Tickling my anger

This week kinda super stress week for me. Too many bad things happened for no fucking reason. I will put in list for better view. The list of unfortunate fucking events are:

• need to work on weekend

I got to work on weekend last week. as all of us know, we have 3 days off but i fulfill first 2 days at KLIA. we have evacuation for turkmenistan office. if you read the fuckin news, you'll know that turk's president already passed away thus there are chances of coup to occur there. so, we need to evacuate 'non-essential' (read: family) of the staffs there to malaysia. i not argue the experience that i got but the week before that also i need to work on weekend. on the week before that, i need to come to office during weekend to pack all organizer, desk calendar, pocket diary, and wall calendar to all PCSB office either at PMO, SKO, SBO, and overseas. Thousands of organiser and we take 2 evening (thursday & friday) and one whole day (saturday) to finish all the packing. so in basic i been doing 2 weeks work without decent rest.

It's ok for me for doing the work cause i love my work. But the tiredness prolonged to weekdays and with current tasks given, tense rose up quickly. this thing put my body in 50% health point down and put my tense point to 5%.

• snailnet (internet at snail's pace)

the earthquake at taiwan make the snailnet phenomena worsen at malaysia. not to mention the already snailnet connection we have, earthquake make the connection even worst. i love internet so much cause internet help me to get away from real world and enjoy the world which i have total control over it. how powerful is it. one thing i hate so much is i can't read blogs/news as breakfast replacement and wikipedia/d-addicts as lunch replacement. frustrating gile. this one add up my tense almost 50%

• mom angry (read:miss) at me

i really don't have time to call her. during weekend, i come back late and i need fuckin rest to rejuvenate for tomorrow activities. beside works, i have household chores to be done. today, she missed call me and i call her back. she kinda pissed off cause i not calling her. she said she missed me. yeah...i know. me too. but i can't call at night cause she going to bed early plus she's not too healthy to stay up late. so, normally i will call her on friday but last friday had been spent to scheduled evacuation exercise which put me to arrange accomodation and transportation for evacuated families. not to mention i need to work close with HR to ensure they get enough assistance and comfortable with the evacuation process. Ashgabat -> bangkok (6 hours) -> transit (normally 3 hours or more) -> bangkok -> KL (2 hours). a very tiring journey especially if the families have 4 small children while the husband not around. ops..back to topic.

mom asked me to go back home during this raya. it's not that i don't want to go back but considering how exciting kelantan and terengganu people celebrating eidul adha, i can imagine how busy the LPT and not to mentioned Karak highway. i already told her that i will be going back at the end of this month after the migration exercise for floor 24, 52 and 53 Tower 1 finished but she forget bout it, i think. so, i need to find ticket to going back to Temerloh on 31/12 but i'm pretty sure all the ticket already sold out. i just called plusliner and utama to do the check. i hope she'll understand but i just ready to be nagged by her. but after i told her bout my hectic weekend, she's kinda berlembut. lucky. she asked me to take care my health since i'm telling her my swinging health condition. love you ma. i'm going back end of next month k. this put my tense point to 110% percent but after she's asked me to take care of my health, my tense going down 100% percent. aih..rindunya. =)

• new knowledge

i love to learn and willing to learn. as a newbie, i put down my head and pride to seek knowledge from others but this things really pissed me off cause i just got new knowledge regarding my induction programme. i just knew that we need to register our name to HR for that induction programme. WTF is that? i know the importance of providing information to clarifying and record keeping (for HR side) but what pissed me off is that HR never told me bout this. Ok, i'm at fault for not asking for it but my assumption is everything already been arranged by HR since they have record of new recruit. Assumption is mother of all fucked up so i'm at fault again but i been wondering how could HR not putting the details of registration in the attachment given to us together with offer letter????? it's just one small sentence stating "please get induction registration form from HR personnel upon report duty". easy rite??

And not to mentioned that i get a pain in the ass experience while fulfilling my needs for works including PC purchases, SAP ID and access registration, LAN ID registration, port activation, PC configuration and many new things that a newbie need to handle. I don't mind doing all those thing but i need to be informed before hand. as HR assume all department have secretaries, i need them to revise back their opinion since most secretaries are dumbass lazy (my section don't have secretaries so everything i handle myself). please help new recruit to get their things done by putting a list of must acquire items/things in simple one page attachment together with offer letter so that we can ask people around us and do things on our own. i seriously don't mind to ask people around to accomplish my things cause it's all knowledge but i'm in situation of "i dunno what i dunno". you're in blind spot.

and i'm too pissed off to see MyHRM website which not having links to PMTSB site. i hardly browse through all celah2 MyHRM website and i couldn't find any link to PMTSB site. lastly after godek2 PETRONET, i found PMTSB site link at Education Division site. It's ok if i been working for 10 years (in assumption i been exploring all those sections in MyHRM website) but i'm just 3 month here and i can't accept the fact that i need to wasting my time browsing things that should make easier for users. i'm so pissed off. i very teruja with HRIS form. they give us sample on how to complete the form thus make the work easier. you should expect all those newbies are total dumb and have no even slightest idea bout any of your jargon and terms used. Help us here...i'm tired of getting suprised. I dunno if this thing happened to most newbie but i'm lucky to have my curiosity and common sense to guide me in exploring those website. can you imagine a person with low common sense and curiosity? and i think my IT background help me a bit to explore things. FYI, my PC purchases already pending for 3 month, my SAP registration pending for 1 month, and my hell fuckin induction goin to be delayed only-god-know-when.

i'm tired of lack information, miscommunication and sudden short notice. i dunno why they can't revise their system and make improvement out of it. if i'm telling them bout this, they asked me to shut up cause i'm still new. happened to my friend. enough said. you need no new recruit if need no new idea (but they gembar gemburkan psl acquiring new idea from new comer yet they stop us from giving new idea. dumbass). i think all this are just formality, just to boosting up their management, try to make them look different eventhough they are not. and as part of their families, i'm afraid i losing my grip. they good at brainwashing. i hope i manage to survive so that one day when i'm going up there, i'm going to change their way using my power. i hope so. my tense going 200% after finished browsing MyHRM website and cursing along the way to find out PMTSB website (plus with snailnet) and slow access to PMTSB and MyHRM website. i wonder why. no maintenance of server? or congested network? i dunno, i'm just an admin guy.

ok..that's the summed up of my life during this whole week. now i'm taking my resto and lepaking during raya at KL. i'm not getting any balik raya ticket. so ma, meet you end of this month. i will try my best to stay healthy. =)