Personal Ranting I

what if i'm studying harder

what if i'm really give my best

what if i'm not doing that stupid mistake

what if i'm much brave like today

IF is a taboo word that will kill all hope. IF makes you weak. make you regreting the past, until you forget bout the present, and will inviting more and more regret in future.

i wonder, if i do all the things in past perfectly (or just giving my best shot at it), will things going for better? will i'm going further more than i'm today? will i be able to actually change my perception on the world?

for every opportunity comes with a price tag. in economics term, they called it "opportunity cost". for everything you choose, there are always an (maybe more) opportunity that you let go. dealing with the reality after few failure and reassessing bout the choice you make will lead you to miserable life. but reality are harsh, no matter how profesional you're dealing with it, some part of you will always regret it. i have lots of regret, for the thing i have done, and for the things i didn't. sometimes, i just wish i could go back to the time where i really regretted it and i wish i could change my mind and action for good. but then it come across my mind, will the things that i change turned out well so that i will never ever regret it in future? i have some doubt. big major doubt.

then i realize that for the things had happened, i know there must a reason for it. even if i do not know or maybe never know the reason for it, i should be thankful for all i have. but i know that i shouldn't stop here. there are lots of thing waiting me in future. with proper planning and execution plan, margin for error can be reduced thus leads to minimum regret. how should i know things gonna be great in future? how should i know. it's just i can hope, plan, work and pray for the best.

how much regret do you have in you? you should let it go, things like that crippled your creative mind and positive aura. all the best!!