I been looking through lots of material of depression and motivation in recent 5 years and now, I think I want to throw out one question that sometimes quite disturbing me. The question is: What is your source of life?
In simple word, who keep making you alive…. means the important person that will crying for your death, well, he/she must be some that very very very very important to you. I can say that he/she is more than any person in your world.
In my life, the source of my life is my family and to be specific; my mom and my sisters. Yeah, they are more than anything else in my whole world. Sometimes, I feel hopeless and feel like want to commit suicide (yeah…sometimes life just so unfair and cruel). But then, when I remember that the source of my life will be forever lost me and they’ll depress, I feel that why should I be so selfish about my life. And frankly speak, at that depression moment, I feel like I live my life for the source of my life…. not for myself. And I truly feel that on that moment, my life isn’t just about me and my thought…it’s about others who need me more than myself.
And I think the reason I manage to be strong and keep my head up is because I knew my life is not only for me, but also for the people around me, the people who love me. People in this world always keep searching their reason to exist in this world, and believe me…just look at people who always nagging you about study hard, who always punished you for the wrong thing you’re doing then you’ll realize THEY ARE the reason for you to exist in this world.
I keep looking for people who keep committing suicide because they’ve lost their love one a.k.a awek or balak, but then I saw a selfish person who never thought second time when they’re making decision. Ain’t they know that beside their love one, there are more people that love him/her than that stupid love one who left him/her??
In simple word, who keep making you alive…. means the important person that will crying for your death, well, he/she must be some that very very very very important to you. I can say that he/she is more than any person in your world.
In my life, the source of my life is my family and to be specific; my mom and my sisters. Yeah, they are more than anything else in my whole world. Sometimes, I feel hopeless and feel like want to commit suicide (yeah…sometimes life just so unfair and cruel). But then, when I remember that the source of my life will be forever lost me and they’ll depress, I feel that why should I be so selfish about my life. And frankly speak, at that depression moment, I feel like I live my life for the source of my life…. not for myself. And I truly feel that on that moment, my life isn’t just about me and my thought…it’s about others who need me more than myself.
And I think the reason I manage to be strong and keep my head up is because I knew my life is not only for me, but also for the people around me, the people who love me. People in this world always keep searching their reason to exist in this world, and believe me…just look at people who always nagging you about study hard, who always punished you for the wrong thing you’re doing then you’ll realize THEY ARE the reason for you to exist in this world.
I keep looking for people who keep committing suicide because they’ve lost their love one a.k.a awek or balak, but then I saw a selfish person who never thought second time when they’re making decision. Ain’t they know that beside their love one, there are more people that love him/her than that stupid love one who left him/her??
Yes, they are her/his mother, father, siblings, and friends. How stupid people who commit suicide just because of one person who already forget about them, for people who already move on with their life with their new partner. At last, the people who commit suicide just another moron who never realize who is their TRUE source of life. And yet, people keep forgetting about their TRUE source of life and keep wasting their life for someone who never deserved for their life or at least for their death. And yet, when the death is just 0.1 cm from their life, at that moment they’ll always realize that the stupid love one is nothing for them but then, death is really really close to their life, no turning back. How pity…
Realize what your source of life and always keep your head up. Life maybe sucks, unfair and cruel but that’s not life is all about. Life is a composition of good and bad thing; it’s depending on you to choose which one belongs to you then you’ll realize, life ain’t that bad.
Realize what your source of life and always keep your head up. Life maybe sucks, unfair and cruel but that’s not life is all about. Life is a composition of good and bad thing; it’s depending on you to choose which one belongs to you then you’ll realize, life ain’t that bad.
Ok…/me away from keyboard now!!
1 comment:
I am about this (index finger and thumb showing 1mm apart from each other) close to losing my temper with those who wants to commit suicide
I have been with those who tried it.. and in spite of feeling sympathy (to be expected, i have low empathy level pon), I am disgusted. Because it just a pathetic way to get attention and the other reason is simple. YOU ARE A MOSLEM.
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