Thursday, January 13, 2005

exam result

argh....tensen!!!! exam results ku teruk. sungguh nya bengang. tp nak bengang pun tak guna jgk sbb aku mmg tak bersemangat sem lepas. sial betul la. tp sem ni ada internship, so maybe the time i have now hopefully will help me in structuring my future. i need sometimes to restructuring back my life. life being so sad, so cruel for me for a few year. i dun't want to learn anymore. i'm full. i just want to doing something else. i hate to have formal learning process. i not born to get through this process. i hate it!!!!
just now i need to push myself to get through this process and having headache everytime i think about it. the old concept of studying hard, having good work, and die in peace is just not really suit with me. i want a challenging working environment, i want to work on my own, i want to be my own boss....that what i thought. i want to die as BIG person, as someone that everybody know, maybe as famous as Donald Trump. hahhaa.....yes, i want to be as famous as Donald Trump.
Being in conservative, traditional stream make me feel sick. i hate routine, i hate eating same food everyday, i hate to get my ass in the same train everyday, i hate to be a good man(yeah, i want to be a bad man and i used to be a bad man..hahahaha), i hate to be being bullied, i hate to keep my revenge in my head and heart, i hate my environment, i hate to pretend being a good man, i want to be what i want!!!! life is just full of shit!!!!

(all those write are what i was thinking about my life when i was angry. forgive me is anything i write have some offensive element)

2 comments:

Dils said...

hey there,
u dont mind dont u if i put ur link at my bloggie?
Send me a holler at the shoutbox to let me know if u mind or not.

btw, leks leks.. theres always next sem. surely ur praktikal will get an A. and then final yr subjeks for IS is not as hard as sblom praktikal nye subjeks, u'll see. You can get back to ur elements again. Cheerios

Anonymous said...

wah....sorry to bug around with you
after going through your latest post, it seems your're having a hard time ehhh....
well, like the saying goes, "bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang2 kemudian"......I hope that the saying would keep you alive...
not everything in this world is that easy....sometimes it would take you to your or beyond your limits to achieve that golden gold in life.....well,in your case, not getting involve in formal style of learning would be one of your ultimate goal....I hope that I'm right
again, like the saying goes; knowldge will be your companion until you die (of course not to forget your good deeds). So, gain knowledge and experience as many as you can so that you will become a wise man in the future........
see the fate of those who doesn't had the opputunity to gain quality knowledge and experience as you do....what happen to them....most of them have to go through their life the 'hard' way......
remember this, your experience while learning in university will be one of the most meaningful part in your life....trust me