Saya Sokong Yahudi!

lemas. sungguh aku lemas.

the thrill in the chase, never in the capture.
does the excitement gone?
does things become dull?
did my heart forgot how to feel?

sungguh
pada hati ini terpalit kesal
debu-debu keraguan
mungkin pada cinta sang hati
hanyut bersama masa

maaf,
biar jutaan kali terucap
tidak mengubat cuma
menambah garam cuka kepada luka

pada kasih berlumut
bernafas dalam lumpur
cuba kotakan
pada bait manis janji

and why the fuck i write this?
a fairy told me
stop lying you stupid

dan aku cuma geleng
aku bukan tipu
cuma benar itu tidak enak

entah. sampai bila?
mahu begini?
begini begitu begita bezita?
bodoh!
merapu? kerapu?
lapar~

sudah.

p/s: harus diwartakan "don't write and emo".

of high temperature

Global warming, fever and anger.

All relates to high temperature. boiling point and breaking point.

so, it had been buzzing all around bout earth hour. seriously, i couldn't bother much bout it. i'm so not a big supporter of environmental thingy. i don't see a point where you think you could make a different by switching off the light while keep your aircond full blown? gah...doesn't make a different. don't get me wrong, i'm huge fans of small things which contribute to better things but my keyword here would be: CONTINUOSLY. if switching off your light for an hour make a powerful statement, does that powerful have follow through. i know most men have classic disease of not follow through but get it over really. macam melepaskan batuk di tangga. seriously, if you want make a different, be consistent. a raindrop could drown an empire if it keep it coming.

owh, btw i switch off my light last night but because it's so god damn hot. nak hujan tapi tak hujan, panas cam sial.

fever; been almost 4 years since my last great fever. when i say great fever, i mean a high temperature almost at 39 degree celcius and days of lying on bed with very little energy. not to mention i couldn't swallow, smell and look at anything with rice and/or chicken, fish, meat, spices. it puke induced. it's really bad condition and my room smell like sweat yet the fever hardly gone. 3 days lying on the bed and trying my hard to get out and buy something decent to eat. end up eating cream butter bread for last 3 days. the most tragic is i'm all alone. but don't worry, already back on my feet and running like the wind (and sweating like pigs after good running). i'm back!

the last about high temperature is anger. recently, few things had been trigger me hard (sound obscene eh?) and almost make me lose my cool. my siblings being utterly stupid and super annoying make me feel like smacking her. i rather not to enclose too much details but what happened really devastated me. i'm generally a cool persona with sometimes a bit easy to rub at wrong place depending my stomach condition or if i get not enough sleep so to get me really mad is a record really. with siblings, i'm cooler than anything, joking around and stuff. no bar hold for siblings in my book, but to some extent, things could get messy with my younger sister attitude. budak baru kenal dunia, rasa cam nak sepuk je. hish.

owh...if you wonder why i rant instead of posting something useful because there are no EPL last week. i'm utterly bored. owh..been on my feet for some good running, my heart almost explode. pancit sial dah lama tak berlari.

yeah, it's a boring post. hahahaha.

In Rafa We Trust!

Remember this?

This make me almost screaming out of my lung!

The Reds might not win Premier League champion trophy but this is officially among the sweetest thing happen to me this year.

In Rafa We Trust!

Siapa Tuhan Kamu?

Isu penggunaan perkataan "Allah" didalam Buku Suci Agama Kristian yang dicetak di dalam Bahasa Malaysia. Terus terang, aku tiada tentangan penggunaan "Allah" itu di dalam Buku Suci Agama Kristian yang dicetak didalam Bahasa Malaysia.

Dari segi bahasa Arab, Allah itu merujuk kepada perkataan "Tuhan yang Satu/Esa". Berasal dari bahasa Arab, perkataan Allah telah lama digunakan oleh agama-agama monotheist (kepercayaan kepada satu tuhan; Kristian dan Judaism) sebelum kedatangan Islam. Maka, jika Allah itu merujuk kepada 'Tuhan yang Satu" yakni Tuhan Agama Kristian, maka tiada soal kenapa "Allah" itu tidak boleh digunakan mereka. Lagi pula, sebelum Islam mereka telah menggunakan "Allah" merujuk kepada "Tuhan yang Satu/Esa".

Isu ini tidak lain dan tidak bukan cuma suatu salah faham, suatu kecelaruan hanya kerana bahasa. Tuhan itu memahami apa jua bahasa di dunia ini kerana Dia yang menciptakan dunia dan isinya. Kerana itu setiap perkara yang kamu perbuatkan mesti diikuti dengan niat; niat yang baik. Di dalam solat, kamu diwajibkan berniat untuk solat menyembah Tuhan yang Satu, perkara lafaz itu cuma sunat. Ini bermaksud sekiranya sekalipun kamu ini tidak dapat memahami bahasa Arab, tidak dapat bertutur dalam bahasa Arab, kamu juga masih dapat menganut Islam dengan niat yang betul dan tulus di hati. Kamu masih dapat solat, masih dapat puasa, masih dapat mengerjakan haji kerana yang penting itu pada niat kamu (dan perbuatan disertai dengan niat yang betul tu).

Dan yang terutama sekali, kamu tahu siapa Tuhan kamu. Siapa Tuhan yang kamu sembah dan percaya dengan seluruh hati kamu, bukan soal bahasa yang picisan. Adakah bila kamu berdoa di dalam Bahasa Malaysia, Tuhan itu tidak akan makbulkan doa kamu? Adakah bila kamu berdoa dalam Bahasa Inggeris, doa kamu akan lambat di makbulkan kerana kamu menggunakan bahasa penyokong Yahudi?

Bagi aku, adalah lebih baik jika kamu berdoa di dalam bahasa yang kamu fahami semoga apa yang kamu pohonkan lebih dekat di hati kamu. Yang paling tinggi kedudukannya di sisi Tuhan adalah orang yang paling bertakwa dan bersungguh-sungguh memohon kepadaNya. Kalau kamu berdoa tapi satu hapah tak faham lepas tu kutuk-kutuk tok imam baca doa lama-lama, baik kamu baca doa sendiri dengan perkataan kamu sendiri, dengan tulus ikhlas hati kamu sendiri.

Paling penting, bukankah kamu tahu siapa Tuhan kamu?

My Soft Spot

I have few fetish/favorite things which I can't resist. Cute; married women, a good song synch with old memories, favorite tv show etc.

I especially have soft spot for one particular song: Canon in D by Johann Pachelbel. Before that, a "canon" is a melody that contains one or more imitations melodies played after a given duration. The original piece composed by Johann Pachelbel for violins hence explains why string instrument like piano and violins given the best sound to this piece.

I watched "My Sassy Girl" movie, korean version when i first encountered this song. Played by the heroine for her hero, it such a beautiful piece and resonant best with love story. It gives the impression of "tears of happiness" everytime i listen to this piece.

It's like a lackluster old memories that surface every now and then which reminds you that life is beautiful and great for once in your life. I feel like crying out loud but i just appreciate that the fact that i once achieve such happiness, i couldn't help myself from being happy. Tear rolling down my cheeks yet my heart budding with love (figuratively of course!).

I realize that things such as insignificant as a simple song could move men to tears, burn their spirit, putting sympathy into most coldest heart, breeding hatred, building patriotism and such. I have to agree that, the quickest and simplest form of poetry is in song, given its melody or lyrics.

Such simple yet beauty creation move the world. The right words, the right sound could resonate your heart and get you going!

Choose your words carefully and say it nicely, may you sweep somebody off their feet today!