Personal Ranting II

what is love?

i take some iniciative to ask some friends who ever in it. hey dude/gal, what is love?

some say...
love is when you look into her eyes and your heart pounding like crazy but you know you're not gonna get heart attack because of it.

some say...
love is when you see her just coming by to your place or just crossing by your place and you feel the blood rushing to your heart and your face turn red.

some say...
love is when you feel the needs of having someone by your side. (owh..do i have that kind of needs?)


some say...
love is when you want someone to actually treat you as your family treat you but she's not from your family.

some say...
love is when you feel like missing someone so madly that even a tough guy will cry if he get caught up that feeling.

some say...
love is when you just changing yourself totally just because you want to see that sweet smile on her face.

some say...
love is when you do something outrages which never come to your mind that you're actually capable of doing it.

some say...
love is when you feel spending 1 or 2 or more K for your love one is like buying a ballpen from stationary shop.

some say...
love is when you can talk hours with her without getting bored and always hard to find the right moment to hang up cause you always want to hear her voice.

some say...
love is when you open up yourself to someone like you never did before and you feel secure telling her all your dirty secret.

some say...
love is when she broke your heart and you feel like killing her for that but you just can't do it.

some say...
love is when you're struggle and finally managed to say nice words/sayings to her and you know that kind of things is just not your style.

some say...
love is when she's in pain, you're also in pain.

some say...
love is when you forced yourself to stay up with her eventhough your body totally giving up on you.

some say...
love is over-protective mom and/or nagging girlfriend and/or bossy wife.

so, what's love for you?

Personal Ranting I

what if i'm studying harder

what if i'm really give my best

what if i'm not doing that stupid mistake

what if i'm much brave like today

IF is a taboo word that will kill all hope. IF makes you weak. make you regreting the past, until you forget bout the present, and will inviting more and more regret in future.

i wonder, if i do all the things in past perfectly (or just giving my best shot at it), will things going for better? will i'm going further more than i'm today? will i be able to actually change my perception on the world?

for every opportunity comes with a price tag. in economics term, they called it "opportunity cost". for everything you choose, there are always an (maybe more) opportunity that you let go. dealing with the reality after few failure and reassessing bout the choice you make will lead you to miserable life. but reality are harsh, no matter how profesional you're dealing with it, some part of you will always regret it. i have lots of regret, for the thing i have done, and for the things i didn't. sometimes, i just wish i could go back to the time where i really regretted it and i wish i could change my mind and action for good. but then it come across my mind, will the things that i change turned out well so that i will never ever regret it in future? i have some doubt. big major doubt.

then i realize that for the things had happened, i know there must a reason for it. even if i do not know or maybe never know the reason for it, i should be thankful for all i have. but i know that i shouldn't stop here. there are lots of thing waiting me in future. with proper planning and execution plan, margin for error can be reduced thus leads to minimum regret. how should i know things gonna be great in future? how should i know. it's just i can hope, plan, work and pray for the best.

how much regret do you have in you? you should let it go, things like that crippled your creative mind and positive aura. all the best!!

Life after Graduation IX

Notes: This entry quite lengthy.

Episode: Sunny Day

Lepas settle hal resign aku tu, aku pun balik la rumah. Since tak ada apa-apa nak dibuat, aku pun naik LRT dan teruskan berulang alik dari stesen Kelana Jaya ke stesen Terminal Putra. Ada lebih kurang 2 kali aku duduk sambil train ulang alik. Letih tapi sebab aku kebosanan, agak menyeronokkan jugak la. Weekend tu aku habiskan dengan pergi berjalan-jalan kat times square bersama member. Sempat jugak aku membeli sepasang kasut DC since kasut aku yang ada tu dah cam nak rabak dah. Teringat kasut DC aku yang hilang masa intern dulu, sayang gile aku kat kasut tu since sedap dipakai kasut tu dan tahan lasak.

Hari isnin pun tiba dan aku pun pergilah melaporkan diri untuk kerja baru kat Megan Avenue. Hari first tu agak blur jugak tapi aku pergi jumpa dengan Qim dulu before aku di schedule kan untuk training. Training untuk jadi certified reseller agent for TMNet. Pagi tu baru aku dapat kenal bunyi-bunyi bising yang aku dengar masa aku datang interview aritu. Rupanya derang ada semacam morning gathering setiap pagi untuk review performance dan buat team meeting. Yurp, it’s happened every morning. Memula tu derang gather secara rawak dan berlatih pitching (teknik bercakap dengan customer) sesama sendiri. Tiada had kalau nak pilih sesape pun untuk berlatih pitching, sometimes boleh jer mintak bos; mr chua and mr Kenny untuk role playing as customer. That’s one unique character of this organization whereby boss and worker have no gap at all. Boss macam kawan-kawan jer, yang VP pun sentiasa cool dan selalu jumpa worker dan Tanya khabar. Siap dia bagi SKYPE ID untuk sesape nak contact for any consultation either from sales side or management/leadership side. Totally unlike conventional organization. Memula tu aku agak culture shock la since mana pernah tengok benda macam tu jadi ut derang memang baik hati dan sentiasa friendly untuk menolong aku sesuaikan diri. Siap yang lama-lama tu datang perkenalkan diri kat aku dan siap Tanya macam-macam lagi. Weird but it’s work their way. Lepas jer sesi random tu, derang pun ada la bell ringing and gong bashes session. Bell ringer ada untuk mereka yang buat at least RM 100 sales yesterday dan gong basher untuk RM 200 above. Ada jugak superguy award yang dapat buat sales lebih RM 300 the day before. Jugak ada untuk new personnel yang baru join kalau derang dapat buat sales (without concerning the amount) jugak dapat jadi gong basher. Yang menariknya pasal aktiviti ni adalah derang akan duduk dalam semi bulatan mengelilingi area perhimpunan tu dan bell dan gong terletak kat tengah bilik tu. Lepas ringing the bell or bashes the gong, derang akan bertepuk tangan (audience) chanting the name of bell ringer or gong basher sambil the gong basher or the bell ringer akan walking around the semi bulatan sambil give 5 to audience. Interesting since memang kecoh gile la. Lepas jer sesi gong bashes and bell ringing, ada sesi pesanan dari owner (JAG, Keneve and Regal). Macam pemilik Keneve (Mr Kenny) always talk bout sales, PR Jag (Mr Neville) always talk about mindset and attitude while owner Regal (Mr Jovelle) always talk about self-motivation.

Setiap hari, ada jer antara mereka yang akan bercakap. Since kerja sampai sabtu so setiap owner ada 2 kali chance dalam seminggu untuk bercakap. Kadang-kadang ada promotion session lepas sesi pesanan dari owner tu. Promotion session ni untuk people yang move to COD 3 (Cycle of Development 3). Basically dalam kerjaya ni ada 6 COD yang perlu dilalui before you’re promoted to be an owner. The youngest owner in Malaysia is 22 years old and his office is in Penang. He joined COBRA group when he’s 20 years old only. 2 years is normal period for you to be promoted as an owner. Some people take less time, some people take up to 2 and half years. Macam Neville from Jag, dia hanya ambil masa 20 weeks untuk dipromotekan jadi owner tapi VP (Mr James) yang open first office in Malaysia (Jag Advertising) suruh Neville jadi PR for Jag office. Dia nyer salary around RM 40K per month but because they got weekly salary, it’s about RM10K per week. And this is not bullshit at all, I watch it myself. Tapi Neville sendiri pun start dari level kami jugak, level doing sales in field. Most of the time, korang akan buat sales around 1 year then another year korang akan move on to management side dah. Start from assistant owner, korang dah duduk kat office dan learn about management. Nice job kan? Cuma kena susah-susah la dulu, barulah dapat rasa senang.

Derang jugak ada standard pitching technique including 5 Impulse Factor yang wajib digunakan dalam pitching. Dengan 5 Impulse factor tu, korang akan dapat push customer. Also they have standard pitching steps yang akan digunakan sebagai guidelines untuk korang pitching. Basically, aku suka gile this job since menarik gile walaupun kadang-kadang bila tak dapat buat sales tu frust jugak la. Hari first kat sana digunakan untuk doing training. Aku sorang jer lelaki dalam group training tu dan aku sorang jer yang ada IT degree. Since belajar pasal TMNet (network and such), senang la aku nak pahamkan compare to others. Takder la susah sgt, just basic dalam subjek Data Comm dah lebih dari membantu aku untuk fahamkan service TMNet ni. Things like ADSL, SDSL, modem, router, wireless network, copper wire, upload and download speed dan macam-macam lagi la. Best Cuma otak agak keletihan sebab terlalu banyak benda yang nak kena hafal. Waktu training tu ada sorang Chinese from Curtain University ada join sekali. Others from local U jer tapi dia ni selalu Tanya aku pasal jargon yang digunakan sebab dia tak paham sangat. Kesian dia yang agak blur sebab degree dia dalam business admin. Yang budak-budak lain tu blur jugak tapi takmo Tanya so takder la aku nak rajin-rajin pergi tolong. Segan jugak la, takut orang cakap kita nak berlagak pulak. At the end of the day, ada la small test untuk tengok knowledge yang kami dapat absorb sepanjang training tu. Markah untuk pass is 80% which quite menekan la bagi orang yang blur. Lepas jer habis user training, aku pun jumpa dengan Qim kejap dan lepak-lepak sambil makan kat mamak depan menara AmBank. Lepas tu, aku pun balik rumah. Habis sudah my first day there.

Next – Episode Finale: Sweet Sweat.

To be continued…

Virgo Vs Gemini

I come across this things on Yahoo! Astrology. like interesting, hope someone will notice this. not just anyone, but someone.

Gemini & Virgo

When Gemini and Virgo come together in a love affair, it's crucial to the survival of the relationship that they take time to learn about one another's approach to life and love -- and remember that both partners' attitudes are worth understanding! Gemini is symbolized by the Twins; they can see both sides of a story, they tend to vacillate between two courses of action and sometimes they can seem as if they have a split personality! This relationship is greatly strengthened when steady Virgo provides one Twin with a steady emotional anchor while allowing the other Twin to flit about at will. Virgo may be a bit too serious and demanding for Gemini, especially if this occurs early in the relationship before Gemini has fully committed. If Virgo just gives it time, things will smooth out.

Virgo and Gemini's approaches to life are seemingly so different that mutual acceptance can be hard to come by -- especially since Virgo tends to be so critical and exacting. Gemini strains against Virgo's ultra-practical stance in the world, and Virgo tires quickly of Gemini's flighty ways. They do have much to teach one another, however. Virgo can help Gemini to be more involved in life and to see the depth of ideas rather than simply the surface. Gemini can help bring fun and excitement into Virgo's life.

Both Signs are ruled by the Planet Mercury (Communication). Gemini represents the masculine aspect of Mercury, Virgo the feminine (Mercury itself is androgynous). Virgo wants a dependable partner and therefore uses the penchant for clear communication toward forming the perfect relationship. Gemini is more intellectually focused than Virgo but does have a gift in relating to others.

Virgo is an Earth Sign and Gemini is an Air Sign. Virgo is practical, direct and precise. Virgo asks, "How will this help me achieve my goals in life?" while Gemini, who moves through life relying on their mind, doesn't waste time focusing on where they're headed, but rather simply goes where their mind leads. Virgo's fussy, critical nature and Gemini's aloof detachment and capriciousness can cause trouble for both partners. Virgo must understand that Gemini's flirtatious nature does not affect their feelings regarding the relationship, and Gemini must help to foster that understanding through words and deeds.

Virgo and Gemini are both Mutable Signs. Both are quite flexible; both are able to adapt to change at a moment's notice. Both can be somewhat wishy-washy, however, Gemini due to their incessant intellectual ruminations and Virgo due to their penchant for analysis rather than action.

What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Virgo relationship? The security they can give each other -- once Virgo allows Gemini to commit willingly to the relationship. As long as they communicate with each other and use their Mercury powers effectively, theirs will be a gratifying relationship.

Indie zephyr of The Cardigans

Anybody know The Cardigans? Try wikipedia "The Cardigans" and there you go. btw, this band is Swedish origin but there are very British in sound. Indie is a unique genre of music, some say it's weird, some say it's relaxing and experimental. I kinda get hooked up with The Cardigans. Curiosity kill cat, but it's enrich me.

The Cardigans most popular song in UK is: Lovefool. this song became so special and famous after William Shakespeare's Romeo & Juliet movie use it as soundtrack. But i very hooked up with "Carnival" and "Rise & Shine". Hope you enjoy the "Carnival" VC that i found at YouTube.Com. Lots of The Cardigans video there so, be there and go nuts.



P/s: the vocalist; Nina Persson is so cute. her dimples, blonde hair and blue eyes really redefine cuteness.

~ cannot resist to not link another video. "Rise & Shine" VC.



~ "Lovefool" VC. Nina really cute in this video.



ok..enjoy~~

Life after Graduation VIII

Episode: Runaway

Lepas jer balik dari interview tu, aku rasa sangat lega sebab aku dah dapat kerja baru. Yeah! Boleh la aku blah dari kerja aku sekarang ni. Sekarang ni nak episod lari dari rumah sewa ni plak. Mengenangkan perangai abang tu yang cam sial dan tak bertanggungjawab ditambah lagi dengan mungkir janji, memang betul-betul buat aku pissed off. Aku terus mengemas barang-barang aku untuk pindah. Masa dalam train waktu perjalanan balik, aku dah call member aku dan mintak tolong untuk carikan rumah untuk aku, kalau tak dapat rumah, bilik pun jadilah. Cukup sekadar untuk masa aku nak kerja ni. Puas dah dia carik tapi harga mahal sangat untuk deposit. Aku pun takder duit dah so aku cadang aku duduk rumah dengan derang jer la. Dia cakap tak kisah. Budak-budak rumah dia pun tak kisah. So, plan dah ok. Lepas jer siap kemas, aku pun call la abang Hairel tu untuk cakap yang aku nak blah dari rumah dia tu. Puas aku call tapi tak berangkat. Sial punya manusia. Lepas tu, aku cuba dan cuba lagi call tapi tetap tak dapat. Sampailah aku fade up, aku dah tak call dia dah. Aku punggah balik barang-barang aku dan bercadang nak tidur kat situ jer untuk malam tu. Lepas punggah sikit barang aku sekadar cukup untuk malam tu dan esok harinya, aku terus keluar bilik dan pergi makan. Since dah nak blah, aku makan la best-best sikit. Lagi plak duit byk lagi lebih since masa aku sakit tu aku tak lalu sangat nak makan. Last feast la kiranya sebab lepas tu, goodbye damansara.

Keesokannya, aku cuba lagi call abang tu tapi tetap tak dapat. Cilaka sungguh. Aku nak blah pun gile babi sangat halangannya. Sampai la lunch, tetap tak dapat jugak. aku pun kemaskan barang-barang aku yang mana ada dan lepas tu aku pergi lunch. Waktu pagi haritu, aku call office aku kat damansara tu dan cakap aku nak berhenti kerja, aku akan datang esoknya untuk resign. Lepas tu aku SMS kat Qim (my group leader) dan bagitahu kat dia yang aku nak masuk kerja ari isnin. Tak dapat masuk hari tu sebab tak settle bab pindah-pindah ni. Malam sebelum tu, aku dah telefon mak aku dan cakap yang aku dah dapat kerja. Bila dengar jer kerja aku ni, dia tak puas hati. Dia suruh aku stay kat damansara tu. Aku pun jawablah yang aku memang nak kerja kat Keneve tu dan apa-apa jer outcome dari perbuatan aku ni, aku yang akan tanggung risikonya. Aku redha dengan keputusan yang aku buat tu.

Mak aku pun lepaskan jer aku dengan keputusan aku. Itupun selepas puas bertengkar panjang lebar. Aku ada jugak berbincang dengan Qim bout this matter dan dia bagitahu aku yang dia nyer parent pun tak suka jugak memula tu dengan keputusan yang dia buat untuk join Keneve sebab tak padan dengan degree yang dia ada. Tapi since dia fikir output or the end goal yang amat lumayan; memiliki syarikat sendiri untuk diuruskan, benda tu dah jadi faktor pendorong Qim untuk ignore parent dia nyer objection. Lepas jer siap kemas-kemas tu, aku hantar SMS kat abang Hairel tu. Akhirnya dia reply jugak since aku cakap aku nak blah dari rumah tu. Dia suruh aku tinggalkan kunci rumah kat dalam rumah.

Lepas call teksi, aku pun bawak turun barang-barang aku kat tingkat bawah. Sebaik saja aku siap buat turun, teksi pun datang dan aku terus load barang aku dalam teksi dan terus blah pergi rumah member aku. Now, aku tinggal secara tetap kat rumah tu. Since office aku kat Megan Avenue II, aku pergi kerja naik LRT jer. Sepanjang perjalanan tu layan berborak dengan abang teksi tu jer. Best jugak layan borak dengan abang teksi tu since dia pandai wat lawak. Gelak jer sepanjang perjalanan tu. Sesampai jer kat rumah member aku tu, terus unload barang dan derang (bebudak rumah tu) tolong aku angkatkan barang-barang aku. Lepas tu, aku terus kemas sikit-sikit cukup sekadar untuk aku pakai jer sebelum tidur. Aku dah tak fikir pasal makan dah since aku letih dan ngantuk gile masa tu.

Esoknya around pukul 9 pagi, aku bertolak dari rumah menuju ke damansara untuk resign. Aku dah janji nak resign and aku dah call Vincent untuk set appointment pasal my resignation. Around 11, aku pun sampai la kat office lama aku tu dan terus masuk. Tanpa tegur orang lain, aku terus jumpa Vincent dan settlekan pasal resignation aku. Aku taip surat resign kat situ jugak menggunakan template yang Vincent dah ada dan turunkan signature pada surat tu. Lepas daripada tu, aku dan Vincent menuju ke Draker’s Room untuk buat exit interview. Vincent ada Tanya aku kenapa aku nak berhenti. Aku cakap lah yang masalah aku tu masalah personal (rumah yang sunyi dan menakutkan) dan jugak aku rasa aku tak sesuai kerja kat situ. Aku cakaplah yang aku dapat kat sebuah IT company and doing IT work walaupun sebenarnya aku kerja kat marketing company jugak sebenarnya. Pasal gaji, aku rahsiakan dari Vincent sebab aku cakap benda tu adalah personal bagi aku. Tetiba Vincent Tanya aku pasal bayaran gaji untuk bulan tu. Dia cakap aku kena bayar full month nyer gaji sebab aku nak berhenti serta merta. Tapi since aku kerja tak sampai sebulan pun, aku dilepaskan tanpa perlu bayar dan in return, derang pun tak bayar jugak gaji aku selama 2 hari tu.

Lepas tu, aku pun blah la dari situ. Kat tingkat bawah, aku jumpa dengan Zul, budak technician yang kerja kat ATCEN. Dia cakap yang aku bukan first time orang yang blah dari company tu. Dah ramai yang macam tu dan ada yang menghilang tanpa berita pun. Aku rasa lebih lega, at least aku dah blah dengan cara terhormat. Lepas borak kejap pasal kerja baru aku dengan Zul, aku pun balik la semula ke rumah. Sebelum balik, aku makan cendol dengan rojak sotong kat taman bahagia. Sedap woo rojak dia. Cendol dia memang sedap especially waktu meremang panas tengah hari tu.

Next: Sunny Day.

To be continued….

Mind Trick

There are thousand ways to reach one solution. the ultimate solution in life or in simpler situation, how your solve some mathemathical problem or just how your calculate your budget. after all, it's your priority but last thursday, i found out how interesting (not found out to be exact, but realize is much better term) our mind works (or in this case, it's my mind).

the case is when i'm buying 4 pieces of bread at rotiboy which price at RM 1.50, Rm 1.50, RM 1.50 and RM 1.80. ok, here the way i found out how my mind do the calculation for the total price.

First attempt:

(RM 1.50 x 4) + RM 0.30
= RM 6.00 + RM 0.30

Extracting RM 1.50 from RM 1.80 make the calculation much easier thus make RM 1.50 x 4 = RM 6.00 + RM 0.30 then.

at second thought, i found out that i'm not used to adding all up the numbers by lump sum. i tend to do it my way. by refering my way, i prefer to divide or substract one number so that i can reach one focal point in my calculation. for example:

8 + 4 in my mind is easier to calculated by (8 + 2) + 2 so that i can reach focal point of 10 so the calculation for the rest is much easier. i know it's sound so much work but that' s how i use to deduce my math problem.

on deeper thought, i found out that there are several way in reaching the same solution.

second attempt:

RM 1.50 + RM 1.50 + RM 1.50 + RM 1.80
= RM 6.30

this is the usual way, the way they teach us at school. seriously for me, this way not working out so well with me cause i hate to see large number. i love to chunk it to small pieces so my mind can do the workout well. so that i can utilize my multiplying skill at addition operation. or maybe substraction operation. i love multiplying operation so much. i also love to see number is just from 0 to 10 only... cause that's what number really are. they are just 0 - 9, the ultimate number so to concluded is 10.

third attempt:

(RM 1.50 + RM 1.50 + RM 1.50) + RM 1.80
= RM 4.50 + RM 1.80

this is quite interesting way by our brain adding the number by grouping it according to one similarity.

fourth attempt:

(RM 1.50 + RM 1.50) + (RM 1.50 + RM 1.80)
= RM 3.00 + RM 3.30

this pattern usually happen when the item separated by person. deducing is based on differentiation that our mind made earlier in the process. this pattern make the balance of money given much easier to calculate. but some people use this pattern to deduce their problem by nature. it's divide-n-conquer rules.

After 4th attempt, i realize that how different people think in coming out with solution. complexity of the problem may/may not change our way to deduce it. for me, the variable of the problem change the way i deduce it. adding one more variable, things getting much interesting and minor/major change can be expected.

now, math sound interesting right? i teach my nieces my way to deduce math problem and life is much better for them. lucky them since i working my ass to come out with my way and they doesn't need to get through the hardship to think it on their own.

TELL ME BOUT YOUR WAY TO DEDUCE THE PROBLEM. :)

TAG RULES!!

trying this new tagging thing. just bored and my brain quite stuck today. everything seems to fall apart. damn it. raja said this tagging thingy helps with your brain in funny way. so, this is me, giving this thing a try. pray for my luck!~

5 things i would do if i were a millionare:
- buy some asset. i want to invest in star select scheme (refer to CIMB Bank, BCB or Southern Bank near you.)
- get a nyce house. big modern yet traditional brick-wooden house.
- put another investment scheme. real estate is first priority.
- raya time. big festive celebration.
- subscribing to broadband service, not TM for sure.

5 bad habits:
- 'acting'. love to hide my true self. i'm afraid of people.
- cheating. nearly an expert.
- laziness. oh god, this habit throw my future to drain.
- stubborn. people who know me KNOW me.
- helping people. (then i'm the one in trouble. most of the time due to my nature of easily fall for someone closed to me.)

5 things i hate doing:
- waking up in the morning and get ready to work.
- leaving the one i love. (but not too long. just hate the feeling.)
- get into fight
- helping her and fall for her at last and she not even like me. (cause there are no positive outcome from it)
- telling the truth. (it's hurt. aching like hell)

5 things i'll never do: (i hope i never do it)
- being a gay (NO NO. even i love to act pervert, i'm not a GAY)
- stop shopping. i just love shopping.
- stop thinking bout my future. (being an adult is so damn boring)
- quit making jokes. (NO WAY MAN. it's my nature)
- having some baik-tawadduk-warak-ustazah to be my wife. kill me instead. i just need normal gal.

5 things i regret doing:
- being an adult. i do regret it eventhough i just cannot stop it.
- not pushing the envelope in relationship. neglected to push harder.
- pushy. i hate this but i need confirmation. bad quality.
- not having proper plan for future. it's not too late to plan it, but absolutely have some regret.
- wasting my heart for somebody not loving me. stupid, regret it but still doing it. stubborn to max.

5 favorite toys or things:
- my beloved 'girlfriend' a.k.a my PC
- my iPod mini
- my dvd collection
- my cd collection
- the greatest thing on earth; THE internet.

5 people i choose to do this:
- people who KNOW me
- people who want to KNOW me
- people who *cough* love me
- blogging people
- special-relationship people

oh GOD, it's hard to fill this thing up. but it's fun anyway. btw raja, i'm an introvert. yours truly. :)

Life After Graduation VII

Episode: Second Chance

6 Julai 2006

Pada pagi 6/7 tu, aku dah buat aturan rancangan untuk hari tu. First and foremost, kena pergi kat KLCC untuk lapor diri dan kemudian pergi kat Megan Avenue lepas lunch untuk interview dengan Keneve. Aku bertolak agak lewat dari rumah disebabkan tidur yang tak berapa nak lena disertai dengan kesakitan yang ditanggung. Around 10, aku bertolak dari rumah dan terus menuju ke KLCC. Sampai jer kat KLCC, aku pun terus pergi kat ESU untuk lapor diri. Lepas siap lapor diri, aku pun SMS member aku untuk pergi lunch. Lapar gile sebab tak makan apa-apa lagi sejak pagi tadi. Masa tu aku pergi makan lunch kat Bangunan Lembaga Getah Malaysia. Walaupun makanan dia boleh dikirakan sebagai ok tapi aku tak lalu sangat nak makan since aku cuak untuk interview yang akan berlangsung tak berapa lama lagi lepas tu. Lepas lunch, bergerak la aku menuju ke Megan Avenue II yang terletak kat Jalan Yap Kwan Seng. Lepas aku call orang Keneve, bangunan pejabat Keneve kat bangunan B. terus aku menuju kat tempat interview dengan penuh rasa cuaknya. Sampai je kat sana, ada sorang minah Chinese bernama Ginger menyambut kedatangan aku. Lawa siot minah tu. Dah la tinggi, muka dia pun tak nampak cam muka Chinese, cam Chindian (Chinese + Indian). Aku pun masuk la interview, masuk secara group. Ada la 4 orang dalam group tu termasuk aku. Ada sorang mamat tu graphic designer dari karangkraf, dia dah retired 2 tahun lepas dan selama tu jugak la dia buat freelance. Sorang lagi Chinese, perempuan yang amik economics masa dia study kat UKM. Minah ni agak pasif sikit, kurang reaktif. Sorang lagi minah melayu, budak UIA. Dia ni agak talkative tapi English dia kureng sikit. And there goes me.

Dalam interview tu, Ginger bagitau pasal peluang kerja kat Keneve. Dia cakap yang kat Megan Avenue tu sebenarnya kongsi 3 office untuk Cobra Group kat KL iaitu JAG Advertising, Keneve and Regal. JAG Advertising adalah office yang bagi pulangan terbesar kepada COBRA group as the most profitable company in COBRA group. Keneve tu masih baru tapi still ganas jugak sebab ada dalam top 30 most profitable company in COBRA group. Lepas jer introduction pasal COBRA group dan 3 office kat KL tu, aku kena memperkenalkan diri. Ditanya jugak pasal peluang kerja dalam bidang IT yang semakin berkurang dan aku akuinya sahaja. Cure for that disease is to open up your mind to other fields, may or may not related to IT work like marketing, planning, administration, customer services dan macam-macam lagi. Kena opened up yourself untuk menerima perubahan yang berlaku dalam pasaran kerja sekarang. Begitulah adanya aku menjawab. Lepas tu, Ginger suruh aku pilih masa untuk second and third interview yang akan diadakan pada minggu depan. Aku pun pilihlah hari rabu. Lepas jer aku pilih, dia pun terus cakap yang semakin lambat aku pilih hari, semakin susah aku nak menghadapi cabaran dari orang lain. Well, lambat laun pun ko akan jumpa dengan orang yang mencabar tu, either way I did myself a great favour by get through it first. Aku tak berganjak dari keputusan aku. Lepas jer sesi interview tu, aku pun kembali ke rumah dengan menaiki train. Aku just kena tunggu call dari derang je.

12 Julai 2006

Aku bangun pagi-pagi dan call orang office aku nak cakap aku nak cuti. Cuti sebab sakit tekak, tak mampu nak bercakap langsung, hilang suara. Aku dijadualkan interview pukul 9 pagi. Damn it, mana sempat camni. Pukul 6.30 lagi aku dah bangun, pilih baju dan gosok. Lap kasut yang berhabuk dan lepas tu mandi. Lepas mandi, bersiap-siap dan terus keluar rumah. Perut lapar tapi takder mood langsung nak makan. Dalam train tu orang office Keneve call aku. Aku cakap aku dalam train so sekejap lagi aku sampai la. Around 9.15, aku sampai kat office Keneve. Terus jer masuk dalam bilik latihan dan Ginger dah pesan yang aku kena tumpukan sepenuh perhatian pada haritu. 200% attention (like it’s possible je) must be given. Memula tu ada video pasal some company owner and VP of the company on how they develop their business with COBRA group. All of them are from Europe and Australia. Business COBRA group ni basically pasal marketing intermediaries to promote client’s product. The division they have are: credit (banking), sport, charity (WWF, MAKNA), telco (telecommunication) and food. Kat Malaysia Cuma ada telco (TMNet (B2B) and Digi Business Sim Card), charity (MAKNA, WWF, National Kidney Foundation) and credit division. Currently derang nak promotekan AMBANK sebab AMBANK ada plan nak acquire market share of banking from Maybank. Maybank ni agak dominan dalam banking industry kat Malaysia. Lepas tu, video tu ada citer pasal company’s structure, how their business work and perkara lain-lain yang berkaitan dengan company. Sekarang company ni ada almost 12 VP and all of them are multi millionare. Lepas je video briefing tu, kami ditanya soklan pasal video tadi. Aku pun cubalah menonjolkan diri dan berjaya la menarik perhatian Ginger.

Lepas tu, kami diberi satu group dan dibawa keluar untuk tengok macam mana derang wat sales. Nama ketua aku ialah Mustaqim tapi orang panggil dia Qim je. Dia ni memang talkative dan best gile. Dia cerita la kat aku pasal law of average, for every 5 rejection you get, you get closer with 1 acceptance from customer. You got out there with REJECTION mind set. Bersedia menerima rejection dari customer. How bold kalau prinsip macam tu dibawak dalam hidup especially dalam love life. Kan kan? Lepas tu Qim cerita la pasal commission paid. Kerja ni based solely on commission, takder basic salary. So quite risky especially untuk mereka yang baru nak belajar. But in this company, the chance untuk ko improved to get sales is one week if you push yourself hard enough. This work is thrill and nice to do. You work and earn your own money and plus, the money paid weekly. By Monday, you should check your account to see if your sales last week already be installed (in TMNet case). Lepas tu, aku pun balik semua ke office. Puas berborak dan mendapat inspirasi dari Qim. He’s such a great guy, not to mention he’s funny. Lepas jer balik, aku ada third interview with Mr Chua untuk ensure aku nak ke tak kerja ni. Lepas few minutes borak, aku cakap aku nak kerja ni dan Mr Chua terus luluskan aku untuk masuk kerja dan aku cakap aku boleh masuk esoknya. Lepas tu aku balik rumah.

Next: Runaway.

To be continued…

Life After Graduation VI

Episode: One Big Blurry Hit

Hari first tu agak blur especially aku masih baru dan derang terlalu friendly. Since dah agak lama tak converse in English, seriously English aku rotten. Terkial-kial aku nak menjawab bila derang Tanya. Practice make perfect, believe in that. Hari first tu aku banyak habiskan masa dengan membaca pasal company dan philosophy company tu. Then aku diassignkan email oleh Vincent dengan menggunakan domain ATCEN. Sebaik sahaja aku open email aku, ada lebih kurang 5-6 email dah masuk. Semuanya greeting dari orang ATCEN and Outloud. Aku reply kat semua orang jer sambil update address book aku. Then, aku guna internet untuk check aku punya email yang dah lama tak aku check dan jugak blog dan forum. Lepas tu, aku meneruskan pembacaan dan before lunch aku telah diberikan contract oleh Vincent untuk ditandatangani. Lama jugak la membaca since surf tenet dan jugak baca profile company. Lunch jer aku pun diajak oleh Jeremy untuk gi makan. Cuak jugak nak makan kat situ since kedai mahal-mahal jer nampaknya. Rupanya ada kedai kat area dalam tu, kedai cam gerai tepi jalan. Affordable la untuk orang miskin macam aku ni. Sambil makan tu, sambil la berborak. Dari situ la aku tahu umur dia baru 23. Then Maverick and Vincent join kami makan. Sampai ke petang, semuanya masih ok. Lega jugak sebab everything masih dalam keadaan baik dan teratur. Respond orang kat sana pun not bad, takder la hostile dan menakutkan. Malam tu kami pergi makan kat restoran masakan thai dekat kota damansara. Rupa-rupanya tradition kat ATCEN memestikan orang yang dapat first gaji belanja makan. The lucky person is Wen Shen. Tapi itu dah gaji ke-3 or ke-4 dia dah since dia ada problem dan nak guna duit before this. So, sambil makan tu, sambil la borak. Sempat jugak aku borak dengan Samantha masa dalam perjalanan since aku naik kereta dia. Best jugak la borak dengan dia. Woman with witty wisdom; that’s really define her. Lepas makan malam tu, wen shen hantar aku balik rumah since rumah aku on the way ke rumah dia.

On my second day, aku diberi database number phone customer untuk beberapa industri dan aku mula membuat latihan menelefon kepada customer. Memula aku train dulu dengan Sam dan cuba menghafal produk-produk yang ada. Disamping tu, cara nak pujuk customer supaya setuju untuk menyertai produk yang ditawarkan juga terpaksa la aku hafal. Also need to cope with my rotten English. Damn it, memang terkial-kial la nak menghafal. Aku teruskan penghafalan sambil mendengar cara Sam handle customer kat phone. She’s cool man!! For a first timer, sometimes telesales is a hard one especially for a freak out like me. Serious aku freak out borak kat phone. Nervous to the max. memang dari dulu, that’s my worst point. Pasal tu jugak la aku jarang benar nak telefon orang especially orang yang baru aku kenal. Cuak to the max, ketaq gegaq. Tetiba teringat densha otoko, walaupun takder la seteruk dia ketaq aku tapi ada la kecuakan sebegitu jugak. suara aku akan bergetar while aku cakap dengan laju dan lintang pukang. LAME!~ yeah, I knew it but I push myself more than I can to cope with that. Second day is basically my hell day. Aku dipush dari dalam diri aku sendiri dan jugak Sam mengpush aku supaya cepat menjadi perfect. Adehlah…aku dah la gelabah cakap kat phone, ditambah English yang rotten, product lagi, trick untuk capture user lagi, memang mati jugak la aku dibuatnya. Berkali-kali kena tegur. Aku cuba seboleh mungkin takmo ada pause atau mmmm waktu tgh call tp I can’t. semakin Sam push aku, semakin aku tawar hati. Aku tak kisah nak kena tegur tapi it’s like she asking me to be perfect on that fucking day jugak. mati la wei. Aku teruskan jugak, against all odd tapi semakin aku push diri aku, semakin blur. Shit!~. aku rasa nak jerit je kat Sam yang aku tengah giving my best and pushing my limit but that’s gonna freak her out. And embarrassing me to the max. last-last, aku fade up. Serba tak kena aku dibuatnya. Ditegur dan disuruh buat cara lain, bila aku buat, ditegur pulak suruh buat cara lain. Aku dah buat exactly macam yang disuruh Sam tapi entah apa la balanya, semua pun tak kena. Aku memang tekad esoknya aku nak ambik cuti.

Puas aku pikir sepanjang petang tu dan aku dah call mak aku sebab aku dah tak tahan dah kerja kat situ. Mungkin la apa yang aku ceritakan ni nampak leceh dan simple jer tapi aku yang mengalaminya tetap tak sama rasanya. Sungguh hell hari tu. Aku cakap kat mak aku yang aku nak berhenti kerja situ dan carik kerja lain. Aku akan usahakan sendiri. Since aku ada sedara mara dari sebelah abang ipar aku kat kajang, mak aku suruh aku carik kerja dengan sedara mara tu jer. Company dia pun memang nak carik orang untuk kerja IT. Aku pun cuba nasib dan call mamat tu. Dia cakap dia boleh usahakan untuk carikan kerja untuk aku. Syukur jugak aku dengar. Petang tu lepas aku call mak aku, aku dapat call dari Keneve untuk pergi interview keesokkan harinya. Inilah peluang keemasan aku untuk cuti dan blah dari ATCEN. Actually aku datang awal kat KL sebab aku ada interview kat Keneve pada hari Khamis (6/7). Jugak untuk lapor diri kat PETRONAS. Perkara interview kat Keneve ni nanti aku ceritakan dalam entry berikutnya.

Next: Second Chance.

To be continued….

Life after Graduation V

Episode: Metamorphosis

Lepas jer habis weekend yang panjang dan menyakitkan tu, aku pun start la kerja pada hari isnin next week tu. Demam aku dah pulih Cuma sakit tu dah berkurang dan membolehkan aku bekerja dengan mood yang ok pada first day aku. Aku sampai kat ATCEN around pukul 8.30. terus masuk kerja dan jumpa dengan mr Vincent, the HR personnel for that company. Mr Vincent pun perkenalkanlah aku pada rakan sekerja yang lain dan jugak memberikan aku satu meja untuk aku duduk. Diberikan jugak sebijik PC dengan internet access, sedikit stationary dan jugak few documents untuk aku baca. Company tu kecik jer, ada few people jer yang kerja tapi orangnya semua ramah tamah dan baik baik. Berkenalanlah dengan bos, mr ernie chen. Incase korang nak kenal sape mr ernie chen ni, korang ingat tak sitcom kopitiam. Ada sorang Chinese yang agak gempal dan pakai kacamata dengan rambut cacak. Itulah bos aku. Dia tu Confidence Guru. Kiranya pakar lah dalam bidang motivasi dan membaiki keyakinan diri. Lepas tu kenal dengan team ATCEN dan jugak team OutLoud Studious. Team ATCEN ni ada 2 bahagian which is ATCEN and ATCEN Communication. Orangnya sama jer tapi derang divide task ikut giliran (itu apa yang aku paham la). Kiranya derang handle portfolio yang berbeza dalam satu team ATCEN tu. Sementara tu, OutLoud Studious pulak pegang portfolio yang totally different dari ATCEN so pasal tu derang distinguish antara ATCEN dan OutLoud Studios. Even though antara ATCEN and ATCEN Comm berbeza portfolio tapi portfolio derang masih dalam field yang sama. Pasal tu ATCEN and ATCEN Comm team selalu switch people untuk handle portfolio derang. But once you’re an OutLoud’s team, you’re entitled for OutLoud’s email domain.

Masa aku kat sana selama 2 hari, aku telah diassignkan kepada OutLoud team. My superior adalah Samantha Siew, one great lady. Dia tu tipikal young Chinese yang biasa aku tengok; friendly and talkative. She has great figure Cuma kurus sangat. Muka pulak tipikal Chinese jer. Lepas tu, berkenalan dengan Karen; head of marketing for ATCEN group. Dia tu agak skinny jugak tapi muka dia lawa dan figure dia nice. And then mr Vincent, HR personnel. Good guy and selalu tolong aku even masa aku nak quit tu pun dia tolong aku buat resignation letter. Lepas tu Mr Jeremy Thong, umur baru 23 tapi this Chinese guy macam pernah aku tengok atau kenal dulu. Muka dia familiar sangat. Kacak jugak la mamat ni, dah la tinggi, memang kegilaan perempuan jugak la. Lepas tu Sharifah. Yang ni aku tak ingat nama penuh tapi orang panggil Sha je. Talkative and quite nice figure. Cuma satu jer yang bebudak ATCEN selalu kutuk dia pasal dia nyer ass quite ‘menonjol’. Kena cop Jlo oleh ATCEN’s staff. Sha tu budak KDU so dia agak daring sikit la. Skirt dia pun agak pendek tapi the most daring yet too come. The most daring girl kat situ surely goes for Wen Shen. First day aku report duty tu, dia pakai mini skirt warna hitam dengan ATCEN black t-shirt. Marvelous!~~. Suara dia serak-serak basah gitu (seksi wooo) Cuma dia ni kurang bercakap sikit, lebih banyak duduk senyap dekat meja dia. Lepas tu jumpa pulak dengan admin guy, one malay guy and one malay girl. Aku tak sempat nak berkenalan sangat dengan derang sebab derang and Vincent duduk dalam satu area lain dari ATCEN and OutLoud team. Lepas tu kenal plak ATCEN trainer, mr maverick. Dia ni kuat layan lagu Hindi dan bercakap paling kuat kat office tu. Nice guy and boleh converse well in bahasa melayu. From kelantan kot this guy (just my assumption). Lepas tu jumpa dengan Ken, second big boss after ernie. Baik jugak Cuma busy sangat dia ni. Dalam OutLoud team, ada 2 orang lagi member beside Samantha and me iaitu; KK and one Indian guy (photographer). KK tu bekas model dan dia adalah catwalk teacher untuk model-model. Nice guy, minat sangat dengan bola. Borak dengan dia la pasal football, pasal world cup and EPL. And lastly, jumpa dengan Zul. Dia ni office boy kat situ dan jugak merangkap technician.

Next entry aku cerita pasal dilemma bekerja kat ATCEN dan jugak new opportunity in life; my second job.

Next: One Big Blurry Hit

To be continued…