It starts off when I got my transfer letter. After beating around the bush with HR, i manage to squeeze my transfer letter to be produce as soon as possible. I stop bugging HR after that, now the hardest part. My current superior finally get in touch with my new superior and both of them agree on agreeable date for me to transfer. Gah..settle semua pasal transfer. Now on packing, handover and farewell.
I really take my own sweet time to do work when i know for sure i get my transfer. I'm a bit happy with my work and have better motivation in work; which is good. But somehow, something big happened and it happened this week.
My big big boss bugging my superior and me regarding the overdue work that should be settle long time ago. What pissed me off that it never been in our KPI to meet such dateline. Not that it give us so much time to leisure around but heck, i need some rest and properly hand over my work. In my field of work, i could trash just anybody to get my work done but you couldn't do that cause you'll need those people whom you trash to work for you.
I try to accommodate to people request as much as i could. Considering that i know for the fact that having things finalize before executing it would eliminate much of revisit work. Even so, human are never constant hence changes, revisit or maintenance work will happen every now and then.
So, it had gone that the big big boss said that we could just trash those people who we need to entertain so that we could meet the dateline. And it's all because it's in their f**king KPI. To think that they never even want to care about our field of work make me pissed off. They don't even care a dime about it but when it's involved their KPI, they will jumping to our neck and putting every threat possible regarding performance appraisal.
I'm tired of this. People who trash us yet jumping on our neck when our work got something to do with their KPI. and for f**k sake, the big big boss not even completed my superior IPC while the other superior get their IPC even signed and have a grand ceremony about it. Heh! treat us like 3rd class citizen. Truth is, i'm giving up the field service for now. I been seeing lots of people whom treat us like trash yet expect us to do miracle when they're in trouble. So much for professionalism!!
I don't expect those bunch of arrogant, stupid apple polisher so-called professional to even say thank you to my hard work, i just hope they could take their time and understand how much we in the service field suffered to accommodate to their insane request. Living in such a fast-pace company which requires you to work your ass to get things done yet not so good results in appraisal really demoralize me to the max. They treat us as if we're ain't human, gosh, and yet we called ourselves malay professional? courtesy of east and professional ethics of the west is just mere utopia in here.
And for thousand times, i been wondering that;
.... if that what it takes for me to go higher, would i be able to trash my subordinate, my colleague and my superior for my performance?....
with whatever trashing that i had been doing to most of people due to my work related things, i truly feel guilty. I become a monster since i come to work here and i don't like it. eventhough the experience of trashing others seems exciting and something i could brag to newcomers, but deep inside i feel so trash about it.
If only i could stop that but i'm not too sure whether i'm capable to stop that. It's hard especially in this company whereby people willing to kill each other just to look better in the management eyes and for better appraisal results. Working in services field means that you're more handicapped in term of performance cause the 219 days of good works could be down to drain for 1 day of screwed up. Their eyes surely sharp on complaints and such and whether you like it or not, they're no such thing as non-bias evaluation. human ain't divine.
Seriously, I Don't Give A Flying F**k About It anymore! I just cruise through it and when the time come, i'm gone. And to my beloved superior which have enormous trust on me to execute things my way, i truly thank you for standing up for me, giving encouragement and those bad days that teach me to be a better, tougher person to get through those shit. Getting a careless superior make you learn "to die or to swim" but that's where her love to me is all about. I matured alot during the course of 2 years in this field and it teach me lots about how to deal with people especially in this company.
Believe me, i got the worst bunch of subordinate which could make you scream every single day yet to mold them into something useful take alot of effort. they had change and thank GOD, i was there to see that happened. A bunch of energetic and improve version of that. I'm happy that my initial KPI when i first come here achieved; to make a different, improve things and people around me. I manage to do that eventhough some people might not see it as a big deal at all. And i will keep carry this KPI and try to make a different everywhere i go. Now, am off for greater adventure and pray that things will be better!!
p/s: btw, i have 16 male subordinate and 1 female subordinate.
I really take my own sweet time to do work when i know for sure i get my transfer. I'm a bit happy with my work and have better motivation in work; which is good. But somehow, something big happened and it happened this week.
My big big boss bugging my superior and me regarding the overdue work that should be settle long time ago. What pissed me off that it never been in our KPI to meet such dateline. Not that it give us so much time to leisure around but heck, i need some rest and properly hand over my work. In my field of work, i could trash just anybody to get my work done but you couldn't do that cause you'll need those people whom you trash to work for you.
I try to accommodate to people request as much as i could. Considering that i know for the fact that having things finalize before executing it would eliminate much of revisit work. Even so, human are never constant hence changes, revisit or maintenance work will happen every now and then.
So, it had gone that the big big boss said that we could just trash those people who we need to entertain so that we could meet the dateline. And it's all because it's in their f**king KPI. To think that they never even want to care about our field of work make me pissed off. They don't even care a dime about it but when it's involved their KPI, they will jumping to our neck and putting every threat possible regarding performance appraisal.
I'm tired of this. People who trash us yet jumping on our neck when our work got something to do with their KPI. and for f**k sake, the big big boss not even completed my superior IPC while the other superior get their IPC even signed and have a grand ceremony about it. Heh! treat us like 3rd class citizen. Truth is, i'm giving up the field service for now. I been seeing lots of people whom treat us like trash yet expect us to do miracle when they're in trouble. So much for professionalism!!
I don't expect those bunch of arrogant, stupid apple polisher so-called professional to even say thank you to my hard work, i just hope they could take their time and understand how much we in the service field suffered to accommodate to their insane request. Living in such a fast-pace company which requires you to work your ass to get things done yet not so good results in appraisal really demoralize me to the max. They treat us as if we're ain't human, gosh, and yet we called ourselves malay professional? courtesy of east and professional ethics of the west is just mere utopia in here.
And for thousand times, i been wondering that;
.... if that what it takes for me to go higher, would i be able to trash my subordinate, my colleague and my superior for my performance?....
with whatever trashing that i had been doing to most of people due to my work related things, i truly feel guilty. I become a monster since i come to work here and i don't like it. eventhough the experience of trashing others seems exciting and something i could brag to newcomers, but deep inside i feel so trash about it.
If only i could stop that but i'm not too sure whether i'm capable to stop that. It's hard especially in this company whereby people willing to kill each other just to look better in the management eyes and for better appraisal results. Working in services field means that you're more handicapped in term of performance cause the 219 days of good works could be down to drain for 1 day of screwed up. Their eyes surely sharp on complaints and such and whether you like it or not, they're no such thing as non-bias evaluation. human ain't divine.
Seriously, I Don't Give A Flying F**k About It anymore! I just cruise through it and when the time come, i'm gone. And to my beloved superior which have enormous trust on me to execute things my way, i truly thank you for standing up for me, giving encouragement and those bad days that teach me to be a better, tougher person to get through those shit. Getting a careless superior make you learn "to die or to swim" but that's where her love to me is all about. I matured alot during the course of 2 years in this field and it teach me lots about how to deal with people especially in this company.
Believe me, i got the worst bunch of subordinate which could make you scream every single day yet to mold them into something useful take alot of effort. they had change and thank GOD, i was there to see that happened. A bunch of energetic and improve version of that. I'm happy that my initial KPI when i first come here achieved; to make a different, improve things and people around me. I manage to do that eventhough some people might not see it as a big deal at all. And i will keep carry this KPI and try to make a different everywhere i go. Now, am off for greater adventure and pray that things will be better!!
p/s: btw, i have 16 male subordinate and 1 female subordinate.
