Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I'm off~!

I'm off to PIPE. PIPE btw stands for PETRONAS Induction Program for Executive.

it's gonna be 35 days program consist of 2 weeks at PERMATA, Bangi and 3 weeks at INSTEP, Batu Rakit, Terengganu.

So, it's gonna be long pause from blogging. The likelyness of this blog getting new update will be very very very very very very low.

Till then, cheers for all. Have a nice holiday to me~!

Friday, February 23, 2007

Sebuah Kemenangan

telah menjadi satu fitrah bagi manusia untuk bersaing. adalah persaingan itu adalah perkara yang wajar dilihat sebagai suatu yang mendatangkan manfaat tetapi sudah menjadi resam manusia mengerjakan yang baik itu dengan cara yang hina. mungkin sahaja kerana sengitnya pertandingan itu maka manusia ini sering menjadi suatu yang bukan dirinya. dia menjadi tamak haloba dan pikirannya tertumpu terhadap kemenangan di hujung jalan itu hingga dia sanggup sahaja membinasakan perkara yang disayanginya demi harga sebuah kemenangan.

melihat manusia mengorbankan nilai diri yang baik semata-mata mahu mengecapi kemenangan membuatkan saya berasa ngeri. mungkin sahaja pertandingan yang menjanjikan kemenangan itu penting, tapi secara tulus saya berasa bahawa bukan setiap pertandingan itu perlu dimenangi demi membuktikan bahawa kamulah yang terbaik. jika menjadi yang terbaik itu perlu membuatkan kamu memijak semua yang lain, maka kemenangan itu tiada apa maknanya pada saya kerana nanti suatu masa tiba seorang yang lebih gagah dari kamu lantas akan memijak kamu selumatnya. dimasa kesedaran yang sudah terlewat itu, tidaklah bersisa apa-apa bagi diri kamu melainkan rasa kecewa dan marahnya kamu terhadap si penindas kamu. nilai diri dan perkara yang kamu sayangi telah kamu buang dan lemparkan ke laut dalam. manusia bukan tuhan, manusia bisa memaafkan tapi tidak bisa melupakan. manusia bisa berbelas kasihan tetapi mengharapkan semuanya dilupakan, tidak mungkin sama sekali.

saya melihat beberapa peristiwa manusia merosakkan akar dirinya demi sebuah kemenangan. melihat bagaimana seorang teman "membunuh" teman rapatnya hanya kerana dia tidak bisa melihat mereka sama-sama berjaya. melihat seorang teman menyembunyikan perkara penting dari teman rapatnya kerana tidak bisa melihat temannya turut berjaya. melihat seorang ibu membunuh anaknya demi tidak bisa melihat suaminya pergi jauh darinya.

saya secara jujur melihat mereka ini dengan pandangan jijik. mungkin saya juga pernah melakukan perkara yang berkenaan tetapi pada zahirnya, saya bukanlah manusia yang begitu. saya mungkin saja kedengaran cuba mempertahankan diri saya tetapi saya tidak berbuat sesuatu tanpa ada sebab musabab. saya tidak "menikam" kalau saya tidak "ditikam", saya tidak menipu kalau saya tidak ditipu (dan melainkan perlu), saya tidak sembunyikan apa2 dari kamu jika kamu juga tidak sembunyikan apa2 dari saya. melihat rancangan "APA YANG PEREMPUAN MAHUKAN" memberi rasa ngeri yang teramat bagi saya. ini bukan kali pertama saya melihat manusia tanpa segan silu memalukan diri mereka dengan memperkotak-katikan rakan mereka demi sebuah kemenangan. rancangan realiti televisyen "SURVIVOR" mempamerkan rakan2 baik "menikam" sesama sendiri. demi sejumlah wang, kamu bisa saja menikam rakan tawa dan nangis kamu.

saya kira dalam diri setiap kita inginkan kita ini lebih dari orang lain tanpa memikirkan dimana nilai diri kita sebagai manusia. saya tidak menghalang sikap kompetitif, tetapi kompetitif yang negatif amatlah tidak merangsangkan minda saya. mungkin saja materialistiknya kita menjadikan kita ini buta. dan demi endorfin cinta wang yang diwarwakan, manusia bisa jadi lebih hina dari binatang.

untuk kesekian kalinya, saya melihat rapuhnya manusia terhadap cinta wang/kejayaan/kemenangan dan setiap kali menarik nafas juga saya berasa takut jika ada diantara manusia2 yang sudah dikelabui mata mereka ini dengan cinta wang/kejayaan/kemenangan bakal menindas saya demi oksigen yang mereka rebutkan dengan saya. demi tuhan, jika manusia sudah sampai ke tahap begitu, saya mohon sangat dengan Tuhan untuk meleburkan saya.

~> mungkin beginilah rasanya bila jiwa kecamuk.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Mee Maggi Spree

Suddenly a rush of idea come to my head on video for Maggi Mee Contest. Ok, i will put it now. Sape nak wat video maggi ni bersama aku?

Frame #1: Sorang budak tgh duduk mencangkung makan Maggi. Maggi yang tak masak, just letak perencah dan Maggi tu dihancurkan. Tgh2 khusyuk makan, 2 orang member dia berlari2 sambil berebut Maggi.

Dialog: Oi, Maggi aku!!!

Maggi: Maggi Kari.

Frame #2: 3 orang budak tengah memasak Maggi (jugak mencangkung) dalam baldi. Suasana asrama sekolah. Muka masing-masing tengah high bau Maggi tu (tutup mata sambil tarik nafas panjang). Tgh2 derang layan masyuk tu, 2 orang member derang berlari sambil berebut Maggi.

Dialog: Oi, Maggi aku!!!

Maggi: Maggi Tomyam.

Frame #3:
Sorang budak tengah duduk mencangkung makan Maggi masa tengah stay up untuk study. Maggi yang dimasak dalam mangkuk masih lagi berasap2. Pintu bilik dia terbukak dan ternampaklah 2 orang member dia berlari berebut Maggi.

Dialog: Oiiiii, Maggi akuuuuu!!!

Maggi: Maggi Asam Laksa.

Frame #4: Sorang bapak duduk kat meja makan tengah makan Maggi. Sebelah dia ada budak jugak tengah makan Maggi. Exactly the same position, same cloth and same eating style. Tetiba ada 2 orang anak dia tengah berlari berebutkan Maggi. Then, bapak budak tu stopkan 2 orang anak dia tu dan kasi Maggi sebungkus sorang.

Dialog: Oi, Maggi aku!!

Maggi: Maggi Ayam.

Frame #5: Semua watak tu berdiri ikut order. Budak kecik frame #1 depan sekali, diikuti student frame #2, student frame #3, bapak frame #4. Mereka berdiri sambil tabik pada billboard Maggi. Ada tulisan, "Kami membesar bersama Maggi. Terima kasih Maggi."

Frame #6: Fade out.

Song of choice: itu aku takder idea lagi. kena pilih lagu yang agak nostalgik dan dramatik sikit.

Amacam, creative enough?

Thursday, February 15, 2007

V-Day Tragedy

Semalam Hari Valentine. 14 Februari 2007. Mungkin sudah ditakdirkan oleh Tuhan bahawa semalam bakal jadi titik penting hidup aku. Untuk menerima bahawa terjadinya yang telah terjadi ibarat menelan jadam. Pahit nya meresap ke segenap isi perut, meninggalkan sisa-sisa kepahitan tak terhilang serta merta. Entah lah...mungkin saja bila mana aku dah bersedia untuk melepaskan dia pergi dari memoriku, mungkin diri ini masih sedar bahawa diri ini masih utuh berdiri dan bermimpi. Sekarang, biarkan aku dalam mimpi ngeri ku, melayan rasa pahit bak jadam ini.

Semalam, aku menerima satu berita. Berita yang tidak pernah ku sangka-sangka datang menjengah ketika aku meluputkan ingatan terhadap dia. Datangnya ingatan itu mengetuk rasa sedih ku, menyiat-nyiat perasaan ku. Diri aku meronta-ronta minta dilepaskan dari belenggu ini. Aku tak sanggup lagi mengenangkan dia.

Semalam, ku dengar berita yang membuat aku rasa bagai mahu mati. Dia yang dulu sentiasa membuat ku tersenyum kini sudah tiada. Lebih menyedihkan, aku tidak dapat bersua dengan nya buat kali terakhir nya. Janji yang termetrai hancur lerai dek kesibukan kerja. Untuk menyalahkan kerja, aku tidak sanggup. Itulah dedikasi aku, itulah masa depan aku. mungkin dia tak ngerti betapa aku amat dedikasikan hidup aku terhadap kerja yang satu ini.

Bukan aku tidak sayang, bukan aku tidak cinta tetapi sayangnya terdapat durjana menghantar dia pulang ke hadrat Ilahi. Oh Tuhan, kenapa mesti disaat begini. Disaat aku sangkakan segalanya berjalan lancar antara kami. Ketika aku sangat rindukan dia, ketika aku hampir saja mati tanpanya.

Nyaris aku hilang pertimbangan. Semua teman2 membisu. Seorang pun tidak berani bersuara. Aku hilang sabar.

"Kenapa ko tak cakap kat aku?", soal aku dgn marah.
"Bukan aku taknak bagitahu ko tapi......" jawab roomate aku teragak-agak.
"Tapi apa lagi? Ko ingat aku ni sape dgn dia???? Sampai hati ko wat aku camni. Aku tak layak tahu ke??? HAAAA...AKU TAK LAYAK TAHU KE??????" jerit aku.
"Aku taknak tengok ko marah-marah. Lagi pulak, benda kecik je pun. Rileks la beb."ujar roomate aku, gugup untuk menenangkan aku yang sudah naik minyak.

Masih cuba mengawal emosi yang sudah berantakkan, aku cuba menghalang hilang pertimbangan terhadap roomate sendiri.

"Ahhh,...sudahlah. Banyak la alasan ko. Cibai la sape yang tibai buah oren aku ni. Dah la yang terakhir tu beb. Susah nak carik yang manis camtu." ujar aku bersungguh-sungguh marahnya." kata aku.

"Loh. nanti aku ganti la balik. dramatik sial ko ni. Oren jer pun. Itu pun nak kecoh satu rumah ke?" housemate lain cuba menenangkan.

"Aku takder la marah, cuma aku kesal. Tapi since korang dah janji nak ganti, ganti sekilo la. Aku ketagih makan oren sekarang ni. hehehe. " kata ku cuba berlelucon.

"Beres. Tapi kita wat party sempena CNY la. hehehe." kata housemate sambil disambut gelak ketawa.

Kesimpulan: Happy Chinese New Year to all Malaysian. Makan oren byk2 untuk kesihatan yang baik.

p/s: jangan marah yer. senyum sikit di hari-hari stress begini. :)

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

6 weird things bout me

I been tagged by Lackluster a.k.a Raja. Cut the crap, here's some weird things bout me though i found out it's so not facinating at all.

1) Moody.

I found out that i'm quite easy to swing my mood. whether i purposely want to swing my mood, or it's just came out naturally. sometimes i get moody over things i already forgot. it's something wrong with my memory.

2) I'm a crybaby/oversensitive.

Refering to item #1, i can easily cry when i get moody. i hardly get mad, but i easily get sad. some people thought that i'm oversensitive and overdramatic sometimes. yurp, have to agree to that cause in a moody day, i tend to overdramatic/oversensitive. LOL.

3) Wild imagination.

- My current obsession is i wonder how would it be if LRT swift away from its track while i'm in it. i wonder the scenery look like with all people screaming.
- Another things, i love to imagine if the LRT swift away from its track while approaching platform and i'm the one at the platform waiting for the train, what could i do to save myself?
- I also love to imagine how does it feel to run over a pedestarian who walk by roadside.

4) I love wall.

When i sleep, i love to put my bed/futon/toto/mattress at the corner of the room. I feel secure when i see the wall beside me. Sometimes when i get depressed, i love to look at the wall and running away in my wild imagination. I love cold wall cause it's help me release my emotional burden.

5) Impulse reaction/decision.

I pretty much doing things by impulse. I always make impulse purchase (it's like when you see a thing and feel attracted to it and buy it without second thought). few times, i do crazy things like going to Penang from KL decided just in 15 seconds, running to Puduraya to buy ticket cause i just feel like going home that day, change my outing plan from having bowling game at Times Square to go to Kajang and hanging out with my friend there.

6) My comment much lengthy than my post.

Taking into consideration links that i have on the right side of this blog, i pretty much sure i comment much leghty than what i write in here. I certainly have lots of idea to write but i just can't reach any simpler conclusion. I hate myself to not finished writing those good idea but nothing much i could do to make it complete. Sometimes i get stucked halfway and put the idea to rest. Some ideas are just too personal and too ridicilous to discuss or it's rather premature to discuss bout it. It's rather incomplete puzzle that waiting to be solved. After i solved it, i will post it. Back to my lengthy comments, i rather have discussion on issue initiated by others. Just the same when i start new assignment, new project or new task. I need to refer to previous model so that i know the loophole and improvise it in my own way thus make that my idea. I rather be innovator than creator. Not i not having the guts, just sometimes i don't have the idea to start.

Ok, enough with 6 weird things bout me. Not so much weird i think, it's just preference of my life. Anyway, i want to pass this tag to:

1) Narulle
2) Rikku
3) Sarah
4) EE
5) Bet

I'm waiting guys~!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

You belong to me?

You belong to me? what the hell was that?

for those who watching American Idol audition lately, perhaps you remember an old man named Sherman singing this song as a tribute to his late wife. THis song is a hit again in US, whether you believe it or not. Reality TV show and its power, and not to mention, the power of love. Millions of American crying over this man. Seriously~! Ok, the video. enjoy and have the feel of his feeling. :)



I been listening and loving this song since i listen to this song in Shrek I. The scene when shrek making rat dish and eat it with fiona. Romantic huh?

few other filmgraphy also using this song as far as i watched it. Let's hit the list:

1) Shrek I

Scene: Fiona and shrek enjoying their rat dish during sunset. The song sing by Jason Wade of LifeHouse.



His rock vocal and guitar pick really make this song something. Very touching~!

2) Fullhouse (Korean Drama)

Scene: In bar while everybody depress. Mostly played during the-woman-who-love-Min-Hyuk-but-loved-by-Young-Jae (shit..i can't remember her character name). You know who's she. I dunno the singer but the vocal sound so bad but weirdly matched the song. LOL.

So, who's really sing this song? as far as i browse through, this song sang by The Duprees. Luckily you tube have the original footage. Enjoy.



I so in love with this song. ROmantik gile.

P/s: i still love mr sherman version. He's pouring his feeling to this song.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Holiday

It been a long silence from me. I'm adjusting my pace. I promise to post my room's picture but i'm not totally finished with cleaning and arrangging the room thus no pictures for the time being. be patience k.

Btw, i just change my handphone. why i change it? i have 2 valid justification to support my procurement of the handphone. First, i already made my mind to spend this month money to buy all the things i needed i.e: a wardrobe, a bed with fluffy mattress, a bed side table and a handphone. second, i really want a handphone with true tone. i'm dying to have one. i really do.

due to this month budget will be using for procuring all the things i need, so i just spend some amount to purchase this phone. btw, i purchase a Motorola L7 with 256 MB micro SD card which cause me RM 590. What happened to my old phone (Motorola c261)? I already sold it to my officemate at RM 200. I don't want to sell the phone cause i treasure all my phone but i need some money backup to buy new one. Plus she need the phone to give to her mom. and she's being good to me. what i have as my ringtone?? it's Greenday's Holiday from American Idiot album.

I must say i love this song so much for it fast pace intro and catchy music. I really get hooked up to this song when i watch The Accepted for few times. This song really gimme something nice to listen to. I already have American Idiot album for 1 year already but i never listen to all tracks until i get hooked up to Holiday. Pretty much my life is around what i watch/recommended to watch. hahahha.



Enjoy the video. Nothing fancy with the video but i really deep in love with the song.

I have another song which make me feel good. Wanna know what song?



The Corrs - Old Town

It's good to hear andrea's voice in my head. Not to mention the brilliant piano play and trumpet. lovely~! this song is simple yet entertaining and pleasent. This is one of my favorite band of all time.

and my most favorite song is.... (drumrolls) Sexy Boy by Morning Musume. They just damned cute. kyaaa~~~enjoy the video, enjoy the song, dance along with them. :P



LOL. ended up with another story. it's a good buy anyway. i mean, the phone. huhu~. next, pictures of my room. or some other update.

this weekend i'm at work. moving people around. or their belonging. gambatee dueng-kun~!

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Camwhore?

Since i do some housekeeping to my room, i also do small housekeeping to my FS. i realize that i'm not having much picture of myself alone/in group. the fact that i had a hard time to find suitable pictures to upload to my FS make me wonder; where am i when all those events happened? ok, fuck the fact that i'm a bit choosy, but i can see lots of my picture not so nice, maybe that's why i don't upload it. hehehe.

owh..i'm so tired after do some housekeeping. after all the process finished, i promise to post my new room setup. also, my office picture. nothing fancy bout those 2 place but i love those 2 places very much especially my room. katilku empuk beb. :P

(this is what happened when i force myself to write an entry eventhough i'm damn tired. )

gud nite guys. tomorrow, i'm going to buy CNY balik kampung ticket. kuantan, wait for me~~!!