Men are nothing without them

Women.

Period. Men are nothing without them. Or at least what some smart ass philosophical scholar had been shoving to my mind.

Adek made me do this, i was writing this type of entry before but not bother to find the entry anymore. People changes. Period. Fullstop.

What i look in a woman?

Physical:

1) Round Face. I have soft spot with round face woman. Whether it's fair skin, sawo matang, or dark complexion, round face always manage to attract me one way or another.

2) Cheeky smile. I love woman with cheeky smile. I don't like elegant smile (ok, i lie but i don't really prefer beautiful/elegant woman). Cheeky as in cute. Like Nagasawa Masami. very cheeky smile, blur face.

3) A bit plump. Round face normally come with a bit plump body. Yes, i'm not into skinny girl.

4) Wearing spectacles. If i saw a woman wearing spectacle (the oldies, 70's kind of spectacle with thick,black plastic frame), i will immediately look at her for a second time. This criteria basically manage to overwrite all other criteria if i find the spectacles really suite her face.

Mental:

1) Independent. I need a woman whom could live on their own without she have me. I'm an ass so i always love to neglect woman i love. give it for my friends, or my work or my family or my jdorama. She is after all those 4. Sorry love, i know them first before i know you. I could tolerate with her need if she ask me to.

2) Tell me what you want. Seriously, if you said "nothing", i will take it as "nothing". I know she might had been thinking something but life is not worth the hassle to dig she up to tell me that. If she need something, just say so. I take no hint, so don't request me to guess what does she want from me.

3) Cool. I'm a pessimist by nature, lack of confidence, i always running away from love problem. I need someone whom could talk the sense to me without shouting or anger all over it. I hardly get angry with the one i love (even if i angry, i won't tell because i just swallow it) so i really hope she could do the same. the more she mad at me, the more i'm running away from her. I always think of failure, the negative side of thing, the same goes to relationship. If you see i'm a coward, indeed i'm. About love, i'm such a coward eventhough i appear brave. I'm extra sensitive towards love and make me more insecure than any guy for any girl ever meet. I have confidence problem, that's the bottom line.

4) Matured. I hate to be shouted at, nor i would do that to her. Always, the other side get mad for my negligence, my carelessness and my insensitivity towards her feeling. I have to admit that i'm the one whom you need to tell so that i could do something. Reason being, i try to push myself for once and she say she hate me forever cause i'm a control freak. after that, i let her decide what she wants from me. Don't shout, don't let your anger out, talk to me rationally. FYI, i'm already immune to that and i can ignore things like that. Talk to me like mature adult and you probably get what you want ( to date, only my older sister could talk sense to me. that's what a mature woman look like).

I don't mind how people treating me cause i will swallow every single thing you said. With friends, i always say what i feel. But with the one i love, i always hide it. It's hard to say that cause she easily get offended. If you ask me to treat you like my friend, be open minded and i shall show you who i'm truly am.

Love != Friend. I wish i could have friend as my love but that's hard to happen. Period.

p/s: i hate get shouted at. Period. the more you mad at me, the faster i'm running away from you. tell me what you want, i'm not ahlil nujum.