Things they don't teach in class

1) If you posted clouds pictures taken from windows of airplane on your point-and-shoot camera or phone camera, that's indicated that you're naive.

2) If you taken your picture from up angle (myspace angle), that's indicated that you're fat.

3) If you taken your picture from your GS (good side), that's indicated that you're ugly.

4) If you think that you're ugly and still taken your picture in any angle you like and posted it on your social network with caption "owh..i'm so not pretty", that's indicated that you're ugly.

5) If you think you could post your amateur homemade porn to WWW with censoring/hiding your face, that's indicated that you're just show to the world how small your dick is which means, you're also as stupid as the female in features.

6) If you think emo hair is cool, you're a fag.

7) If you think you going to get good job just because you're graduating from university, you better kill yourself since you will be dead horse anyway.

8) If you only have SPM qualification, not any kerabat or dato or tan sri's relative and think highly of yourself in working environment, you should put one or two or three bullet/hot rod to your brain.

9) If you believe that your being transexual is GOD will, you sure believe that you're evolved from ape.

10) If you think reading this useless list will beneficial to you, you sure believe that by signing your name will get you full mark in your exam.

Love FF

Have you ever feel hopeless watching the one you love; love somebody else?

Everything about you and her seems far away. She is the most beautiful flower your heart crave yet too far for you to reach, your leg stuck in the mud while she is a flower at the highest peak. She belongs to one who don't deserve her, don't appreciate her. Your heart aching when you see her in the hand of fools who see her only as possession. Your heart bleed when you see her in front of your eyes wasting her love and heart towards somebody who didn't love her.

No matter how much you try to reach to her, it's just silence filling the hollow. Your love screams only to echo to absorbent dead silent. Even when you scream your lungs out, only silence.

She was, is and will be the most beautiful things ever walk God's Earth. Behind those fog and smoke, her beauty shine blown all fog and smoke away. Her grace is like an angel from the sky. Your heart keep telling you; this is hope! this is miracle!

Even so, the angel wasted her purity. If only your hand could reach her further, if only those ungrateful bastard stop luring her, she will be yours. In your wake or dream, her and her only lingering in your mind, dancing in your dream and send you to 7 heavens where's your eyes meet her eyes and tears rolling down your cheeks.

Love is so beautiful and you wish for one moment for her to reach your love echoes. Even by weak resonant, you wish she could hear it. And she will know that amongst those who worship her beauty, there are one man who worship her heart.

and when those moments come, he and she shall be together.








owh...my Ford Focus ST!


p/s: i'm so in love with this car!

google (image) it!

Tagged by Zahiera, so here I'm typing this. Btw, you could read her magnificient thought here. Enjoy:

I am....

Apparently, my nickname "dueng" is a mountain or highland in Thailand. So, here the output when i google image it.absolutely beautiful place!

I really want to go....

Anfield Stadium. For as long as i knew LFC, i really want to go to Anfield Stadium. I want to shed manly tears for the KOP chanting and spirit! Next destination after Anfield would be Japan. You know why!

My fave place....

I'm not hardcore when it comes to read books but i love to browse books, reading synopsis, extracting quick tips, and a stress reliever. Why kinokuniya? because i think they have lots of choice of books compare to the other bookstore and very nice ambience (Kino and Borders at par). used to love Novelhut in Ipoh for its cheap second hand books.

My fave things.....

The rig in the picture almost like the one i have. beautiful and messy! I love my PC and quickly become one thing that i couldn't live without. :)

My fave drink.....

Owh i'm so not to "tolak" any mango drink. I just love mango. but since i love mango juice, i become quite picky on the taste. i most of the time will just drink any mango juice but to rate any mango juice as good, that's gonna be tough.

My fave food.....

This is without saying; the greatest food that i ever enjoy. i'm very picky about my sambal ikan bilis and eventhough i eat most sambal ikan bilis, just like mango juice; it's hard for me to rate any sambal ikan bilis as great. i'm that picky!

my fave colors.....

Black is my favorite color. Cause it's cool, hot, elegant and cute. seriously, black is the new black. nothing could match this color in term of matching up with any other color (except for white).

I live in....

Not in ladang kelapa sawit! My hometown in Kuantan, in Felda Bukit Sagu 01. My dad is one of the later settler in this felda and home is the best place to be! I remember catching up with friends having picnic in the middle of ladang, fishing and menangguk ikan. the good old days!

I was born in.....

Born in Hospital Besar, Kuantan. Couldn't remember much bits of it but the view here at top floor to sungai kuantan is magnificient!

My almamater....

UTP; The best place (eventhough i complaints alot bout this place) to be. the best years of my life. and i'm glad i'm enjoying it!

SEMSAS; my other almamater. Beautiful place, mixed memories and maturing experience all still kept properly in my mind.

my fave series....

Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO); The first drama that i hooked up with, most watched, and most entertaining and moving. This drama inspire me to be a teacher! for good and bad reason! hahahaha.

my hobbies....

Surfing net. kadang2 download, kadang2 just reading wikipedia, kadang2 bloghopping. Depends on mood and necessities.

Watching movies and dramas. the picture is just like the setup of pc that i have here in my room. and yes, i do watch it with my feet (without socks) pointing to the pc while my back resting on my bedside. heaven!

My wish....

In my new year resolution. hoho.

Just because you're a woman

....don't you think i can't smack you!

Today, i'm pissed off. I mean, mad, angry. For some collaborative business trip that i will be heading in few days from now, this woman really know to push my button. Everytime she opens her mouth, she just adding more fuel to my anger. Thing started when i need to discuss with her on the details of the collaborative business trip. The trip for testing new system at vendor site before we could implement it in the office. For the whole project, i just a coordinator. She is the end user who will use the system but she doesn't give a dime about the trip.

Ok, here the situation. I "inherit" the project as part of my new job scope at this new office. Well, nothing i could do to avoid it so i just devour and enjoy it. She on the other hands try her best not to give the cooperation that i need. I mean, come on! I also have tons of work on my plate that i need to take care of but she was soooo pissed me off with her careless attitude. For a starter, she doesn't even read the functional design documents. Yes, you're the new kids of the block but show some effort, please. To think that i'm running around to coordinate the whole thing even for her traveling itirenary and push her to get the traveling documents approved by her managers, i'm sure my patience just at best when i could handle all that. even up to that point, she don't even have any effort to clear things up with her manager on traveling issue that we have.

she almost get the best of me when she again playing her careless card when i urge her to get things sorted before tomorrow. i wonder how i could still smile when i talk to her at that moment, i admire my acting. to be the end user and ignore the testing for the system, she don't know what going to get her way soon.

from what i heard from small investigation with her staff (he will follow us too for the business trip), she just kinda rude and authoritive to her subordinate. With that kind of attitude, she either one day will be hate or get raped by one of her subordinate!

I used to have 16 problematic male subordinates under my care and i could tell you it's so hard to work with them since all of them have "colourful" history. But to be able to relate to them (3 of them are at my dad age) and have a workable relationship, i'm proud of myself. You have to give respect to gain respect. To play it by their rules sometimes is the way to win them. You have to be harsh when needed but just chill out when they're behaving ok. They're ain't kids so treat them with respect even they are the one who sort your letters, photocopy your documents, deliver your parcels and sweep your floor.

I just don't get it why most executives (new and current) so full of themselves! they think they're smart but they know very little about the world. and not to mention (even I hate to make sexist remarks but it's my most encounter experience) that women are so full of themselves in this case. maybe most of them are spoilt brat but don't you parent teach you to respect others, you stupid cunt?

when was your last time you smile to janitors cleaning your office? or the tea lady who clean your office pantry? or the one who serve you food at the cafeteria?

i rest my case. you know yourself better.

Palestine vs Israel: Religious War or Liberation War?

Funny thing about Palestine and Israel issue is it's between Muslim and Jews which make me want to ask; is this a religious war? or is it a liberation war?

what i want to highlight (as i told lots of people last time), the strategy employed by both Hamas and Fatah is not working. The war exploded since 1946 and did anything change for better then?

if this is a liberation war, Palestinian should leave. Let's Jews have Palestine. Retreat and rearrange the strategies back as what Jews did last time when they get into Palestine. They play around with holocaust during WWII to get the world to sympathize with them. very clever indeed. If Palestinian stays in Palestine and waiting to be slaughtered, then nothing I could do about it. is it because of their pride? When you retreat, it doesn't mean you're lost, it just you buying some time to get back to drawing board of strategy. Remember Trojan Horse? how a group of retreat people infiltrate into a sleeping giant and slaughtered them.

if this is a religious war, then also Palestinian should leave. why? Remember "peristiwa Hijrah"? Mohammad s.a.w. move from Mekah to Madinah when there are nothing they could do in Mekah to win. Carefully strategize, Mohamad s.a.w. come back to win Mekah. and in the process He didn't kill any civilian. he didn't blow up any religious place belongs to other religion.

and as far as i remember, Islam never told Muslim to blow/kill/torture/beheaded civilian, women, children and old people.
Since when did Islam allow Muslim to butcher innocent people?
Since when did Muslim allowed to blow up other religion religious place?
Did Mohamad s.a.w. teach Muslim to do that?
Did Mohamad s.a.w. blow/kill any Jews civilian during his time?
Did this war is so big and important that Muslim just could neglect all what Islam had told them just to win back Palestine?
Did this war so important that Muslim are allowed to pray for Israel damnation?
Since when Islam teach Muslim to pray for other people bad luck?
Did Mohammad s.a.w pray for damnation of people who give him hard time?

I dunno about your version of Islam but the version of Islam i know doesn't teach all that. Cause the version of Islam that I know is a religion of peace. Religion that ask Muslim to question their doing, whether is it right or wrong. Religion that teach about value creation.

Now, back to macro, does this a religious war? or does this a liberation war?

on the other hand:
are we so civilized that we're barbaric and crude?

Dear diary I

dear diary,

today is not my most beautiful day. i'm pretty much exhaustive at work, my mind couldn't work faster than it should and tons and tons of work on my plate. i keep telling myself, "this will end, someday". i wasn't please to see myself this bimbo; feel like chasing after a bullet train on a bicycle. i dunno what's wrong with my mind but it seems lately my mind being too stupid to absorb things that i need to learn quickly. am i getting older, diary?

after work, i have my own personal hell waiting. i hate to think things after work. mom give me hell throughout this month. i dunno why but it seems nothing i could do to satisfy her. i'm indifferent right now. am i a bad son, diary?

and when everything couldn't get right, i so not in the mood. so, i lost my appetite. lost lots of my sleep and everyday seems become more difficult to walk on. i spoil her mood again. it's my fault. i couldn't cheer up to her given my current condition. am i selfish, diary?

right now, i feel nothing. numb. heavily sedated. barely move. diary, i feel like crying. i hate myself when i cry but what could i do, diary? i'm really tired, diary. will you hug me and comfort me for a while? thank you, diary.

now,allow me to leap off the building. goodbye. thank you for listening. i love you so much.

the need of a hero & the need to become one

Hero; a savior figure. I believe that hero is a man/woman comes and save the day; in my case, come to save me. Superhero; hero with super power, a mere imagination. What we have in this bitter reality is just average hero; human with miracle that they created.

For past months, i been watching Dr Who. Dr Who is a British series created long time ago and just had been given new life by BBC Wales. Up to date, 4 seasons already for the new Dr Who. Dr Who telling the story about Time Lord; the last of his kind wandering around the time and space saving civilization, rescue planets and such. An intriguing series by BBC and influence lots of British. Considered as amongst longest running television series with 752 episode to date.

What intrigue the most about Dr Who and the act of hero is eventhough "the Doctor" is clearly a hero but as he always said; "look at this clever human being, look at their potential!" telling something about human being. In the eyes of an alien (the Doctor is so not human - he's from Gallifrey), human being are capable of heroic act; the act that make them hero.

In life, sometimes we feel so lost that we secretly wish someone come to save us. Get scolded at work, unmotivated at school, heart broken, failing exam, drowning, completely lost faith in love, broken family, business collapsed etc. The list can goes on and on and on. We need a saviour. We need a hero.

Everyone needs a hero, conciously or subconciously.

And everyone needs to become one. You know what you could do best, make use of it for betterment. I realize that in today competitive world, nobody care about anybody. I care for my own good. I'm not saying that you should leave your business and join Peace Corp but being a hero shouldn't be in grand scale of things. Ever heard that "you're the world to someone"? It's truly it. Well, at least to your bank. Gone missing for 3 months and see how much they missed you. Aside that, everybody have a purpose to live, a purpose to be happy.

Do what you do best in life and become a better man/woman each day and you'll be a hero. Sometimes people just don't see it cause people around them never tell it. Well people, you better start told people around you how much they save you even by tiny bit. It makes a different for people morale. A simple thank you note, a smile and an act of care could save lots of souls from being forever torment.

I once have this inferiority about how much people actually reading this useless piece of writing and once I decided to stop writing. But on that one fine day, there are somebody (an anonymous really) tell me that how much he likes to read my writing. I'm relieved to hear that really. In some way, i feel like a hero. I feel like that i'm likable. That I'm not as bad as I think of. That i have potential in this inferior looking and feeling. So, go on be a hero and save the world!

Look at this beautiful people, looks how clever they are. Brilliant human being!