people said, life is like riding a roller coaster, sometimes you ride at the peak of the world, enjoying nice view but sometimes you ride at the bottom, having difficulties to find some sense. being down the ride make people lose their sanity. make people lose their faith. make people lose their belief. make people freaking out.
you'll feel the world is laughing at you. the whole world seems to be happy to see you down. you'll feel ugly and useless. you feel dead. you blame everybody. you feel empty.
*cynical mode ON*
yeah yeah..you're the only suffering. you're the only hurting. you're the most unfortunate person in this world. gimme a break already!!!
*cynical mode OFF* (kalau dibaca dgn gaya House MD akan lebih menyerlah cynical-nya)
don't make yourself such a sore loser. life ain't over (unless you're dead). get your ass and work it out. problem not gonna solve if you keep crying and whining bout your unfortunate ride. who's gonna understand your problem? let say you get sacked from your job and got nowhere to go, do you expect me to understood your situation and lend a shoulder to cry on? (i never get sacked from my freaking job yet) come on man, be realistic.
i see lots of people who ride the lowest point get carried away. i'm not saying it's totally wrong to be sad and mad for a while but....
how long are you gonna stay like that????????
how long are you gonna fill your heart with sadness????????
how long are you gonna stay numb and pushing people out your life??????????
how long you're gonna crying??????????????
how long you gonna shut yourself??????????????????????
how long you'll blame GOD?????????????????????
how long before you realize it's too late to change??????????????
how long before you'll get insane??????????????????
it's totally hurting and eventhough i'm not gonna understood what you might feel (of course i'm not gonna understood cause i will never be you and you'll never be me), shutting down your life is not something we should do. i have seen lots of people destroying their life, either they running away cowardly or just stood still too long crying over their defeat. for the broken, the damned, and the beaten, i'm not your freaking Saviour, far from being a GOD, i just hate to see people with gloomy face. they have insincere smile (reason for i'm writing this entry).
i'm might be harsh but the world not letting a single weakness to be exposed. get yourself a grip, move along with your life. there are thousand freaking possibilities waiting for you in future, don't let that get wasted.
"problem is not something that will solved by running away from it"
by the words of The All American Rejects:
and when all your hopes is gone,
move along......move along.....
just to make it through....
when all you got to keep it strong
move along, move along
like i know you'll do
Move Along - The All American Rejects
Have some faith in yourself, do some favor to yourself (at least), get back to life. lots of people waiting for you.
p/s: some people might find this harsh and crude. i don't care what you're gonna said cause i believe when the proper not working, twisted way just get into your attention. there are too many unfortunate events happened lately and people get depressed over their unfortunate situation. never in my conscious mind to create any harm towards people around me and if this entry might offend you in any way, i truly apologize.
--inspired by Move Along by The All American Rejects and The Pursuit of Happyness motion picture.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
W-Addicts
today i got work. i need to do something today. thank god. it's WA syndrome. it's work addict syndrome. it's haunting me now.
i remember the time when my mom retired from her job. she get fever for the whole 2 month. that's WA could do to you. when you used to do something to fulfill your time, you'll find out that doing nothing actually a pain in the ass.
it's not i'm a workaholic, sometimes i do hate works but sitting my butt and doing nothing is totally not cool. in some sense, i feel guilty for being paid but do nothing. life should be productive, life should be fulfilled by something or anything or someone or just anyone.
another thing, i feel it's totally wasting my young age to do nothing. i need to move, i need to do something. but when it comes to weekend, i'm the lazy ass bummer. i rather lepak at home and watching movies, dramas, series, anime or anything but going out. i believe weekend should be the time for you to rest. i mean, really get a rest.
when i first working as an intern at SME Bank, i really know working life is just for me. i don't hate studying but having tight schedule and boring lecture totally not for me. i hate routine and that's one thing bout work that bored me to tears. anything else, i love work. work grant me the previllege to meet new people, working my ideas, brainstorming, solving problem, deals with office politics, and many more. you not getting that very often at university.
i still remember when GV clash with K5. everything going really haywire and people really get fired up for that. as i remember building K5 from scratch with wadieq, i been told to be administrator for the forum. OMG, how could i be the administrator. setting up the forum wasn't an easy job but handling people issues much harder. handling K5 while busting my butt through FYP and final year subject really put me to the test. i can proudly tell this story to other people about how loud the crowd who build K5, how mature they are now, how difficult my responsibility and how proud i'm to be the initiator of K5 together with wadieq and moderators team. it's a good experience which i brought in my workplace and i thank god for the chance HE give me. it's truely justified that i really love work and i really love working with people.
today also a great moment in my life when i found her blog. who's blog? i rather keep it to myself. only few people know bout it and let's keep it like that.
i really hope she read this after i post a comment at her blog today. ahaks...malunya.
okies, back to works guys~!
i remember the time when my mom retired from her job. she get fever for the whole 2 month. that's WA could do to you. when you used to do something to fulfill your time, you'll find out that doing nothing actually a pain in the ass.
it's not i'm a workaholic, sometimes i do hate works but sitting my butt and doing nothing is totally not cool. in some sense, i feel guilty for being paid but do nothing. life should be productive, life should be fulfilled by something or anything or someone or just anyone.
another thing, i feel it's totally wasting my young age to do nothing. i need to move, i need to do something. but when it comes to weekend, i'm the lazy ass bummer. i rather lepak at home and watching movies, dramas, series, anime or anything but going out. i believe weekend should be the time for you to rest. i mean, really get a rest.
when i first working as an intern at SME Bank, i really know working life is just for me. i don't hate studying but having tight schedule and boring lecture totally not for me. i hate routine and that's one thing bout work that bored me to tears. anything else, i love work. work grant me the previllege to meet new people, working my ideas, brainstorming, solving problem, deals with office politics, and many more. you not getting that very often at university.
i still remember when GV clash with K5. everything going really haywire and people really get fired up for that. as i remember building K5 from scratch with wadieq, i been told to be administrator for the forum. OMG, how could i be the administrator. setting up the forum wasn't an easy job but handling people issues much harder. handling K5 while busting my butt through FYP and final year subject really put me to the test. i can proudly tell this story to other people about how loud the crowd who build K5, how mature they are now, how difficult my responsibility and how proud i'm to be the initiator of K5 together with wadieq and moderators team. it's a good experience which i brought in my workplace and i thank god for the chance HE give me. it's truely justified that i really love work and i really love working with people.
today also a great moment in my life when i found her blog. who's blog? i rather keep it to myself. only few people know bout it and let's keep it like that.
i really hope she read this after i post a comment at her blog today. ahaks...malunya.
okies, back to works guys~!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Life Affair
It had been 1 weeks after PIPE XI. i truly feel lonely. when i get back home, suddenly all loneliness in this world come to me. for some reason, my room getting smaller and smaller. it's hard to breath, my eyes teary.
i truly feel i not really get mixed with people at PIPE XI but for some reasons, i feel so attached to them. it's weird to feel like this especially when you putting less effort in knowing people. maybe my roommate departing to PIPE make me feel lonely or i just missing my leisure time during PIPE, that might be one of thousand factors i could think of.
so, now i need to back to works. currently a bit hard to catching up with work. everything seems in big blunt. i found out that new people coming in, whether they are auditors or new staffs, i not feel welcoming them to my workplace. i feel a bit disconnected and not really bother or care bout new people. yurp, some of them quite attractive.
currently, i'm downloading new dorama which seeing my HD need some housekeeping. i delete all my anime (which i won't watch for second time) and clear up some videos. i will do some review on the dorama after i finish watching it.
btw, i got few promises i left behind. here the list:
1) post pictures bout my new room setup.
owh..only one. hahaha. should i have anything else i promise to tell you people, please let me know.
quick update:
i so want to watch mr bean's holiday but i got no company. poor me. :( .
i already watch 300 and jangan pandang belakang. i so want to watch mukhsin but i have no chance to do that.
i also watch stranger than fiction, a must watch movie. a fusion of fantasy and sourness of reality. life can be a bitch!! hahaha.
as my montage work affecting my life, i currently addicted to surf rider (pulp fiction's OST), mirsolou (also pulp fiction's OST) and laluna - selepas kau pergi. and i always listen to old songs. i'm not so into new songs. so just let you know. hahaha.
okies, chiow~!
i truly feel i not really get mixed with people at PIPE XI but for some reasons, i feel so attached to them. it's weird to feel like this especially when you putting less effort in knowing people. maybe my roommate departing to PIPE make me feel lonely or i just missing my leisure time during PIPE, that might be one of thousand factors i could think of.
so, now i need to back to works. currently a bit hard to catching up with work. everything seems in big blunt. i found out that new people coming in, whether they are auditors or new staffs, i not feel welcoming them to my workplace. i feel a bit disconnected and not really bother or care bout new people. yurp, some of them quite attractive.
currently, i'm downloading new dorama which seeing my HD need some housekeeping. i delete all my anime (which i won't watch for second time) and clear up some videos. i will do some review on the dorama after i finish watching it.
btw, i got few promises i left behind. here the list:
1) post pictures bout my new room setup.
owh..only one. hahaha. should i have anything else i promise to tell you people, please let me know.
quick update:
i so want to watch mr bean's holiday but i got no company. poor me. :( .
i already watch 300 and jangan pandang belakang. i so want to watch mukhsin but i have no chance to do that.
i also watch stranger than fiction, a must watch movie. a fusion of fantasy and sourness of reality. life can be a bitch!! hahaha.
as my montage work affecting my life, i currently addicted to surf rider (pulp fiction's OST), mirsolou (also pulp fiction's OST) and laluna - selepas kau pergi. and i always listen to old songs. i'm not so into new songs. so just let you know. hahaha.
okies, chiow~!
Monday, April 09, 2007
Montage & Laluna
I'm back~!
As per my induction finished, i get strike by second fever. damn! but induction such a sweet memory. i join montage team and we developed lots of good presentation for our audience. i currently working on uploading them to youtube so just wait and see. btw, here our first montage there. simple picture slide show but the songs really memorable; laluna - selepas kau pergi.
it's damn good~!
i still trying my hardest to get the mp3 version. if you interested with this song, please leave your msg at my ym. i'm glad to send you the mp3. :)
till then, chiow~
As per my induction finished, i get strike by second fever. damn! but induction such a sweet memory. i join montage team and we developed lots of good presentation for our audience. i currently working on uploading them to youtube so just wait and see. btw, here our first montage there. simple picture slide show but the songs really memorable; laluna - selepas kau pergi.
it's damn good~!
i still trying my hardest to get the mp3 version. if you interested with this song, please leave your msg at my ym. i'm glad to send you the mp3. :)
till then, chiow~
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