Being Perfect

assalamualaikum...

i'm in mellow mood tonight. Sambil-sambil dengar lagu Audioslave - Like A Stone and Keane - Everybody's Changing, tetiba datang ilham untuk menulis di blog ni.

It's about being a man. Ada orang cakap, men shouldn't cry, men shouldn't sulking, men should be matured, men should be gentlemen and so many requirement. Kekadang terfikir jugak, it's hard to be such a men while making lots of money. While women judging men should be like that or like this, women hardly can accept that WE (in this term refering to MEN) also want you to be something in our mind, yes...being perfect. But you know what, MEN just cannot win arguing over WOMEN. they will start to ask US to accept them as they are, to accept that they are not PERFECT while in the same moment, they are asking US to be perfect.

It's not only happen in balak-awek relationship but also in children-parent relationship. Sometimes when the babbling is over the limit and REMEMBER, your children also HUMAN BEING for GOD SAKE. They have feeling and limitation but parent seems cannot accept that THEIR CHILDREN have so many handicaped either in behaviour or physical. But as a CHILDREN, either we like it or not, THEY are our parent. We change for them, but parent even they stumble or making their children life in jeopardy, they just always said,

"Inilah mak ajar kamu takmo dengar.."..yes, THEY blame us for their mistake.

Sometimes in life as a children to my mom and dad, i wish that i never born in this world cause everytime i screwed up (even small things), they will start comparing me to all my friend. one moment i remember when i burst out my anger to my mom,

"i wish i never be your son cause you seems never liking me, like i'm not your child. why don't you kill me instead of raising me?"

yes i know i will get one-way express ticket to hell for saying that, but hell i care. people with superior position always taught that they never screwed up, and for that reason, why they tend to get blind of what their small subordinate feel. they been there before, at our place and yet they forget how it's feel to be a small subordinate which don't have any power to say anything.

being a parent doesn't make you GOD, cause GOD never screwed up. parent just cannot accept they sometimes screwed up, same to women who want perfect men eventhough she so damn not perfect. maybe that's why most successful carrier women hardly get married, they just way too demanding or normal men just afraid to try their luck because of the power they have. who doesn't? we're talking about richy and powerful women here...it's started to sound like she is the WONDER WOMAN or some cool woman superhero. ouch...i must be bruising someone heart/ego.

footnote: i'm just a never be perfect child who trying to be so called decent man. prince charming? it's safe to say that's just not my style.