Does It?

Does it meaningless to ask forgiveness when it's too late?

Does honesty really matters? I mean REALLY MATTERS?

Does love ever exist? Or is it just lust?

Does telling lies is the only way to survive?

Does beauty really in the eyes of the beholder?

Does hatred is new age euphemism for MOTIVATION?

Does being adult is boring?

Does it?

Who Am I?

Adek make me do this. Again. Ahahhahaa.

The Rules :
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged, and to read your blog.

Fact #1: JDo Freak
He love JDo. Most people know it. He could watch the whole season in one go. Crazy? He has lots of time to kill.

Fact #2: Sensitive
He's a sensitive guy. He attentive to things but he care less to make people notice of this quality which is make him much more inpredictable. he was a crybaby and he still is.

Fact #3: Internet & PC
He love surfing internet. He love virtual world. He hardly survive without PC and internet.

Fact #4: He's a loner
he love to hang out with friends but most of the time, he just want to be alone. He love flirting but he hardly hold on. He also doesn't know whether he could fix his mind to one person and one person only at a time which make it difficult for him to be in a relationship.

Fact #5: Easily bored
he's a superficial human. he only love things when it's simple. the same goes to works, love, family and life. he love to simplify things which sometimes others don't like it. he hates details which make him restless. he love jumping around from a topic to another (you could sense this while talking to him). Hence, he hardly deeply in love ergo, he hardly hold on to anybody. he has friends but he always feel alone.

Fact #6: Blunt
he can be blunt. He can says the blunt truth without considering what others feels. he just want to be honest but it seems honesty wasn't a quality people looking for.

Fact #7: Inferiority Complex
he has inferiority complex. he has no confidence eventhough he might appear strong and cold. he crumble under his inferiority complex in front of the one he love which make him look weak and useless. he hate himself very much when he's weak. he appears cold and unfriendly so that people don't know that he's weak and wish not to know people whom might in love with him which make him weak again.

Fact #8: He's poetic
He's quite good at making people flatter. He's quite a flirt but hardly obvious (or at least that what he think of). He has the gift of making decent conversation yet he reluctantly manipulate that.

Choose the next 8?
Anyone who read this.

Words: Do I Really Mean It?

WORDS. People said that i'm quite "wordy". Even got the same comments from my english & BM teacher last time. When i could put things in simple words, i choose not. I choose those BIG WORDS which make the sentence complicated. Even so, i'm way far from being poetic, i'm being dramatic instead.

WORDS lead me to problems. Often, i had been receiving comments. WORDS are all i have. WORDS are characters without meaning. WORDS that i use to deceive others, being a total jerk. Some even question, did i really mean everything i said? Did i really mean everything i write?

Truth is, i also don't know whether i truly mean it. I bet few people reading this must be pissed off. As i wrote things or utter things, i truly mean it. It's unbelievable, isn't it?

But as time change, the feeling change. Even in smallest scale of things, i easily compensate to my feeling. That's my weakness.

It's hard to keep my interest as i always seeking for new excitement. I hardly settle down (read: my feeling). I love emotion roller coaster though i hate being shouted at. Sometimes i want to talk serious things, sometimes i just let the child in me mess the talk.

I'm not lying, just my feeling change. How could i stop that? I try to stay rational which make me stiff. It bored me to death. When i'm being rational, i will be cruel and annoyingly sarcastic.

I wonder why i write this. People who know me don't need my explanation, for those who don't know me won't listen to this.

Think that you know me? Heck, even i don't know myself.

Ibu & Anak

She is the youngest one in family which means she is also the most stubborn one. She have inferiority complex which she couldn't shake it off until now. She's improving but the damage had been done. She's not a bright student, not a good daughter also but she give her best attention to mom.

Mom didn't realize it, mom even said she couldn't handle her. Mom being mom is just cruel. She been said as a cause that contribute to mom high BP problem. She just swallow it, leading to more damage that mom could think of. She's not a bright student, she feel useless about herself and always comparing herself with other brother and sister. Mom figuratively kick her out by sending her to older sister home. Mom couldn't handle her, mom said it.

She was full of anger, blaming herself all the time. The pressure mounting on her as nobody really pay attention to her life. Nobody hope anything from her. She was a failure, an unwanted child. But the older sister took up the challenge. Cause they're sisters, the older sister couldn't let the youngest sister commit to more damage. She guide her, she love her, she talk to her as one human talk another human, she cry with her and she laugh with her. She putting the hope in her, she putting the manner in her, she putting the love in her.

The youngest sister is now a beautiful persona, a rebel with cause. She passionate about her family especially about mom. Mom love her, the thing she missed for long. She's a hot blood justice, she speaks up for herself and others.

She, once being tossed out come back to mom's good grace.

It's a hard, long nightmare which she wakes up and come back to her sense. She's the man!



p/s: tribute to youngest sister of mine. I love you so much! Keep your chin up.

Foolproof

Foolproof by definition:

goofproof: proof against human misuse or error; "foolproof this appliance"

not liable to failure; "a foolproof identification system"; "the unfailing sign of an amateur"; "an unfailing test"
wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

Foolproof as it appears is not tolerate to failure or in simpler manner, a none-failure or in the simplest form of words would be; PERFECT.

Perfection. I'm not going to talk about any computer system or procedure or regulation (well, when talking about foolproof, it's always about system) but about belief system.

There are no foolproof belief system as there are none of things in this world near to perfection. Friend of mine having internal fight with himself for stop himself from cross the boundary. She belongs to someone and he is single. They are friend and the assurance that the belief system of her is foolproof is total bullshit. I believe that she could be loyal but whether the loyalty could be really hold still if he keep on going, I'm very much doubt that.

i couldn't shake off the fact that he and she will ended up together. We talk about this and he pretty much don't like the idea of it. He believe in her belief system to be foolproof but things with emotion is hard to predict.

And possibilities of one small appreciative gesture, smile and talk would lead to total change in their life story are the most that i could help him to realize. he realize that but the dejavu of past experience haunt him. She really resembled the one he likes before. She is completely mirror image of his past. He couldn't shake her off of his mind but reality bites hard.

He's asking for consultation and i only provide the blunt truth. I won't hide as i know where this could bring him. It's not a hard decision to be cold to her but to eventually do that is hard. Who's in the right mind willing to let the best of things?

He in dilemma. Should he go on with fragile foolproof belief system of her by hoping nothing eventually happened or should he let her go by keeping his distance.

He knows the answer best. Break a leg, bro.