Friday, December 30, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Howdy!
Howdy!
Am back. After a while, feel like writing it here again. In case you never heard of it, I'm married and will be expecting little us in August, InsyaAllah. Life so far has few ups and lots of down; always a pessimistic statement from me. Couldn't help it really.
Lots of thing happened in 2010.
Happy things:
1) Get engaged
2) Get married
3) Live as newly wed
Not so happy things:
1) Admitted for diabetis (stable now)
2) Missing major part of work thus affecting my motivation
3) Hectic, busy and full house schedule.
I have to admit that life as married man change my world. Having someone (soon to be two) to take care of really put me into thinking mode each time. Some silly mistakes here and there, I should be fine. Nothing is perfect but we have lifetime to discover it, InsyaAllah.
Work was hectic, busy, sad, bitter, full of jokes and mega fun! I just enjoyed it so much though repeating the same experience for another year maybe not so encouraging. However, boss already put me in charge with some big label to me; You Can Improve It To Be Better This Year! Noted boss. Thanks for the trust.
Financially, barely enough as usual. Perhaps should cut here and there but in the midst of getting on my feet again and running the game. It's the usual cycle of starting somewhere new, you'll be struggling at start but what makes you a perfectly unique human is how you get back on your feet and keep on running. I got a hunch that 2011 will be a better year and I pray for that.
All in all, life is fun and will always be fun. I having so much colours in life, I just couldn't ask for more. One rainbow at a time, please.
I will keep posting here since I'm back. Keep on reading, keep on smiling and have fun with life.
Am back. After a while, feel like writing it here again. In case you never heard of it, I'm married and will be expecting little us in August, InsyaAllah. Life so far has few ups and lots of down; always a pessimistic statement from me. Couldn't help it really.
Lots of thing happened in 2010.
Happy things:
1) Get engaged
2) Get married
3) Live as newly wed
Not so happy things:
1) Admitted for diabetis (stable now)
2) Missing major part of work thus affecting my motivation
3) Hectic, busy and full house schedule.
I have to admit that life as married man change my world. Having someone (soon to be two) to take care of really put me into thinking mode each time. Some silly mistakes here and there, I should be fine. Nothing is perfect but we have lifetime to discover it, InsyaAllah.
Work was hectic, busy, sad, bitter, full of jokes and mega fun! I just enjoyed it so much though repeating the same experience for another year maybe not so encouraging. However, boss already put me in charge with some big label to me; You Can Improve It To Be Better This Year! Noted boss. Thanks for the trust.
Financially, barely enough as usual. Perhaps should cut here and there but in the midst of getting on my feet again and running the game. It's the usual cycle of starting somewhere new, you'll be struggling at start but what makes you a perfectly unique human is how you get back on your feet and keep on running. I got a hunch that 2011 will be a better year and I pray for that.
All in all, life is fun and will always be fun. I having so much colours in life, I just couldn't ask for more. One rainbow at a time, please.
I will keep posting here since I'm back. Keep on reading, keep on smiling and have fun with life.
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Wind of Change. A Bit.
Well...
Hello there. I won't be writing much here as I will be writing somewhere else on more constant basis than this old, bersawang blog.
I feel that, life take a turn and I yet to have any feel whether it's for better or for worse. What I could do is just pray.
Owh...I write at MultipleEyes every Friday. Or any other day to make up my missing Friday posts.
This blog?
Well, I will let it rot for a while. Though, I might feel like I want it again...some other time. Or not.
I dunno.
Hello there. I won't be writing much here as I will be writing somewhere else on more constant basis than this old, bersawang blog.
I feel that, life take a turn and I yet to have any feel whether it's for better or for worse. What I could do is just pray.
Owh...I write at MultipleEyes every Friday. Or any other day to make up my missing Friday posts.
This blog?
Well, I will let it rot for a while. Though, I might feel like I want it again...some other time. Or not.
I dunno.
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Kepala Lutut Kamu!
The title takde kaitan dengan topik discuss dalam entri ni. Malas sudah nak bagi tajuk best-best sebab ceritanya boring.
Cut story short, busy gile dengan macam-macam benda. Personal and work come along throwing everything their hand could get at me. Occupied for days!
Lately, been downloading Naruto old episodes and rerun in progress. 3 weeks and manage to finish 120+ episodes in between works and life. hehehe.
Also, finished watching Liar Game Season 2. Even better than season 1, more twist and more dramatic dark cloud around the storyline. The grand finale in the movie, still waiting SARS Fansub to sub it. Can't wait for the finale! It will be extra cool.
As for music, lately fall deeply in love with YUI. Well, not a new news however YUI become extra cute lately. And I must say the songs presented matured even further and really soothing to my ears. Rooting for YUI and her short hair! Yeay!
My favorite songs:
1) It's all too much
2) Never Say Die - the best from YUI!
3) Gloria
4) Muffler
Could download it at JpopSuki, however you need to register for it. JpopSuki is making comeback with great pose!
I must say life as Jpop and Jrock fan wouldn't be complete without JpopSuki. One stop centre for J-Songs. I weep manly tears when I could get back the access. Uhuk~
Btw, JpopSuki could be find at: http://www.jpopsuki.eu/index.php
Nowadays, more on reading than writing entry. I guess, easier to read than to write something fresh. Haha. Ciao~
Cut story short, busy gile dengan macam-macam benda. Personal and work come along throwing everything their hand could get at me. Occupied for days!
Lately, been downloading Naruto old episodes and rerun in progress. 3 weeks and manage to finish 120+ episodes in between works and life. hehehe.
Also, finished watching Liar Game Season 2. Even better than season 1, more twist and more dramatic dark cloud around the storyline. The grand finale in the movie, still waiting SARS Fansub to sub it. Can't wait for the finale! It will be extra cool.
As for music, lately fall deeply in love with YUI. Well, not a new news however YUI become extra cute lately. And I must say the songs presented matured even further and really soothing to my ears. Rooting for YUI and her short hair! Yeay!
My favorite songs:
1) It's all too much
2) Never Say Die - the best from YUI!
3) Gloria
4) Muffler
Could download it at JpopSuki, however you need to register for it. JpopSuki is making comeback with great pose!
I must say life as Jpop and Jrock fan wouldn't be complete without JpopSuki. One stop centre for J-Songs. I weep manly tears when I could get back the access. Uhuk~Btw, JpopSuki could be find at: http://www.jpopsuki.eu/index.php
Nowadays, more on reading than writing entry. I guess, easier to read than to write something fresh. Haha. Ciao~
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Cuba Untuk Tidak Skeptik!
Pagi tadi, opis agak muram. Ditambah pulak gerimis dalam samar-samar pagi di Kertih. Memang perfect setting untuk bermalas-malasan. My colleague yang duduk sebelah saya tak sihat. Dari kelmarin lagi dia tak sihat, mula-mula tu selsema then hari ni bertambah teruk; demam terus. Cuaca akhir-akhir ni asyik hujan, panas, hujan, panas, kadang-kadang hujan panas. Bukan sahaja orang, batu pun boleh retak kalau macam tu.
Seharian amoi tu tidur je, memang sangat lah tak sihat. Dia tanya saya, ok ke kalau dia nak balik? Bagi saya, ok je. Dah kalau tak sihat, buat apa paksa-paksa diri datang opis, kan? Things that could wait, should wait. Hari-hari menunggu maklumat dari orang KL dan Finance camni memang tak banyak benda nak dibuat. Saya cuma tolong section head feed info untuk presentation, analysis yang dah buat waktu budget cycle in December agak berguna untuk beef up lagi presentation tu. Tapi amoi tu still jugak duduk kat opis, muka dah macam orang lalok (memang lalok pun sebab tak larat sebab demam dan sebab makan ubat).
Last-last amoi tu pergi la klinik, ambik ubat. Ingatkan dah hilang terus dah balik rehat kat rumah, sekali dia datang jugak opis. Tak faham sungguh. Takper lah, dia tidur je kat bilik mommy (bilik untuk mommy yang bekerja untuk mengepam susu untuk anak2 kecik di rumah). Tapi dia taknak, maka tidurlah dekat sofa bahagian belakang opis. Dah berbalut dengan pashmina dan kot dah tapi still nampak dia sangat tidak larat.
Waktu nak balik tadi, dia mintak temankan dia jalan turun pergi kereta. Sebab dia dah betul-betul macam lalok sangat, rasanya kalau kena tiup tu boleh melayang. So, saya pun temanlah dia berjalan turun sampai ke kereta dia. Actually, tak sampai pun kereta dia sebab saya parking kawasan lain.
Selepas tu, saya terfikir sendiri. Saya rasa tenang dengan diri saya. Saya rasa dah lama saya tak buat good gesture to others cam yang jadi harini. Mungkin saya patut buat lebih lagi. Dah lama rasanya saya tidak skeptikal dengan orang dan berfikir bahawa seseorang itu adalah ikhlas dalam tutur katanya. Mungkin sebab cuaca kot, kepala otak saya retak sikit sebab panas dan hujan atau.....mungkin jugak boring dah kot jadi skeptikal, otak fikir terlalu kompleks. Takper lah, kita tengok sampai mana saya boleh tidak skeptikal.
Diharapkan tiadalah umat-umat yang dangkal fikirannya merosakkan mood baik saya dengan buat perangai yang khinzir pun segan nak mengaku saudara. All people are good people, life turning them into monster.
Believe in that!
p/s: seronok jadi skeptik sebab tiada apa yang manusia lakukan yang boleh mengejutkan saya sebab saya percaya manusia boleh lakukan perkara yang tidak terbayang di kepala kita sekarang. Cumanya, saya melihat dari sudut negatif, bukan positif. Itulah skeptik!
Seharian amoi tu tidur je, memang sangat lah tak sihat. Dia tanya saya, ok ke kalau dia nak balik? Bagi saya, ok je. Dah kalau tak sihat, buat apa paksa-paksa diri datang opis, kan? Things that could wait, should wait. Hari-hari menunggu maklumat dari orang KL dan Finance camni memang tak banyak benda nak dibuat. Saya cuma tolong section head feed info untuk presentation, analysis yang dah buat waktu budget cycle in December agak berguna untuk beef up lagi presentation tu. Tapi amoi tu still jugak duduk kat opis, muka dah macam orang lalok (memang lalok pun sebab tak larat sebab demam dan sebab makan ubat).
Last-last amoi tu pergi la klinik, ambik ubat. Ingatkan dah hilang terus dah balik rehat kat rumah, sekali dia datang jugak opis. Tak faham sungguh. Takper lah, dia tidur je kat bilik mommy (bilik untuk mommy yang bekerja untuk mengepam susu untuk anak2 kecik di rumah). Tapi dia taknak, maka tidurlah dekat sofa bahagian belakang opis. Dah berbalut dengan pashmina dan kot dah tapi still nampak dia sangat tidak larat.
Waktu nak balik tadi, dia mintak temankan dia jalan turun pergi kereta. Sebab dia dah betul-betul macam lalok sangat, rasanya kalau kena tiup tu boleh melayang. So, saya pun temanlah dia berjalan turun sampai ke kereta dia. Actually, tak sampai pun kereta dia sebab saya parking kawasan lain.
Selepas tu, saya terfikir sendiri. Saya rasa tenang dengan diri saya. Saya rasa dah lama saya tak buat good gesture to others cam yang jadi harini. Mungkin saya patut buat lebih lagi. Dah lama rasanya saya tidak skeptikal dengan orang dan berfikir bahawa seseorang itu adalah ikhlas dalam tutur katanya. Mungkin sebab cuaca kot, kepala otak saya retak sikit sebab panas dan hujan atau.....mungkin jugak boring dah kot jadi skeptikal, otak fikir terlalu kompleks. Takper lah, kita tengok sampai mana saya boleh tidak skeptikal.
Diharapkan tiadalah umat-umat yang dangkal fikirannya merosakkan mood baik saya dengan buat perangai yang khinzir pun segan nak mengaku saudara. All people are good people, life turning them into monster.
Believe in that!
p/s: seronok jadi skeptik sebab tiada apa yang manusia lakukan yang boleh mengejutkan saya sebab saya percaya manusia boleh lakukan perkara yang tidak terbayang di kepala kita sekarang. Cumanya, saya melihat dari sudut negatif, bukan positif. Itulah skeptik!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Hell
Orang kata, kena tempuh kesukaran dulu baru kita menghargai kesenangan yang kita kecapi sekarang.
One must go thru hell to get to heaven. Heaven surrounds by hellish, torn path.
Saya tidak bercakap dalam konteks keagamaan, lebih kepada konteks kehidupan.
Kepayahan dan kesusahan sebahagian daripada jalan menuju ke "syurga" kesenangan.
Takde mood lately ni, dah suka marah-marah even sebab benda-benda kecik. Kesabaran saya makin tipis, adakah kerana saya selalu letih? Kerja tu semakin banyak, sampai kadang-kadang overwhelm dengan amount of work yang ada tapi kawan-kawan saya yang lain pun banyak kerja; malahan lagi banyak dari saya. Tak patut saya nak komplen pasal benda ni.
Tapi tak boleh kalau tak komplen, sebab nanti saya emo. Lagi emo, something torn between me and someone. Malas nak cerita panjang tapi the torn sewn and wrapping up nicely. Sedikit sebanyak, saya terasa faktor keletihan tu ada menyumbang sedikit sebanyak kepada bagaimana emosi saya lately ni. Saya rasa bersalah cuma ego nak mintak maaf. Yer, saya ego.
Baru-baru ni kawan-kawan ada call and sms, tanya itu ini tapi tak terasa nak jawab. Terasa nak kurung diri dalam bilik dan menyendiri. Semakin saya keluar kepada manusia di luar sana, saya rasa semakin la kesabaran saya menipis. Saya tak suka benda yang nonsense dan tidak praktikal, sebab saya jenis manusia yang straightforward dan praktikal.
Wedding kengkawan pun banyak saya tak pergi, cuma yang saya terasa nak pergi je saya akan usahakan jugak untuk sampai. Entah lah, saya rasa semakin ramai kawan saya add kat Facebook, semakin drifted away saya dari mereka. Apakah relationship that tidak pernah wujud antara saya dan mereka akan wujud hanya kerana saya add mereka di Facebook? Sebahagian mereka tidak pernah bercakap dengan saya, apatah lagi mengenali saya...kami cuma dihubungkan oleh tempat dimana kami bersama. Sebetulnya, hanya sebilangan kecil sahaja manusia yang benar-benar saya keep in touch.
Saya selalu terfikir, adakah saya incapable of (re)connect with people? Ada antara kawan-kawan di Facebook adalah kawan-kawan lama yang dulu bertepuk tampar mesra tapi saya tak tahu kenapa saya tidak boleh reconnect dengan mereka.
Mungkin saya tidak menyukai pengalaman saya di tempat itu, SEMSAS dan UTP. Terus terang, saya rasa saya tidak pernah menjadi sebahagian dari budaya tempat-tempat itu yang pentingkan ketrampilan dan cubaan berkawan-kawan dengan semua orang. Saya rasa dari dulu lagi saya incapable of making friends kerana saya tidak suka mengorbankan dan go against what I think right untuk membuat kawan. Jika saya tidak suka terhadap sesuatu perkara yang dilakukan oleh seseorang, percayalah saya mengelak menjadi kawan mereka. Bagi saya, yang penting adalah perkara yang saya fikirkan betul dan tidak saya kompromi terhadap itu.
Saya selalu merasakan saya suka pergi ke arah yang bertentangan dengan orang lain yang menyaksikan penyisihan yang ketara dari manusia-manusia lain. Cuma sebilangan kecil manusia yang memahami corak pemikiran saya, dan mereka itulah yang selalunya menjadi kawan saya.
Mungkin juga saya tidak fit untuk bergaul dengan orang lain selain dari kawan-kawan saya. Saya cepat berasa jengkel dengan cara mereka membawa diri mereka kerana saya dapat melihat karektor mereka yang suka diampu-ampu, bertindak dan berfikir mengikut majoriti sekalipun mereka sebenarnya tidak bersetuju kerana mereka perlu menjadi sebahagian dari komuniti yang begitu. Komuniti yang flamboyant tapi kosong. Yang popular tapi sunyi, tidak jujur.
Entahlah, mungkin saya tidak sukakan perkara-perkara begitu. Mungkin saya terlalu logikal dan rasional untuk majoriti manusia di dunia ini. Yang penting, saya suka begini.
One must go thru hell to get to heaven. Heaven surrounds by hellish, torn path.
Saya tidak bercakap dalam konteks keagamaan, lebih kepada konteks kehidupan.
Kepayahan dan kesusahan sebahagian daripada jalan menuju ke "syurga" kesenangan.
Takde mood lately ni, dah suka marah-marah even sebab benda-benda kecik. Kesabaran saya makin tipis, adakah kerana saya selalu letih? Kerja tu semakin banyak, sampai kadang-kadang overwhelm dengan amount of work yang ada tapi kawan-kawan saya yang lain pun banyak kerja; malahan lagi banyak dari saya. Tak patut saya nak komplen pasal benda ni.
Tapi tak boleh kalau tak komplen, sebab nanti saya emo. Lagi emo, something torn between me and someone. Malas nak cerita panjang tapi the torn sewn and wrapping up nicely. Sedikit sebanyak, saya terasa faktor keletihan tu ada menyumbang sedikit sebanyak kepada bagaimana emosi saya lately ni. Saya rasa bersalah cuma ego nak mintak maaf. Yer, saya ego.
Baru-baru ni kawan-kawan ada call and sms, tanya itu ini tapi tak terasa nak jawab. Terasa nak kurung diri dalam bilik dan menyendiri. Semakin saya keluar kepada manusia di luar sana, saya rasa semakin la kesabaran saya menipis. Saya tak suka benda yang nonsense dan tidak praktikal, sebab saya jenis manusia yang straightforward dan praktikal.
Wedding kengkawan pun banyak saya tak pergi, cuma yang saya terasa nak pergi je saya akan usahakan jugak untuk sampai. Entah lah, saya rasa semakin ramai kawan saya add kat Facebook, semakin drifted away saya dari mereka. Apakah relationship that tidak pernah wujud antara saya dan mereka akan wujud hanya kerana saya add mereka di Facebook? Sebahagian mereka tidak pernah bercakap dengan saya, apatah lagi mengenali saya...kami cuma dihubungkan oleh tempat dimana kami bersama. Sebetulnya, hanya sebilangan kecil sahaja manusia yang benar-benar saya keep in touch.
Saya selalu terfikir, adakah saya incapable of (re)connect with people? Ada antara kawan-kawan di Facebook adalah kawan-kawan lama yang dulu bertepuk tampar mesra tapi saya tak tahu kenapa saya tidak boleh reconnect dengan mereka.
Mungkin saya tidak menyukai pengalaman saya di tempat itu, SEMSAS dan UTP. Terus terang, saya rasa saya tidak pernah menjadi sebahagian dari budaya tempat-tempat itu yang pentingkan ketrampilan dan cubaan berkawan-kawan dengan semua orang. Saya rasa dari dulu lagi saya incapable of making friends kerana saya tidak suka mengorbankan dan go against what I think right untuk membuat kawan. Jika saya tidak suka terhadap sesuatu perkara yang dilakukan oleh seseorang, percayalah saya mengelak menjadi kawan mereka. Bagi saya, yang penting adalah perkara yang saya fikirkan betul dan tidak saya kompromi terhadap itu.
Saya selalu merasakan saya suka pergi ke arah yang bertentangan dengan orang lain yang menyaksikan penyisihan yang ketara dari manusia-manusia lain. Cuma sebilangan kecil manusia yang memahami corak pemikiran saya, dan mereka itulah yang selalunya menjadi kawan saya.
Mungkin juga saya tidak fit untuk bergaul dengan orang lain selain dari kawan-kawan saya. Saya cepat berasa jengkel dengan cara mereka membawa diri mereka kerana saya dapat melihat karektor mereka yang suka diampu-ampu, bertindak dan berfikir mengikut majoriti sekalipun mereka sebenarnya tidak bersetuju kerana mereka perlu menjadi sebahagian dari komuniti yang begitu. Komuniti yang flamboyant tapi kosong. Yang popular tapi sunyi, tidak jujur.
Entahlah, mungkin saya tidak sukakan perkara-perkara begitu. Mungkin saya terlalu logikal dan rasional untuk majoriti manusia di dunia ini. Yang penting, saya suka begini.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Menculik Miyabi a.k.a Maria Ozawa
What the heck? Maria Ozawa in an Indonesian movie? Now, that's brilliant!
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Foto Miyabi Maria Ozawa
"Rencananya akhir 2009 ini, bulan Desember," ujar Odi Mulya Hidayat produser Maxima Pictures seperti yang dikutip dari situs detikhot.com, Rabu (16/9/2009).
Sementara naskah film Menculik Miyabi akan ditulis oleh Raditya Dika yang dikenal sebelumnya telah menulis film yang cukup sukses, yaitu Kambing Jantan.
Disinggung soal bayaran untuk Maria Ozawa aka Miyabi, maka Odi Mulya Hidayat selaku produser Maxima menyebutkan kepada detikhot.com, mengaku membayar mahal untuk mendatangkan artis film porno tersebut.
Sementara Maria Ozawa merupakan bintang iklan yang kemudian populer sebagai pemain film porno. Perempuan yang kini berusia 23 tahun itu melakoni debutnya sebagai bintang film porno profesional pada 2005 lalu. Kini, film porno yang dibintanginya menjadi buruan utama para pengunduh nakal."
Source: Karodalnet.
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Film Menculik Miyabi Dibintangi Maria Ozawa - Setelah pada artikel sebelumnya diberitakan bahwa Maria Ozawa alias Miyabi akan main film di Indonesia, kini berita tersebutpun telah mendapatkan titik terang. Bintang porno asal Jepang tersebut dipastikan akan membintangi sebuah film berjudul Menculik Miyabi yang akan dirilis oleh Maxima Picture pada akhir tahun 2009 ini.
Foto Miyabi Maria Ozawa Sementara naskah film Menculik Miyabi akan ditulis oleh Raditya Dika yang dikenal sebelumnya telah menulis film yang cukup sukses, yaitu Kambing Jantan.
Disinggung soal bayaran untuk Maria Ozawa aka Miyabi, maka Odi Mulya Hidayat selaku produser Maxima menyebutkan kepada detikhot.com, mengaku membayar mahal untuk mendatangkan artis film porno tersebut.
Sementara Maria Ozawa merupakan bintang iklan yang kemudian populer sebagai pemain film porno. Perempuan yang kini berusia 23 tahun itu melakoni debutnya sebagai bintang film porno profesional pada 2005 lalu. Kini, film porno yang dibintanginya menjadi buruan utama para pengunduh nakal."
Source: Karodalnet.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
The Holland Attack!
Alternative music or indie music; always be my choice. Am not an aficionado so to speak however the interest in digging better and quality alternative/indie music always sparks adrenaline rush in my head. Lately, I found new jewels of alternative/indie music, well, thanks to certain particular person who some sort introduce it to me. I was browsing the status page when I came across Within Temptation youtube link shared by Man.
I thought to myself; hey, I know Within Temptation. I used to listen to their songs. I used to listen to Memories, Angels and Ice Queen. Of course I like Memories the most, Sharon den Adel is so kicking Amy Lee of Evanessence ass, at least that's what I thought. The earlier album more symphonic rock and gothic metal which make it totally awesome. You should sample Memories and Angels to get the idea how symphonic rock and gothic metal sounds like.
Newest single from Within Temptation called Utopia featuring Chris Jones is deep and moving me in so many ways.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEIvlihb2Ms
Sorry, no embedded video is allowed. Sharon's high pitch voice with Chris' husky rocking voice blend into musical beauty, cliche but the lyrics and melody echoes in your wake and sleep! (some exaggeration doesn't hurt, eh?)
Next item on my quest for indie/alternative music bring me to another rock band from Holland. Yeah, the small country of Holland have more than just tulips, drug and sex capital of Europe, total football, total hockey and colonial master of Indonesia and few other nations! If Within Temptation regarded as one of the best musical export of Holland, the other spectrum of Holland musical export that catches my eyes (and ears respectively) is Cloudmachine. This is one of the most famous indie band in Holland; regarded as Holland hidden pride of local scene. Well, who am I to argue on that?
My sampling become easier cause they release their album in Mininova.org. Yes, the same Mininova which used to be single most important entity for TV series torrent download, movies, warez etc etc now become a legit content distributor. They still stick to torrent as medium of file sharing however the contents is for general distribution license and free materials; a suitable ground for indie artist to distribute their album electronically.
Cloudmachine - Hum Of Life (2006) torrent
Give Cloudmachine a try, it might worth your time.
Picture source: http://www.cloudmachine.nl/#
I thought to myself; hey, I know Within Temptation. I used to listen to their songs. I used to listen to Memories, Angels and Ice Queen. Of course I like Memories the most, Sharon den Adel is so kicking Amy Lee of Evanessence ass, at least that's what I thought. The earlier album more symphonic rock and gothic metal which make it totally awesome. You should sample Memories and Angels to get the idea how symphonic rock and gothic metal sounds like.
Newest single from Within Temptation called Utopia featuring Chris Jones is deep and moving me in so many ways.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEIvlihb2Ms
Sorry, no embedded video is allowed. Sharon's high pitch voice with Chris' husky rocking voice blend into musical beauty, cliche but the lyrics and melody echoes in your wake and sleep! (some exaggeration doesn't hurt, eh?)
Next item on my quest for indie/alternative music bring me to another rock band from Holland. Yeah, the small country of Holland have more than just tulips, drug and sex capital of Europe, total football, total hockey and colonial master of Indonesia and few other nations! If Within Temptation regarded as one of the best musical export of Holland, the other spectrum of Holland musical export that catches my eyes (and ears respectively) is Cloudmachine. This is one of the most famous indie band in Holland; regarded as Holland hidden pride of local scene. Well, who am I to argue on that?
My sampling become easier cause they release their album in Mininova.org. Yes, the same Mininova which used to be single most important entity for TV series torrent download, movies, warez etc etc now become a legit content distributor. They still stick to torrent as medium of file sharing however the contents is for general distribution license and free materials; a suitable ground for indie artist to distribute their album electronically.Cloudmachine - Hum Of Life (2006) torrent
Give Cloudmachine a try, it might worth your time.
Picture source: http://www.cloudmachine.nl/#
Sunday, December 13, 2009
I Wish I Had Met You Earlier
"I wish I had met you earlier before all these experience ruined you. I want to see the old you."
These had been said by her. She read my blog old entry and she felt that I had changed alot thru my life experience. It just fair to be said that I changed for past years whether I like to admit it or not. In most significant way, I couldn't be the one that I was before - for better or for worse; cause I learned my lesson. I value each experience and indulge into it. I want to be different at that moment. I want to heal the pain. I do as what I deemed fit best; being tough emotionally.
She said, she want to see the soft of me, not the I-don't-care-much, tough of me. I have to admit that I lost the soft side of me long time ago, life experience toughen me up and she has to deal with it. Not that she's couldn't patient with my character now but to see a me whom she never see before would be the most wonderful gift she could get. Painfully, I also want the same thing. I want to get hold the old me. The one whom naive, the one whom love so hard make me cry so hard when love gone, the one whom so caring, the one whom worried so much, the one whom get jealous even by smallest thing.
I want to be vulnerable again. I want to be emotional again. I want to be jealous again. I want to be worried so much again.
I want that.
And I want to try to get it. I want to believe. Help me believe in this.
Though, she love me not even a bit less.
These had been said by her. She read my blog old entry and she felt that I had changed alot thru my life experience. It just fair to be said that I changed for past years whether I like to admit it or not. In most significant way, I couldn't be the one that I was before - for better or for worse; cause I learned my lesson. I value each experience and indulge into it. I want to be different at that moment. I want to heal the pain. I do as what I deemed fit best; being tough emotionally.
She said, she want to see the soft of me, not the I-don't-care-much, tough of me. I have to admit that I lost the soft side of me long time ago, life experience toughen me up and she has to deal with it. Not that she's couldn't patient with my character now but to see a me whom she never see before would be the most wonderful gift she could get. Painfully, I also want the same thing. I want to get hold the old me. The one whom naive, the one whom love so hard make me cry so hard when love gone, the one whom so caring, the one whom worried so much, the one whom get jealous even by smallest thing.
I want to be vulnerable again. I want to be emotional again. I want to be jealous again. I want to be worried so much again.
I want that.
And I want to try to get it. I want to believe. Help me believe in this.
Though, she love me not even a bit less.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Cerpen #1: Adik
Tuk.
Satu ketuk. Usai satu ketuk. Adik naik tangga lompat sampai atas rumah. Lompat lompat. Emak semai bunga, tanam puding, tanam kekwa, tanam bunga kertas. Adik suka bunga. Matahari sangat panas. Emak nampak panas. Abang tak pulang lagi. Adik suka abang, abang suka belikan adik kuih kacang rapuh. Kacang tumbuk balut kertas, adik panggil kacang rapuh. Abang ajar adik ABC, abang ajar adik kira 123.
"Adik, ambik kan emak air. Emak haus ni." jerit emak dari bawah.
"Baik mak." Adik lari-lari. Adik berhenti sebab adik ingat pesan emak, jangan berlari dalam rumah, nanti jatuh. Adik berjalan mengjingkit, adik tak mahu berlari. Adik ambil kole atas para sebelah sinki. Adik pasang air paip, adik tengok air warna putih berkeladak keluar. Emak bilang, air berkedalak ni banyak klorin. Adik pun tak tahu apa tu klorin cuma mak pesan, jangan minum air paip sebab klorin bahaya. Nanti gigi adik rosak sebab klorin makan gigi adik. Adik tak dapat bayang macam mana Klorin makan gigi adik, adik takut bila adik fikir macam tu.
Adik isi air dari kendi buntut hitam atas para sebelah sinki tu. Air jernih keluar, mak pesan adik cuma boleh minum air dari kendi. Tapi adik pernah tengok abang minum air paip waktu semua orang tak makan waktu siang. Adik tak faham kenapa orang tak makan siang cuma adik sorang je makan. Mak kata adik kecil lagi jadi Tuhan bagi adik makan sebab Tuhan kesian tengok adik kurus.
"Adik..mana air mak ni. Ko ni ambik air ke buat air?" Adik tersedar bila dengar suara emak jerit dari bawah rumah. Cepat-cepat adik bawa kole air dekat emak. Emak dah ada kat pangkin belakang rumah. Adik pusing pergi ke pangkin. Emak berpeluh, emak duduk kesat peluh kat dahi. Muka emak jadi merah, macam muka emak tengah marah. Adik takut nak pergi dekat dengan emak.
"Adik, mak ada kat sini. Cepat bawakan air tu. Mak haus sgt ni."
Adik datang dekat emak dan bagi air dekat emak. Adik pelik kenapa emak tak marah. Biasanya kalau muka emak merah, mesti adik kena marah. Macam masa emak pukul abang dengan kayu sebab abang minum air paip tu, emak pukul abang setengah mati. Macam juga masa emak main baling-baling pinggan dengan abah macam adik main-main baling pasir dengan Atin, anak jiran sebelah. Adik suka kalau emak tak marah sebab kalau emak marah, adik mesti kena bahan dengan emak. Adik tak suka kena bahan sebab sakit sangat.
Adik ingat adik kena bahan teruk bila adik tanya pada emak kenapa abah dah tak duduk dengan emak, adik dan abang. Emak bahan adik dengan penyangkut baju, dengan tali pinggang sampai adik tak boleh jalan seminggu. Kesian kat Atin sebab Atin tak boleh nak main dengan adik seminggu tu. Emak menangis masa tu, adik ingat sangat masa tu. Emak minta maaf dengan adik, adik rasa pelik. Sepatutnya adik yang minta maaf sebab adik rasa emak tak sengaja bahan adik. Emak tengah lapar agaknya sebab emak cakap orang yang tengah lapar ni cepat marah. Adik percaya cakap emak sebab adik pernah tengok Atin kena pukul dengan abah Atin waktu tengah makan. Mungkin abah Atin lapar dan marah Atin makan lebih.
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"Emak, kita nak pergi sungai buat apa?" tanya adik pada emak.
"Emak ada pasang pukat semalam, mesti ada ikan-ikan lekat kat situ. Boleh mak masak tengah hari dengan malam ni. Kalau ada lebih, emak buatkan perkasam. Adik suka perkasam kan?" Emak cakap sambil pandang adik.
"Adik suka. Emak buat banyak-banyak ye." jawab adik.
Emak cuma senyum. Adik suka sangat perkasam yang emak buat. Ikan puyu perkasam goreng yang emak buat sangat sedap. Kecur liur adik bila bayangkan ikan perkasam yang emak akan buat. Adik boleh makan perkasam hari-hari. Adik sangat suka. Sampai di sungai, emak dengan adik jalan turun ikut alur air bila hujan untuk turun sampai tebing sungai. Dah berapa hari hujan, tanah licin, air sungai pula deras menderu. Emak pimpin tangan adik, takut-takut adik jatuh dalam sungai. Atas jeti buluh kecil yang emak bina, ada tersangkut hujung pukat yang emak pasang. Emak uraikan ikatan hujung pukat dan perlahan-lahan tarik pukat. Adik siap sedia dengan tali untuk emak cucuk-cucuk ingsang ikan. Adik tengok banyak sangat ikan di pukat, adik rasa mungkin ikan-ikan tersangkut sebab ikan-ikan tu tertidur bila hujan maka ramailah yang sangkut di pukat emak sebab dibawa arus deras sungai. Emak cekap cabut ikan puyu lebih kurang sebesar setengah tapak tangan adik. Adik hulur tali dan emak cucuk ingsang ikan tembus ikut mulut.
Yeay! Ada satu ikan puyu. Adik tengok ada ikan lampam, ikan keli, ikan macam belut dan ikan haruan lekat pada pukat emak. Emak tanggalkan satu-satu, adik tak sabar rasanya nak makan ikan-ikan tu. Rasa macam nak gigit-gigit je ikan tu. Emak pandang muka adik yang tengah kecur liur.
"Ish..tak senonoh betul anak dara ni, kecur liur tengok ikan mentah. Sabor ye, nanti balik rumah mak masakkan." Emak perli adik tapi adik buat tak tahu je.
"Emak, ikan puyu ada sekor je." Adik cakap kat emak.
"Takpe lah, kita masak je lah yang ni. Nanti kalau kita dapat banyak, mak buatkan perkasam puyu untuk adik." Emak sangat memahami adik. Emak ajak adik balik sebab matahari dah condong sikit ke barat. Emak tengok langit dah gelap, kejap lagi mesti hujan.
"Tapi mak, adik nak makan ikan puyu perkasam goreng." Adik rasa teringin sangat nak makan puyu perkasam goreng yang mak buat.
"Adik, kan emak dah cakap, lain kali lah. Ikan puyu kan ada sekor je. Kita tengok esok lusa pulak macam mana." Suara emak sedikit tinggi. Adik masih tak puas hati tapi adik tak berani nak cakap apa-apa. Adik takut emak bahan adik lagi.
Sampai dirumah, emak bawa ikan masuk dalam rumah dan letak dalam sinki. Emak siang ikan elok-elok dan simpan dalam peti sejuk. Adik tengok ikan puyu yang seekor tu, adik jadi sayu. Kenapa emak tak mahu buat puyu perkasam untuk adik? Emak cuci tangan dan pergi mandi. Usai mandi, mak naik atas rumah dan solat Zohor. Adik cuma perhatikan emak. Adik nekad nak buat perkasam juga dengan ikan puyu yang seekor tu. Adik pernah tengok emak sapu garam pada ikan puyu yang sudah disiang dan emak simpan ikan puyu tu dalam bekas yang berbau sangat busuk. Adik buka peti sejuk perlahan-lahan takut emak dengar. Adik ambil ikan puyu yang emak dah siang dan adik bawak atas para dekat sinki. Adik pergi dekat dapur gas dan cari garam. Adik ingat emak letak garam dalam bekas kaca atas para dekat dengan dapur. Bekas garam agak tinggi, adik cuba jengket dan ambil bekas garam. Adik pandang pada ikan puyu atas para dekat sinki. Alamak! Comel tengah gigit ikan puyu tu. Adik cuba nak halau Comel tapi adik tak sedar yang tangan adik dah pegang bekas garam.
Bunyi kaca terhempas ke lantai dan Comel berlari keluar ikut tingkap dapur bawa ikan puyu. Bekas kaca pecah, ikan puyu Comel bawa lari. Matilah adik macam ni, mesti emak bahan adik. Adik pusing belakang dan nampak wajah garang emak. Kecut perut adik tapi emak dah sambar batang penyapu.
"Kan aku dah cakap, kalau dah banyak ikan puyu nanti, kita buatlah perkasam. Degil! Anak bertuah sungguh! Kecik-kecik takmo mampus, kalau aku tahu lah....aku cekik-cekik kau dari kecil lagi!" Emak hayun dan libas adik dengan batang penyapu.
"Takmo emak, adik janji tak buat lagi. Adik janji mak." Adik teresak-esak. Tapi emak terus pukul adik.
"Sakit mak, adik takmo dah makan ikan perkasam. Adik janji mak. Sakit mak. Sakit." Adik merayu pada emak tapi emak masih pukul adik. Kaki adik, belakang adik, tangan adik, semuanya emak balun dengan batang penyapu.
"Ohhh...baru tau sakit ye. Aku dah cakap berkali-kali, ada kau nak faham, hah? Ada? Kau ingat aku ni tunggul kayu kat rumah ni? Kalau kau nak, kau pergi turun sungai sendiri carik ikan puyu kau tu." Emak akhirnya berhenti libas adik. Habis calar balar kaki adik, belakang adik ada tiga empat birat. Adik masih teresak-esak.
"Adik takmo dah mak. Adik takmo dah mak. Adik tak buat dah mak." Adik merayu dengan emak. Sedu sedan masih kedengaran. Emak masih marah.
"Dah. Senyap. Sekarang pergi ambil penyodok sampah dan bersihkan bekas garam ni. Kau ingat garam ni murah? Bukan bapak kau tu nak bagi duit, si tua kutuk ni jugak lah yang mencari duit." Emak masih lagi marah. Kali ini, abah pula jadi mangsa. Adik tak faham tapi adik tak berani nak tanya. Takut kena bahan lagi dengan emak.
Usai berkemas, adik disuruh emak pergi membeli garam di kedai runcit Pak Jusoh, sebelum simpang masuk ke kampung. Adik berlari ke kedai Pak Jusoh sebab takut emak bahan adik lagi. Emak nak memasak sebelum abang balik dari sekolah. Lebih kurang 5 minit, adik sampai di rumah temengah-mengah. Adik bagi pada emak garam dengan duit baki beli garam. Emak masih lagi mengomel-ngomel pasal adik pecahkan bekas garam dan ikan puyu pagi tadi. Adik teringat kata emak waktu emak bahan adik tadi. Adik senyap-senyap menyusup keluar.
Adik dah sampai tepi sungai. Adik tengok hujan mula turun, adik tahu sekejap lagi mesti arus deras dan ikan-ikan mesti hanyut ke pukat emak. Adik hati-hati turun alur air hujan. Adik dah sampai jeti buluh, adik buka ikatan pukat emak. Adik tarik perlahan-lahan pukat emak. Adik tengok tiada ikan lagi. Mungkin sekejap lagi bila hujan lebat. Adik letak balik pukat dan ikat kembali hujung pukat di jeti buluh. Adik dengar bunyi macam ada benda besar jatuh. Adik pandang dan muka adik pucat.
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Emak panggil-panggil nama adik sebab emak nak suruh adik pergi mandi. Sepanjang pagi adik bersama emak, adik berpeluh sakan.
"Adik! Adik! Ish...mana lah pulak perginya budak ni. Adik! Adik!" Emak jerit panggil nama adik. Emak naik atas rumah. Emak masuk bilik emak dan jenguk bawah katil dan dalam almari. Adik tiada. Biasanya itulah tempat adik suka menyorok dan main pondok-pondok. Emak masuk jenguk dalam bilik abang. Adik tiada. Emak masuk dalam bilik air, pangkin luar rumah, bawah rumah, adik tiada jugak. Emak rasa tidak sedap hati. Emak capai payung dan pergi rumah Atin. Emak tanya kalau-kalau Atin nampak adik. Atin cakap tiada. Emak berlari ke kedai Pak Jusoh, pun adik tiada. Emak pergi rumah Su Timah, Mak Minah, Adik Awang dengan Pak Long Omar tapi semua pun kata tidak nampak adik. Emak makin rasa tidak sedap hati. Emak berlari ke sungai. Emak kaku bila sampai di alur air hujan. Emak terjelepok dan payung yang dipegang dah jatuh. Emak dah jumpa adik.
Adik tersangkut di pukat emak macam ikan puyu, ikan lampam, ikan keli dan ikan haruan. Emak teringat ikan puyu. Emak teringat bekas garam. Emak teringat batang penyapu. Emak teringat Comel. Emak teringat puyu perkasam. Dalam hujan lebat, emak meraung sekuatnya. ADIK!!!!
-Sekian-
Link asal: http://www.kapasitor.net/ms/cerpen/post/1841Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Socially Inept of Me
I'm a socially inept person. I couldn't bring myself to any woman and start a conversation unless under 2 conditions: 1) it's about work, 2) i'm deeply in shit and need helps very badly.
Which brings to a point that, I hardly socialize. I socialize with myself most of the time or with my close friends which most of them are male species. At times, I think I'm a wonderful person and able to charm my way into people heart at times but my insecurities stops me from using it.
I found I'm always in awe seeing how people easily sparking up conversation with opposite gender not to mention; a complete stranger. They just could talk and the opposite gender just respond. Sometimes I found myself too much analyzing things and saying incomprehensible things like how weather changes and global warming just mere statistic - a conspiracy theory; not the kind of topic you would discuss over walking to the office or in the elevator, right?
Then I would just smiling like an idiot and that's it. I couldn't conjure conversation out of thin air like most people do, I'm not comfortable with stranger and I'm definitely the guy who try to avoid meeting casual friends in crowded place so I don't have to say hi to them.
I found that distinct lack of conversation skills affect me in most ways on how I convey my feeling to others. I would just sit back and let things gone by even if I can make amend to it, I would keep it buried inside me and just keep it to myself until the end of time.
But if people ask me being honest, I would be almost complete honest if they're close to me. And most of them offended by what I have to say about them.
Hrmmm...I wonder what's wrong with me. Did I do alright? Did I thinking too much? Did I?
Which brings to a point that, I hardly socialize. I socialize with myself most of the time or with my close friends which most of them are male species. At times, I think I'm a wonderful person and able to charm my way into people heart at times but my insecurities stops me from using it.
I found I'm always in awe seeing how people easily sparking up conversation with opposite gender not to mention; a complete stranger. They just could talk and the opposite gender just respond. Sometimes I found myself too much analyzing things and saying incomprehensible things like how weather changes and global warming just mere statistic - a conspiracy theory; not the kind of topic you would discuss over walking to the office or in the elevator, right?
Then I would just smiling like an idiot and that's it. I couldn't conjure conversation out of thin air like most people do, I'm not comfortable with stranger and I'm definitely the guy who try to avoid meeting casual friends in crowded place so I don't have to say hi to them.
I found that distinct lack of conversation skills affect me in most ways on how I convey my feeling to others. I would just sit back and let things gone by even if I can make amend to it, I would keep it buried inside me and just keep it to myself until the end of time.
But if people ask me being honest, I would be almost complete honest if they're close to me. And most of them offended by what I have to say about them.
Hrmmm...I wonder what's wrong with me. Did I do alright? Did I thinking too much? Did I?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Freaky or Cute Hotel?
I'm off to Singapore on business trip. My 2 previous trips had been in disaster as I have so many things to do with very little time in hand; presentation package, not enough money, sickness etc. For this trip, things pretty much going well than 2 previous trips hence I have more relaxing time to snap pictures and getting around Singapore. My favorite place so far is Lucky Plaza. I planned to go to Mustaffa but too tired for another long trip to Mustaffa after having fun in Scotts Road. Went to ION Orchard, cool place with lots of branded stuff but for viewing only since too expensive for my pocket.
My hotel quite freaky but for some people, it's cute as hell.
My hotel quite freaky but for some people, it's cute as hell.
The green door. The white wardrobe.
The pink shelves with minibar.
The workstation.The HD TV.The green wall.
The bathroom.
The wall behind the bed.
The 2 beds.The phone (freaking Nortel!).Freaky ain't it? I found it's cozy to be in the room, the lighting definitely helps with tiredness all day long.
That's all, nothing much to tell as 40% occupied by works, 40% by sleep and another 10% by makan-makan. Just 10% for sight seeing.
That's all, nothing much to tell as 40% occupied by works, 40% by sleep and another 10% by makan-makan. Just 10% for sight seeing.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Aku ingatkan kau dah lama kerja!
Alkisah aku menghadiri mesyuarat di KL berkenaan satu sistem yang kompeni bakal digunapakai oleh seantero umat di bahagian Production Analyst. Disebabkan aku hadir waktu Ujian Penerimaan Pengguna di Kilang (UPPK) atau Factory Acceptance Testing dan orang lain tidak dapat hadir, terpaksa lah aku sorang-sorang menghadap Pengurus bahagian Operasi untuk diskusi pasal kerosakan sistem dan jugak strategi nak memaksa pembina sistem ni baiki tanpa sebarang kos.
Sampai je KLCC dah pukul 10 pagi tapi mengantuk tak hingat la, mana tak nya pukul 6 pagi aku dah bangun mandi, seterika baju dan bersiap2-siap nak pergi lapangan terbang Kerteh. Pukul 7 pagi bertolak, lebih kurang pukul 7.15 pagi sampai lapangan terbang dan terus check in. Kapal terbang berlepas pukul 8.00 pagi. Memang sangat letih sebab kena bangun awal, dah la aku ni dasar suka bangun lewat.
Sesampai je di KLCC, melantak untuk penuhkan perut. Lapar tu bukanlah satu halangan sangat cumanya aku tahu hari tu akan melalut dan sangat meletihkan maka amat afdal mengisi tembolok sebelum lalutan dan karutan bermula. Pukul 10.15 pagi masuk ke Menara 2, ambil lif angka genap dan fiiiyuuuuu....naik tingkat atas. Muka aku dah tak boleh nak senyum sebab mengantuk teramat. Orang tegur pun aku buat layan tak layan. Sampai tempat pengurus bahagian operasi tu, dia pulak tengah diskusi pasal perjalanan untuk satu lagi modul. Kali ni berkenaan UPPK untuk modul tu pulak. Sekali lagi meranduk pergi Singapura sebab pembina aplikasi ni dari Singapura. Duduk borak-borak dengan member lama, M. Duduk layan borak pasal macam-macam benda, almaklumlah hobi dah selari dengan si M ni. Pengurus tu panggil aku, maka kena la pergi tempat pengurus tu dan memulakan diskusi.
Diskusi pasal keadaan sistem dan modul tu, apa yang terjadi dan bagaimana kerosakkan semua ni boleh jadi. Cerita lah aku maka banyaklah istilah-istilah teknikal yang kebetulan dipelajari sewaktu proses menguji sistem tu aku belajar. Kalau setakat nak bercerita pasal teori secara ringkas, memang dah lepas sangat cuma kalau ditanya terlalu mendalam...mungkin kena tanya pada yang lebih pakar. Di celah-celah diskusi tu, ada la beberapa kali pengurus tu terganggu sikit pasal urusan perjalanan tu disebabkan oleh Pengurus Kanan bahagian operasi ni buat kecoh kenapa tak dapatkan tandatangan Pengarah untuk urusan ke luar negara ni.
Aku pun mencelah la bagitahu yang Singapura masih dikira sebagai penerbangan domestik maka tandatangan Pengurus Besar bahagian operasi sudah cukup.
"Ala Kak A, tanda tangan GM (General Manager) pun dah cukup. Singapore still consider as domestic flight. I used to work in Admin last time. But just for confirmation, perhaps you could check with BJ (staff aku dulu-dulu) on this."
Maka Kak A pun periksa la dengan BJ. Memang betul pun domestik maka tak perlu la buat memo semua tu. Selesai satu masalah.
Mr Z yang duduk sebelah aku ni pun tanya lah.
Mr Z:Kau ni semua benda kau tahu...sampai ticketing issue pun kau tahu. Kau dah berapa lama kerja?
Aku: Owh...aku dulu 2 tahun di KL, setahun di Kerteh. Jadi baru 3 tahun.
Mr Z: Seriosuly? Umur ko berapa? *Mr Z dah buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: 25 tahun ni. Join kompeni umur 22 tahun. *aku senyum*
Mr Z: Ish...ko biar benar. Aku ingatkan kau dah lama kerja! Mati-mati aku ingatkan kau dah 7 hingga 8 tahun dah kerja. *masih buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: Hehehe. takde la, bang (aku guna bang ni as sense of "bro")....aku tak kerja selama tu.
Mr Z: Then, camne ko tau macam-macam benda?
Aku: Part of the job, bang. Dah kena campak ke sana ke sini, aku turutkan je. Dah 2 kali tukar department, dari KL kena campak kat Kerteh. Macam-macam orang aku dah jumpa sebab dulu kerja kat Admin department. *aku sengih je*
Mr Z: So, kira hebatlah ko ni. Macam-macam tahu.
Aku: Tapi kepala pun dah naik beruban, asyik kerja je, hujung minggu pun di office....padahnya selalu la sakit-sakit, bang. Some price to pay. *aku cuma boleh sengih*
Hebat tu mungkin la hebat sebab tahu macam-macam tapi kalau dah hidup = kerja, maka hidup pun kurang bermakna.
Kesimpulan: Kerja rajin boleh tapi jangan sampai mudarat kesihatan. :)
Sampai je KLCC dah pukul 10 pagi tapi mengantuk tak hingat la, mana tak nya pukul 6 pagi aku dah bangun mandi, seterika baju dan bersiap2-siap nak pergi lapangan terbang Kerteh. Pukul 7 pagi bertolak, lebih kurang pukul 7.15 pagi sampai lapangan terbang dan terus check in. Kapal terbang berlepas pukul 8.00 pagi. Memang sangat letih sebab kena bangun awal, dah la aku ni dasar suka bangun lewat.
Sesampai je di KLCC, melantak untuk penuhkan perut. Lapar tu bukanlah satu halangan sangat cumanya aku tahu hari tu akan melalut dan sangat meletihkan maka amat afdal mengisi tembolok sebelum lalutan dan karutan bermula. Pukul 10.15 pagi masuk ke Menara 2, ambil lif angka genap dan fiiiyuuuuu....naik tingkat atas. Muka aku dah tak boleh nak senyum sebab mengantuk teramat. Orang tegur pun aku buat layan tak layan. Sampai tempat pengurus bahagian operasi tu, dia pulak tengah diskusi pasal perjalanan untuk satu lagi modul. Kali ni berkenaan UPPK untuk modul tu pulak. Sekali lagi meranduk pergi Singapura sebab pembina aplikasi ni dari Singapura. Duduk borak-borak dengan member lama, M. Duduk layan borak pasal macam-macam benda, almaklumlah hobi dah selari dengan si M ni. Pengurus tu panggil aku, maka kena la pergi tempat pengurus tu dan memulakan diskusi.
Diskusi pasal keadaan sistem dan modul tu, apa yang terjadi dan bagaimana kerosakkan semua ni boleh jadi. Cerita lah aku maka banyaklah istilah-istilah teknikal yang kebetulan dipelajari sewaktu proses menguji sistem tu aku belajar. Kalau setakat nak bercerita pasal teori secara ringkas, memang dah lepas sangat cuma kalau ditanya terlalu mendalam...mungkin kena tanya pada yang lebih pakar. Di celah-celah diskusi tu, ada la beberapa kali pengurus tu terganggu sikit pasal urusan perjalanan tu disebabkan oleh Pengurus Kanan bahagian operasi ni buat kecoh kenapa tak dapatkan tandatangan Pengarah untuk urusan ke luar negara ni.
Aku pun mencelah la bagitahu yang Singapura masih dikira sebagai penerbangan domestik maka tandatangan Pengurus Besar bahagian operasi sudah cukup.
"Ala Kak A, tanda tangan GM (General Manager) pun dah cukup. Singapore still consider as domestic flight. I used to work in Admin last time. But just for confirmation, perhaps you could check with BJ (staff aku dulu-dulu) on this."
Maka Kak A pun periksa la dengan BJ. Memang betul pun domestik maka tak perlu la buat memo semua tu. Selesai satu masalah.
Mr Z yang duduk sebelah aku ni pun tanya lah.
Mr Z:Kau ni semua benda kau tahu...sampai ticketing issue pun kau tahu. Kau dah berapa lama kerja?
Aku: Owh...aku dulu 2 tahun di KL, setahun di Kerteh. Jadi baru 3 tahun.
Mr Z: Seriosuly? Umur ko berapa? *Mr Z dah buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: 25 tahun ni. Join kompeni umur 22 tahun. *aku senyum*
Mr Z: Ish...ko biar benar. Aku ingatkan kau dah lama kerja! Mati-mati aku ingatkan kau dah 7 hingga 8 tahun dah kerja. *masih buat muka tak percaya*
Aku: Hehehe. takde la, bang (aku guna bang ni as sense of "bro")....aku tak kerja selama tu.
Mr Z: Then, camne ko tau macam-macam benda?
Aku: Part of the job, bang. Dah kena campak ke sana ke sini, aku turutkan je. Dah 2 kali tukar department, dari KL kena campak kat Kerteh. Macam-macam orang aku dah jumpa sebab dulu kerja kat Admin department. *aku sengih je*
Mr Z: So, kira hebatlah ko ni. Macam-macam tahu.
Aku: Tapi kepala pun dah naik beruban, asyik kerja je, hujung minggu pun di office....padahnya selalu la sakit-sakit, bang. Some price to pay. *aku cuma boleh sengih*
Hebat tu mungkin la hebat sebab tahu macam-macam tapi kalau dah hidup = kerja, maka hidup pun kurang bermakna.
Kesimpulan: Kerja rajin boleh tapi jangan sampai mudarat kesihatan. :)
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Don't Die
I'm one of blunt persona you would meet. By blunt means that sometimes I can be very straightforward bout things. SOMETIMES...not every time. Few days ago, a friend of mine want to drive back to KL and all i could say,
"Don't die eh."
He just laugh. My other friend just stunt. He mention that I should never said things like that. Cause it will have jinx.
"But we shouldn't believe in jinx."
After that, he said that words that I utter is doa. Then I reply....
"He definitely NOT die la then. I should said it another 39 times. ahahaha."
He quite speechless to explain to me except that he mentioned that our culture (by OUR, he refering to Malay directly and Asian generally) didn't approve such thing. Means that bad things like DIE and ACCIDENT should never be uttered by any person to any traveling people. It's should be part of greeting/farewell speech so to speak.
As this reminds me of Okuribito, a Japanese movie that I watched last time portraying death as taboo subject matter in Japanese community. Death in Japanese culture normally being handled by Burakumin; also called the Untouchable. It seems that Asian particularly have reservation towards taboo things such as death and sex which make it inappropriate to be spoken in public.
Clearly, I just don't get it. I just don't get it how could you said something like "Don't die" could be offensive. It's not like I'm calling name or cursing around, just mere "die" strung together in farewell speech. What's wrong with that? Did death taboo?
Yet, everybody dies. Funny eh?
"Don't die eh."
He just laugh. My other friend just stunt. He mention that I should never said things like that. Cause it will have jinx.
"But we shouldn't believe in jinx."
After that, he said that words that I utter is doa. Then I reply....
"He definitely NOT die la then. I should said it another 39 times. ahahaha."
He quite speechless to explain to me except that he mentioned that our culture (by OUR, he refering to Malay directly and Asian generally) didn't approve such thing. Means that bad things like DIE and ACCIDENT should never be uttered by any person to any traveling people. It's should be part of greeting/farewell speech so to speak.
As this reminds me of Okuribito, a Japanese movie that I watched last time portraying death as taboo subject matter in Japanese community. Death in Japanese culture normally being handled by Burakumin; also called the Untouchable. It seems that Asian particularly have reservation towards taboo things such as death and sex which make it inappropriate to be spoken in public.
Clearly, I just don't get it. I just don't get it how could you said something like "Don't die" could be offensive. It's not like I'm calling name or cursing around, just mere "die" strung together in farewell speech. What's wrong with that? Did death taboo?
Yet, everybody dies. Funny eh?
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Education to WWW
WWW; the world wide web. Education required hence I would love to share bits and parts of it from...ironically, from the Internet itself.
Get yourself watch/download/rob/steal copies of The True Story of Internet.
Sample:
You could torrent it at here. Have fun and be knowledgeable bout the WWW. I feel obliged to share it, no other reason. Enjoy~
Get yourself watch/download/rob/steal copies of The True Story of Internet.
Sample:
You could torrent it at here. Have fun and be knowledgeable bout the WWW. I feel obliged to share it, no other reason. Enjoy~
Why Rafa?
Gosh you people. I mean, Rafa is the best we could get. Yeah, at times he didn;t make good call but he done so much more than any other great manager in modern era could do given small amount of money he did have and very unsupportive owner like Liverpool have.
Fergie win his first Premier League title after 7 years in reign, for the duration of 23 years, he only get 3 CL final and winning only 2 while Benitez in his 5th year in reign manage to secure 2 CL final and winning one in Istanbul. Fergie win his first FA cup in his 4th year, Benitez did it in his 3rd year AFTER winning CL in Istanbul.
If that's couldn't convince you enough, let's put it this way. Before Benitez; Liverpool struggle to get CL berth. With Benitez; automatic qualifications every year and 3 years in row finish at least quarter final.
Fergie being called the greatest managers of modern English football yet given in the same duration of time, Benitez excel him in so many way. (The bloody Mancs love their managers too much probably smirking at this). If we're about to sack Benitez, what made are we? Bloody Chavski? Sacking managers like changing diapers.
I'm not saying that Benitez is the most perfect manager in the whole Europe, in the whole world. But given what Liverpool have, the owners behaviours and how compassionate LFC fan could be, only Benitez could deliver everything we want on the plate. We need to have more faith in him as he managing this team. FYI, last season was the highest point ever score by LFC to finish in second place which means....everyone getting better and we're also getting better each season.
Can't we be more patience and trust that he made the right call? Heck, Benitez not even comparable to Houllier as Benitez progressed WAY BETTER than the French and deliver better results.
Just piece of my mind, the rest is up to you to decide whether Benitez is good enough for Liverpool. If he's not, then who would be good enough for Liverpool?
I can't believe I wrote quite longer than I should but pretty much this is my respond to a status updates containing link to Liverpool News. Yeah...footie again, folks.
Fergie win his first Premier League title after 7 years in reign, for the duration of 23 years, he only get 3 CL final and winning only 2 while Benitez in his 5th year in reign manage to secure 2 CL final and winning one in Istanbul. Fergie win his first FA cup in his 4th year, Benitez did it in his 3rd year AFTER winning CL in Istanbul.
If that's couldn't convince you enough, let's put it this way. Before Benitez; Liverpool struggle to get CL berth. With Benitez; automatic qualifications every year and 3 years in row finish at least quarter final.
Fergie being called the greatest managers of modern English football yet given in the same duration of time, Benitez excel him in so many way. (The bloody Mancs love their managers too much probably smirking at this). If we're about to sack Benitez, what made are we? Bloody Chavski? Sacking managers like changing diapers.
I'm not saying that Benitez is the most perfect manager in the whole Europe, in the whole world. But given what Liverpool have, the owners behaviours and how compassionate LFC fan could be, only Benitez could deliver everything we want on the plate. We need to have more faith in him as he managing this team. FYI, last season was the highest point ever score by LFC to finish in second place which means....everyone getting better and we're also getting better each season.
Can't we be more patience and trust that he made the right call? Heck, Benitez not even comparable to Houllier as Benitez progressed WAY BETTER than the French and deliver better results.
Just piece of my mind, the rest is up to you to decide whether Benitez is good enough for Liverpool. If he's not, then who would be good enough for Liverpool?
I can't believe I wrote quite longer than I should but pretty much this is my respond to a status updates containing link to Liverpool News. Yeah...footie again, folks.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
This is what I signed up for
Certain someone definitely understand this. Cause I elaborate it during our chit chat session last time. Speaking of which, I was madly and sorely missed her right now. Ok..nuff with love talk.
During the busy season, I manage to slip few things and ensure that it getting done. I reformat my PC for a start after Win32/Sality.en attack my PC. One hell of annoying virus. Hence the buying of Kapersky Anti Virus. Done. PC well protected. Case closed.
Managed to shopping along the busy bee line. Managed to buy Up Series, up to 49 UP. Yes, I bought it. Why not download it? First, it's an old series (since 1960s) which made the early series very very hard to find and downloadable. Second, too much hassle to find it in Malaysia. Owh..i bought it online btw. Managed to watch till 21 UP and yet to finish the whole series.
And...
Special announcement to Said & Narulle, Osen for full season (episode 6 and above) available in hardsubbed. Subbed by [Nya] fansub. Go download it here: Osen Hardsubbed [Nya]. Untuk kesejahteraan proses memuatturun video berkenaan, adalah disarankan mengambil turun video beresolusi 640X360. Almaklumlah, internet pun suka main chipsmore lately ni. :)
During the busy season, I manage to slip few things and ensure that it getting done. I reformat my PC for a start after Win32/Sality.en attack my PC. One hell of annoying virus. Hence the buying of Kapersky Anti Virus. Done. PC well protected. Case closed.
Managed to shopping along the busy bee line. Managed to buy Up Series, up to 49 UP. Yes, I bought it. Why not download it? First, it's an old series (since 1960s) which made the early series very very hard to find and downloadable. Second, too much hassle to find it in Malaysia. Owh..i bought it online btw. Managed to watch till 21 UP and yet to finish the whole series.
And...Special announcement to Said & Narulle, Osen for full season (episode 6 and above) available in hardsubbed. Subbed by [Nya] fansub. Go download it here: Osen Hardsubbed [Nya]. Untuk kesejahteraan proses memuatturun video berkenaan, adalah disarankan mengambil turun video beresolusi 640X360. Almaklumlah, internet pun suka main chipsmore lately ni. :)
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Cause we think that we're similar
Why people argue with each other?
Cause we think that we're similar. We think that we similar hence we should understand each other. But when there are difference between us, we get irritated. Why? Cause we think that we're similar. *repeat loop*
You could see these everywhere. People think that just because you share common things i.e: destiny, destination and goal in life, you should use the same road to reach there. Always, there are thousands way to reach your destination and you could decide it on your own which one you should use.
With regards 1Malaysia, realization and solution to both destination because of people think that they're similar. 1Malaysia; you could argue that it just a political propaganda if you wish to but let take the destination as plain honesty to see one Malaysia to be a reality, lots of friction amongst different ethnics that will eventually collide with each other. Given current condition, 1Malaysia seems impossible. In order to lessen the friction amongst different ethnics, we shouldn't think that we're similar. So, should we look our difference? Nope, just because we're monotheist, it doesn't mean we have the right to claim polytheists to be blasphemous. We should find the similar ground that we could stand without ever forgetting our differences. We're similar but not copycat. We might share common values, destination and destiny but we use different path to reach it.
Malaysia and Indonesia also in the same plate. We're similar, almost a copycat but after all, we're 2 different persona. We're so similar, we couldn't exist without hurting each other. We share same root and we want to reach same destination but the path had differentiate us so much that we couldn't stand each other. I would like to think that it could be easily solved but what make things couldn't be solved because lots of emotion been thrown in by people around the issue which make it more complicated than ever to solve it. Emotion putting the issue in rather more difficult situation, more thread, mud, Molotov cocktail, crap, shit, chicken, fire, water, wind blend into the issue which building up the issue to be bigger than it should. If we could hold the emotion up, we could easily sorted it out.
I have nothing to say with regards the issue as I could see both parties are at fault no matter how you said it.
Cause we think that we're similar. We think that we similar hence we should understand each other. But when there are difference between us, we get irritated. Why? Cause we think that we're similar. *repeat loop*
You could see these everywhere. People think that just because you share common things i.e: destiny, destination and goal in life, you should use the same road to reach there. Always, there are thousands way to reach your destination and you could decide it on your own which one you should use.
With regards 1Malaysia, realization and solution to both destination because of people think that they're similar. 1Malaysia; you could argue that it just a political propaganda if you wish to but let take the destination as plain honesty to see one Malaysia to be a reality, lots of friction amongst different ethnics that will eventually collide with each other. Given current condition, 1Malaysia seems impossible. In order to lessen the friction amongst different ethnics, we shouldn't think that we're similar. So, should we look our difference? Nope, just because we're monotheist, it doesn't mean we have the right to claim polytheists to be blasphemous. We should find the similar ground that we could stand without ever forgetting our differences. We're similar but not copycat. We might share common values, destination and destiny but we use different path to reach it.
Malaysia and Indonesia also in the same plate. We're similar, almost a copycat but after all, we're 2 different persona. We're so similar, we couldn't exist without hurting each other. We share same root and we want to reach same destination but the path had differentiate us so much that we couldn't stand each other. I would like to think that it could be easily solved but what make things couldn't be solved because lots of emotion been thrown in by people around the issue which make it more complicated than ever to solve it. Emotion putting the issue in rather more difficult situation, more thread, mud, Molotov cocktail, crap, shit, chicken, fire, water, wind blend into the issue which building up the issue to be bigger than it should. If we could hold the emotion up, we could easily sorted it out.
I have nothing to say with regards the issue as I could see both parties are at fault no matter how you said it.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I Just Don't Understand Rafa
It had been a while. It had been a busy month, budget submission stuff piling up. Though, I will not miss any EPL game (hopefully).
Talking about yesterday game (versus Aston Villa), Rafa have to choose Lucas Leiva instead of Riera. I just don't get it. Lucas is far inconsistent compare to Riera and if Riera gone to the left flank, Rafa could just push Benayoun to support behind Gerrard. To actually subtitute Lucas with Voronin was utterly bullshit. Voronin is an average player and since he had been missing for loan spell outside Anfield, you need someone who have better chemistery with the team; Riera. Gerrard would be done with less midfield role if Benayoun and Kuyt and Mashcerano could cover the midfield area. Mascherano does play good game and heck, he much better than Lucas. I still don't get what's in Rafa's mind to put Lucas there.
I'm pretty dissapointed with Rafa's choice but I have faith in him as a manager. And to think of that it's still early of this season, maybe I should relax abit and let the Reds cruise through this season. It's still early to decide on things cause it's just third game of the season, the season still have 35 games to go. Yes, still long way to go.
Owh...i got something to add into my LFC collections.
Talking about yesterday game (versus Aston Villa), Rafa have to choose Lucas Leiva instead of Riera. I just don't get it. Lucas is far inconsistent compare to Riera and if Riera gone to the left flank, Rafa could just push Benayoun to support behind Gerrard. To actually subtitute Lucas with Voronin was utterly bullshit. Voronin is an average player and since he had been missing for loan spell outside Anfield, you need someone who have better chemistery with the team; Riera. Gerrard would be done with less midfield role if Benayoun and Kuyt and Mashcerano could cover the midfield area. Mascherano does play good game and heck, he much better than Lucas. I still don't get what's in Rafa's mind to put Lucas there.
I'm pretty dissapointed with Rafa's choice but I have faith in him as a manager. And to think of that it's still early of this season, maybe I should relax abit and let the Reds cruise through this season. It's still early to decide on things cause it's just third game of the season, the season still have 35 games to go. Yes, still long way to go.
Owh...i got something to add into my LFC collections.
The New LFC European Kit & 08/09 ReviewAnother updates, gone to Pontian to see her. Yes, she's mine. We went to some great adventure and I miss her sorely now. Love her, yes, love her. Pray for the happiness stay for longest ever.
Ciao~
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Serenity: For The Love of Peace
Have you ever look at someone face and feel serene?
It's almost like a blood rush to the head, distorting feeling but in pleasant manner. A rude awakening which inviting your inner feeling to dip in and you can't help to be peace with yourself.
And you think you feel something else. Something which make your eyes couldn't let go of watching that someone.
For a moment, you think you find love at first sight. You madly, deeply and crazily in love. You even convinced that that someone will be the one.
But, a disruption erupted (just like the one happened right now). You finally took your eyes of that someone. You flip over new pages of your life, you move one. Life goes on for what it takes, you gone through alot.
And when life couldn't be easy and throwing not only kitchen sink but the whole stove, cabinets and everything, you see that someone face again. Faster than a blink of eyes, your pain gone....a warm feeling seep through your vain. The rush, the distorted feeling came back! You're in heaven. You're at peace with yourself again. Now, even a big monster truck run over you, you'll feel nothing. You're genuinely euphoric!
You feel like holding it longer, but as experience and life thought you, the most beautiful thing is the most fragile thing. You weeping inside, like no other major crybaby ever did. Your selfishness struck a chord with your possessive instinct. NO, I DON'T WANT TO LET GO! PLEASE DON'T!
Then suddenly reality check-in your brain box. That someone face changed! That someone face no longer the face you used to feel serene. Was that delusion? Was I robbed of my sense?
You realize that you want to hold on longer to the feeling, not the face. You want to feel peace with yourself, to get excited over the love at first sight again (delusional...very delusional) and the euphoria!
Love....for once again showered your dry, forsaken heart wonderland! For that an instant of spark change you again. You want to believe that you could feel it again. I could change, I could be loved.
Have you feel like this lately?
It's almost like a blood rush to the head, distorting feeling but in pleasant manner. A rude awakening which inviting your inner feeling to dip in and you can't help to be peace with yourself.
And you think you feel something else. Something which make your eyes couldn't let go of watching that someone.
For a moment, you think you find love at first sight. You madly, deeply and crazily in love. You even convinced that that someone will be the one.
But, a disruption erupted (just like the one happened right now). You finally took your eyes of that someone. You flip over new pages of your life, you move one. Life goes on for what it takes, you gone through alot.
And when life couldn't be easy and throwing not only kitchen sink but the whole stove, cabinets and everything, you see that someone face again. Faster than a blink of eyes, your pain gone....a warm feeling seep through your vain. The rush, the distorted feeling came back! You're in heaven. You're at peace with yourself again. Now, even a big monster truck run over you, you'll feel nothing. You're genuinely euphoric!
You feel like holding it longer, but as experience and life thought you, the most beautiful thing is the most fragile thing. You weeping inside, like no other major crybaby ever did. Your selfishness struck a chord with your possessive instinct. NO, I DON'T WANT TO LET GO! PLEASE DON'T!
Then suddenly reality check-in your brain box. That someone face changed! That someone face no longer the face you used to feel serene. Was that delusion? Was I robbed of my sense?
You realize that you want to hold on longer to the feeling, not the face. You want to feel peace with yourself, to get excited over the love at first sight again (delusional...very delusional) and the euphoria!
Love....for once again showered your dry, forsaken heart wonderland! For that an instant of spark change you again. You want to believe that you could feel it again. I could change, I could be loved.
Have you feel like this lately?
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