Foolproof

Foolproof by definition:

goofproof: proof against human misuse or error; "foolproof this appliance"

not liable to failure; "a foolproof identification system"; "the unfailing sign of an amateur"; "an unfailing test"
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Foolproof as it appears is not tolerate to failure or in simpler manner, a none-failure or in the simplest form of words would be; PERFECT.

Perfection. I'm not going to talk about any computer system or procedure or regulation (well, when talking about foolproof, it's always about system) but about belief system.

There are no foolproof belief system as there are none of things in this world near to perfection. Friend of mine having internal fight with himself for stop himself from cross the boundary. She belongs to someone and he is single. They are friend and the assurance that the belief system of her is foolproof is total bullshit. I believe that she could be loyal but whether the loyalty could be really hold still if he keep on going, I'm very much doubt that.

i couldn't shake off the fact that he and she will ended up together. We talk about this and he pretty much don't like the idea of it. He believe in her belief system to be foolproof but things with emotion is hard to predict.

And possibilities of one small appreciative gesture, smile and talk would lead to total change in their life story are the most that i could help him to realize. he realize that but the dejavu of past experience haunt him. She really resembled the one he likes before. She is completely mirror image of his past. He couldn't shake her off of his mind but reality bites hard.

He's asking for consultation and i only provide the blunt truth. I won't hide as i know where this could bring him. It's not a hard decision to be cold to her but to eventually do that is hard. Who's in the right mind willing to let the best of things?

He in dilemma. Should he go on with fragile foolproof belief system of her by hoping nothing eventually happened or should he let her go by keeping his distance.

He knows the answer best. Break a leg, bro.

Turning Point

Petang ni jumpa manager dari east coast. hopefully, something fruitful from the discussion nanti. Dah tanya boss, dia tak kisah cuma after Julai baru boleh. Hopefully current projects ni finish la by end of June. Sakit jiwa dah aku melayan benda-benda ni semua.

reason for not updating the blog, aku memang busy gile sepanjang boss takde. Tak duduk kat tempat pun since meeting merata tempat. And nak update blog ni amik masa sikit so bertambah2 la perasaan reluctant nak update blog.

Yang penting sekarang, minggu ni nak pergi makan kat Williams. yeah, this is the most awaiting event every month. Last month aku makan Salmon Grill with bang bang sauce, memang besar la salmon block tu, kenyang macam nak mati. the month before makan sirloin steak. the month before lagi, makan pasta seafood. tak sabarnya nak makan kat Williams. 30th April ni!

EE dah keluar dari rumah, ada satu bilik kosong (twin sharing). Sesape nak masuk rumah, sila contact aku. Sewa monthly around RM 160 - RM 200 (including utilities) tapi bilik share dgn sarip. ada astro, internet, mesin basuh, water heater and lots of things shared in network *wink* *wink*.

Tengah hari ni, aku akan lunch sambil tonton House episode latest! Yeah, kat rumah tengah download Survivor Fiji and The L Words season 1. JDo spring dah start, ada few JDos yang aku tengah have my eyes on. Few good JDos really.

Lapar, nak gi me"nyetan" kat iSetan. wakakaka.

Men are nothing without them

Women.

Period. Men are nothing without them. Or at least what some smart ass philosophical scholar had been shoving to my mind.

Adek made me do this, i was writing this type of entry before but not bother to find the entry anymore. People changes. Period. Fullstop.

What i look in a woman?

Physical:

1) Round Face. I have soft spot with round face woman. Whether it's fair skin, sawo matang, or dark complexion, round face always manage to attract me one way or another.

2) Cheeky smile. I love woman with cheeky smile. I don't like elegant smile (ok, i lie but i don't really prefer beautiful/elegant woman). Cheeky as in cute. Like Nagasawa Masami. very cheeky smile, blur face.

3) A bit plump. Round face normally come with a bit plump body. Yes, i'm not into skinny girl.

4) Wearing spectacles. If i saw a woman wearing spectacle (the oldies, 70's kind of spectacle with thick,black plastic frame), i will immediately look at her for a second time. This criteria basically manage to overwrite all other criteria if i find the spectacles really suite her face.

Mental:

1) Independent. I need a woman whom could live on their own without she have me. I'm an ass so i always love to neglect woman i love. give it for my friends, or my work or my family or my jdorama. She is after all those 4. Sorry love, i know them first before i know you. I could tolerate with her need if she ask me to.

2) Tell me what you want. Seriously, if you said "nothing", i will take it as "nothing". I know she might had been thinking something but life is not worth the hassle to dig she up to tell me that. If she need something, just say so. I take no hint, so don't request me to guess what does she want from me.

3) Cool. I'm a pessimist by nature, lack of confidence, i always running away from love problem. I need someone whom could talk the sense to me without shouting or anger all over it. I hardly get angry with the one i love (even if i angry, i won't tell because i just swallow it) so i really hope she could do the same. the more she mad at me, the more i'm running away from her. I always think of failure, the negative side of thing, the same goes to relationship. If you see i'm a coward, indeed i'm. About love, i'm such a coward eventhough i appear brave. I'm extra sensitive towards love and make me more insecure than any guy for any girl ever meet. I have confidence problem, that's the bottom line.

4) Matured. I hate to be shouted at, nor i would do that to her. Always, the other side get mad for my negligence, my carelessness and my insensitivity towards her feeling. I have to admit that i'm the one whom you need to tell so that i could do something. Reason being, i try to push myself for once and she say she hate me forever cause i'm a control freak. after that, i let her decide what she wants from me. Don't shout, don't let your anger out, talk to me rationally. FYI, i'm already immune to that and i can ignore things like that. Talk to me like mature adult and you probably get what you want ( to date, only my older sister could talk sense to me. that's what a mature woman look like).

I don't mind how people treating me cause i will swallow every single thing you said. With friends, i always say what i feel. But with the one i love, i always hide it. It's hard to say that cause she easily get offended. If you ask me to treat you like my friend, be open minded and i shall show you who i'm truly am.

Love != Friend. I wish i could have friend as my love but that's hard to happen. Period.

p/s: i hate get shouted at. Period. the more you mad at me, the faster i'm running away from you. tell me what you want, i'm not ahlil nujum.

Proposal Daisakusen SP

The most anticipated SP for Proposal Daisakusen is available now. I truyl feel Proposal Daisakusen is a worthy love story to watch. Reason being, Nagasawa Masami in there. Shoot, she's cute and her face when she's mad drive me crazy.

Wasn't she cute? Ok, i couldn't help myself with round face girl.

Anyway, Proposal Daisakusen SP finally conclude what will happen after that. The after effect of Kenzo confession, whether Rei really going for Kenzo, how Eri and Tsuru conclude their relationship, was it a success or a failure. As for me, Nagasawa Masami as the main cast give me enough reason to watch this. Another reason would be i already watch the whole series and i won't miss this SP after the cliffhanger they pull at the end of the series. No way i miss this!

I can't further talking without revealing the whole story but for people who frustrated with the whole going-back-but-never-able-to-confess, this SP would provide the avenue for that to end and they pull this nicely indeed. Overall, this is amongst the best jdorama i watch last year. Yurp, they could do better but the storyline really close to me as if i could feel the same as Kenzo feel. Strange enough, i keep cheering Kenzo eventhough i can predict he will come back to the past again to redeem his mistake. It might be useless but i could see how things could be develop slowly as Kenzo realize how he feel about Rei. Well, all in all, this SP happen to make me have my *sob* moment. Ok, it's lame but what the hell!

Hardsubbed Torrent Link: Proposal Daisakusen SP

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p/s: Nagasawa Masami will be a cast in Spring 2008 Jdo title Last Friends.