my most beautiful day. i'm pretty much exhaustive at work, my mind couldn't work faster than it should and tons and tons of work on my plate. i keep telling myself, "this will end, someday". i wasn't please to see myself this bimbo; feel like chasing after a bullet train on a bicycle. i dunno what's wrong with my mind but it seems lately my mind being too stupid to absorb things that i need to learn quickly. am i getting older, diary?
after work, i have my own personal hell waiting. i hate to think things after work. mom give me hell throughout this month. i dunno why but it seems nothing i could do to satisfy her. i'm indifferent right now. am i a bad son, diary?
and when everything couldn't get right, i so not in the mood. so, i lost my appetite. lost lots of my sleep and everyday seems become more difficult to walk on. i spoil her mood again. it's my fault. i couldn't cheer up to her given my current condition. am i selfish, diary?
right now, i feel nothing. numb. heavily sedated. barely move. diary, i feel like crying. i hate myself when i cry but what could i do, diary? i'm really tired, diary. will you hug me and comfort me for a while? thank you, diary.
now,allow me to leap off the building. goodbye. thank you for listening. i love you so much.
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