Thursday, March 02, 2006

Angau Mood

hello all...

happy nyer aku. ada bunga-bunga cinta yang tengah nak berkembang. hahaha..jiwang banget deh dueng ni. anyway, tak salah kan kalau jiwang sekali sekala? tapi apsal aku rasa aku jiwang hari-hari jugak. hahahha.

anyway, for some reason aku rasa happy sgt arini. psl kelas aku byk ke? hahaha...gile per nak happy sebab kelas byk. aku rasa aku happy sebab i move forward from my nightmare. what nightmare? It's love nightmare. I hope this time, i make the right move. I hope...but who i am to decide that. i just can pray to Allah so that this time, everything goes smoothly. everything is impossible but at least, 70% going smooth just ok for me. and...make this a happy ending. please Allah, i don't want to be hurt anymore. so i hope i will never hurting anybody in this long and memorable journey of love.

Who's the girl? Ha...this part kena rahsia dulu la. since i'm a bit afraid la. you know la...if things felt apart, malu jgk. yeah...i'm also human being. tahu jugak bermalu-maluan neeh. as always happened to me, a condition which i hate so much; she just breaking up with her ex. she's so fragile, i'm really afraid of doing the wrong move. the same mistake. one time before, i said it too early. one time before also, i said it too late. demm...the timing is everything. i always thought, LOVE IS NOT SPACE SHUTTLE LAUNCHING. but unluckily, i'm so damn wrong. LOVE IS ABOUT TIMING. one second late, you miss the chance. for every stape taken, every second used, every breath taken, every moment enjoyed.....everything's count. every single thing.

i dunno how to put this but i think in some way, i do the right things at the right moment. not too perfect i think considering the disadvantages i have, but i make it up perfectly i think. at least, it's what i think. she cute...in my preference. should i describe it? no need la but she's smart enough to have serious chat, cute enough to manja2, so called balance. i love that kind of woman. and suprisingly, she's really support my emotion, and she said that she's happy while have me by her side (even as frenz). isn't that a good indicator?

i know that i'm not good looking, i'm maybe not his type, i'm not the man she's waiting for, i'm not the man she's dream every single night, but i hope i can be the man who can make her cute face smile.....and life happily. as usual, no high hope...cause i really know who i'm. yes..pathethic loser.

"i want to be the one who can cheer you up and make you smile every single moment"

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btw, sekarang ni tgh gile layan lagu The Beatles. for newbie nak dgr lagu The Beatles, boleh try lagu cam :
  • I Want To Hold Your Hand
  • Here, There and Everywhere
  • And I Love Her
  • Imagine
  • Let It Be
  • Obla Di, Obla Da
  • I'm A Loser
  • Help!
  • She Loves You
  • Lucy In The Sky With Diamond (OST I Am Sam)
Mula-mula eager nak kenal psl The Beatles adalah bila tgk filem I Am Sam. the whole story is about The Beatles. All the plot or significant event have important things happened in The Beatles. Apapun, tak rugi layan sebab lagu derang memang unik. not just pretty boy but God-given talent. the music is beautiful, the lyrics can be so naive, can be so matured. layan~~~

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

ehem2..ola bro.. nice post u have there :) did she knew bout ur blog? hmm..its quite, ya kno, embrassing fer her to read all that..but in some way..its cool :) [ececece..like i give my crush the chance to read my blog..haha] emm..it happens to my fren tho..she got busted becoz of her crush read her blog. but then again..they went out real fine right now..haha seyes2. maybe it'll giv her some spark..hehe hu knos..again its juz a suggest from my indegenius mind :p

emmmm...then maybe i shud really ask my crush to read my blog..haha ;] neway ganbatte!!

dueng said...

huhu~~

i think i'm telling what in my mind. i telling the truth. yeah..always the truth is not good to hear. people get hurt easily. i know this entry in some way may hurt her....but i hope she can understand what i'm trying to tell her. i'm a bit low self esteem, i need something (in this point, my blog) for me to mumbling about my problem.

i think she knows bout my blog. i will wait for the time to come...i hope everything will be fine. i'm 100% natural. no lies in what i write just now. it's all the truth, nothing but the whole truth about how i feel. i know it's kind pathethic...

to her: i really love you so much. i know this may sound a bit crazy, but i do really love you.

DewA LavaU said...

ilek.be brave.girl like brave guy.hehe.

Anonymous said...

aa? hehe mangi~!!! go mangi go :P

- H - said...

hrmm... apesal aku terasa cam kenal jer awek tu... "hey gadis yang manis"..hahahhahahaha.. adakah dia.. ataupun dia..?? huhu cam ramai laa plak calon2 nya. kali ni betul2 seyes ker?? atau ko develop perasaan tue?? ko nih bukannya bleh harap sgt... huhuhuhu apa2 pun.. gud luck... huhuhuhuhu

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dueng said...

anonymous: hehehe..thanks. :P

naxerul: entahlah. tp aku rasa kali ni aku serius sukakan dia. serius. develop perasaan? entah. tatau. hahaha. thanks anyway. aku tak taruk harapan tinggi2. just go with the flow.

snubby: hahaha...aku jiwang ke? akhir2 ni je. bese2 takder pun. ye ke 99% success? eh..ko dgn awek petronas camne? takkan ko pun tergolong dalam 1% yang fail tu. hahahhaa. gurau2 jer. :)

Confessions Of A Female Cryptic Mind said...

ASsalamualaikom

Wah wah wah... DueNG jiWang? memaNG JiwaNG pun.. ahahaha

GOoD luck. Tell us More Eh!

Dils said...

Stupid blogger, dh post comment, die mengong laks.

Ok Ok. So you are in love? Heh,, birds sings sweeter, sky is bluer, foods tasted better and stuffs like that?

But kinda konfius. To ask like what schoolgirl may ask, declare izzit??

dueng said...

haha...blogger always like that. anyway, just started. in process of knowing each other much better. declare? not yet. she need more time to calm down.

things getting better? definitely. add some motivation here and there. have more smile than before. and life is much easier to handle. problem is no more big deal..cause have someone to cheer me up.

Sir Mute Key Chicks said...

uiks..sekarang musim bulan chenta ker??

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